respected sir,thank you very much for your kind reply.whatever you said is absolutely right.Guru finds me when I am ready.But I am not able to wait till that happens.Sometimes I feel like I am going to explode.There is this strong desire which is driving me crazy.i am not able to concentrate on anyother things.I feel that instead of sitting and waiting for the right moment for the Guru to appear why dont I go searching for him. Atleast I feel happy that I am doing something to get His attention.The only biggest fear I have is if I sit waiting for right time and continue with my routine life I might get drawn towards this materialistic life which I dont want .So I am doing all I can to find the Guru to achieve my goal.Please feel free to give your advice.thank you