Karushka

IS IT A SIN TO COMMIT SPIRITUAL SUICIDE? COWARDS RUN AWAY FROM LIFE AND THINK THEY ESCAPE BUT THEY DO NOT REALIZE THEY WILL HAVE TO COME BACK AND FACE THE SAME SCENARIO AGAIN. FAIR! NOW WHAT IF I HATE THE WORLD AND PEOPLE AND EVERYTHING!! IT IS ALL SUPERFICIAL AND MATERIALISTIC I AM SUFFOCATING. I WANNA JUST BE WITH KRISHNA!! WHEN WIL MY TIME COME? I WISH AND PRAY TO THE SUPREME THAT HE TAKES ME AWAY FROM THIS WORLD!!!I HATE IT WITH A PASSION. ALCOHOL-DRUGS-LIES-AFFAIRS-JEALOUSY-WORRIES-ANXIETIES-PAIN-HURT-SORROW!!! I JUST WANNA SLEEP ONE NITE AND DIE AND BE IN ANOTHER WORLD WHERE PEOPLE ARE TRULY GENUINE AND GOOD AT HEART. I AM TIRED...........

hare krishna! thank u for ur concern and response. it is well appreciated. i just realized as time goes by practise makes one perfect and then it is all habitual to offer prasadam and chant and join good company etc. may u all have a blissful day. hari bol!

i sometimes think there is too many rules and that dampens one from becoming krishna conscious - the rules and regulations are fair and perfect but the nitty gritty stuff like not consuming onion and garlic for it been tamastic food - that is also health tonics to fite flus and boost the immune system. besides no one can ever be a pure vegeterian so therefore we all offer and cook food for the blessed lord krishna. i follow the 4 rules and i try to chant 16 rounds. i cook food and offer it to shri krishna and if i eat out i utter the prayer before a meal. what i can not do worries me - like not taking my chanting bag all over, not wearing the tilak but i do wear my tulasi beads, i do not bath the deity and dress it and sing the iskcon prayer songs except for the food prayer. does this make me less appealing to krishna.

karma is tricky - u may be all happy due to the accumulation from ur previous birth, now do not have a ego to even consider ur karma is good, just live each day with a balanced mind - niether happy nor sad. hari bol hare krishna!!