not really a woman, but a spirit soul inside, having accepted a woman's body. It shows the position of Srila Prahbupada that he alone could do such a thing. I don't know who it is yet, but I vow to become her disciple and never to commit any offenses to her lotus feet. And I beg her to speak to Tamal Krishna Maharaja in the spiritual world and beg from him my forgiveness. Srila Prabhupada said Tamal Krishna Maharaja was a cowherd boy. I forgot! I am an offender! I committed the worst kind of offense Vaishnava aparadha! And to all the devotees even if you are in the Gaudiya Matha please forgive my offenses also. And especially the ones in Iskcon who I have offended the most.