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Hi. I'm pretty new to this community, so HELLO to everyone here. I've started doing sat kriya every morning for a couple of weeks now, and I'm doing at least one sadhana and want to continue doing the sat kriya every morning as long as I can. I love it, since I do notice the differences in my being and in how I react and relate to myself and my environment. The mind chatter is quieter and I feel more self-respect and I can stand up for myself in a different way than I could before. Now.. I am struggling with a really closed heart chakra, and after a couple of really tough years I have grown strong but also less empathetic than before. Sadly. But this kriya has in SHORT time moved the energy up within me, and it has put me in a weird mode, which i presume is the cleansing of body and subconscious. So, as I grow more strong and grounded, I have become depressed and tired/apathetic as a person. I have during these last couple of days felt an interesting movement within me, but also a big clog in my chest area. I now feel constant pain in my heart chakra, it must be the cleansing of it and the acceptance of the pain I have to go through and all, but i don't know how I can handle it. I can speak to a friend, and my heart hurts. I have a hard tiem breathing as i breathe really heavy now. I have also started with the sodarshana chakra kriya in the afternoons as it might balance the process but I don't know if I'm pushing it too far or not. Is there anything I can do, or should I just bare it out? I mean, if I feel depressed, should I just feel that or should I try to be more happy and "overcome" the feeling? Might be stupid questions, but you're dealing with a person who have a hard time dealing with personal feelings and who doesn't know how to overcome/work through it.. Thankful for all help and suggestions!! Sat Naam to you all!