Who Am I?

November 7, 2000

Dear All,

I shared this with a number of friends here in Virginia, and realized that

many of them could not access the site. When Jessica shared this

material, for me it was so lucid and so clear, I read it all for two days.

Then I saved the last one for the third day, sorry I could not read more

as there is not more. I almost never read something twice, and I read

this more than twice <g>.

I find it very beautiful.

So, I am sharing with you for those that cannot access either the written

transcripts nor the voice material on the site. I'll put this in two emails,

there is tons more, but I do not know if this is as useful to everyone.

I sent it to a wise, brilliant friend, he said, "most people cannot use

this direct path." So, it is not for everyone, for others perhaps prefer

2000 mantras each day, or, whatever, that is okay too,

this is someone who studied Ramana Maharshi.

(~*~)

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The Four Principles of

Self Realization of Noble Wisdom

Satsang with Robert Adams

August 19, 1990

Robert: I want to let you in on a little secret. There are no problems.

There are no problems. There never were any problems, there are no problems

today, and there will never be any problems. Problems just mean that the

world isn't turning the way you want it to. But in truth, there are no

problems. Everything is unfolding as it should. Everything is right. You have

to forget about yourself and expand your consciousness until you become the

whole universe. The Reality in back of the universe is Pure Awareness. It has

no problems. And you are That.

If you identify with your body, then there's a problem, because your body

always gets into trouble of some kind. But if you learn to forget about your

body and your mind, where is there a problem? In other words, leave your body

alone. Take just enough care of it. Exercise it a little, feed it right

foods, but don't think about it too much. Keep your mind on reality. Merge

your mind with reality. And you will experience reality. You will live in a

world without problems. The world may appear to have problems to others, but

not to you. You will see things differently, from a higher point of view.

I had an interesting phone call this week. Someone asked me, "Do self

realized people dream, or have visions?" Now, in order to have a dream or a

vision, there has to be somebody left to have it, and yet, if you're self

realized, there's nobody home. There's nobody left. So it's a contradiction,

as truth is. All truth is a contradiction, it's a paradox.

The answer is, sages do dream sometimes, and have visions. But they're aware

of the dreamer. In other words they realize that they are not the person

dreaming or having the vision. But as long as there's a body there someplace,

there will be dreams and visions. Even though there's no one home, there will

still, once in a while, be a dream or a vision.

As an example, Ramana Maharshi often dreamt and had visions. Nisargadatta

dreamt and had visions. Any they were both self realized. But again, the

question is, "Who dreams? Who has the vision?" There's no ego left. As long

as the dreamer is separate from the "I". I can only speak from my own

experience. There's no difference, to me, in the waking state, the dreaming

state, the sleeping state, or the vision state. They're all the same. I'm

aware of all of them, but I am not them. I observe them. I see them

happening. As a matter of fact, sometimes I can not tell the difference.

Sometimes I don't know whether I'm dreaming, or awake, or having a vision, or

I'm asleep. It's all the same, because I take a step backward, and I watch

myself going through all these things.

So, for some reason, lately, I've been dreaming about the queen of England.

She was coming to satsang. I don't know why... for about three nights in a

row. But I did have an interesting vision this morning, about four o'clock,

and we'll spend the rest of the time discussing it, because I found it very

interesting.

As many of you know, I have had a constant vision, periodically, of myself

going to Arunachala, the sacred mountain where Ramana Maharshi lived. And the

mountain is hollow, in the vision. And I go through the mountain, to the

center, where there's a bright light, a thousand times more brighter than the

sun, but yet it's pleasing and calm, and there's no heat. And then I meet

Ramana, Jesus, Rama Krishna, Nisargadatta, Lao Tse, and others. And we smile

at each other, we walk toward each other, and melt into one light, and become

one. Then there's a blinding light and an explosion. And then I open my eyes.

I've shared that with you before.

But this morning, for the first time, I had a very interesting vision, which

I'll share with you again. I dreamt I was somewhere in an open field, a

beautiful field. There was a lake nearby, trees, a forest. And I was sitting

under a tree, in this open field. And I had on the orange garb of a

renunciate. I must have been a Buddhist.

All of a sudden hundreds of bodhisattvas and mahasattvas come from the forest

and start walking toward me. And they all sit down in a semi-circle around

me, in meditation. And I wondered what I was doing. Then I realized that I

had become the Buddha. And we all sat in silence for about three hours.

Then one of the bodhisattvas got up and asked a question. He said, "Master,

what is your teaching"? It was not in English. I don't know what language he

spoke. But I understood it quite clearly. And without hesitation I said, "I

teach Self Realization of Noble Wisdom". And he sat down.

We sat for about another three hours in silence, and then another bodhisattva

got up and asked a question. "Master, how can you tell when one is close to

self realization? How can you tell one is about to become self realized?

How does one tell?"

And this is what I'd like to discuss today. How can we tell if we're on the

path correctly. I gave four principles, which I really never do in the waking

state. I never have a teaching. But I was giving a teaching, so I'll share it

with you. I explained four principles, where you know that you're close to

self realization. Of course, we're all self realized already.

Principle number 1: You have a feeling, a complete understanding,

that everything you see, everything in the universe, in the world, emanates

from your mind. In other words, you feel this. You do not have to think about

it, or try to bring it on. It comes by itself. It becomes a part of you. The

realization that everything that you see, the universe, people, worms,

insects, the mineral kingdom, the vegetable kingdom, your body, your mind,

everything that appears, is a manifestation of your mind. You have to have

that feeling, that deep understanding, without trying to.

So you ask yourself, "What do I think about all day long?". Of course, if

you fear something, if you worry, if you believe something is wrong

somewhere, if you think you're suffering from lack or limitation, or

sickness, anything, then you're out of it completely, because you're not

understanding that all these things are simply a manifestation of your own

mind. And if you worry about these things you become attached to false

imagination. That's called false imagination. You've been attached to habit

energy for many years, and all these attachments and beliefs come from habit

energy.

It's like watching a TV. show and becoming one of the characters, when you

know that you're not even in the TV. But you believe you're one of the

characters in the TV. show. So it is with the world. Do not get involved. I

don't mean you become passive. I mean your body does what it's supposed to

do. Remember, your body came to this earth to do something. It will do

something without your knowledge. It'll take care of itself. Don't worry. But

do not identify your body with yourself. They're different. Your body is not

yourself. And I'll prove this.

When you refer to your body what do you say? Don't you say "my body"? Who is

this "my" you're referring to? You say "my finger", "my eye". Who are

you

referring to? You couldn't be talking about your body, because youâ€™re saying

it's "my" body, like you own it. Who owns it? This proves to yourself that

you're not your body. So do not identify yourself with the body and the

world.

Therefore the first principle, to see how close you are to self realization

is: you are not feeling that you are identified with the world. You're

separate. And you're feeling happiness, because your natural state is pure

happiness. Once you identify with worldly things, you spoil it. The happiness

disappears, it dissipates. But when you're separate from worldly things

happiness is automatic. Beautiful, pure happiness. It comes by itself. So

that's the first principle.

The second principle I explained to the bodhisattvas was this: You have to

have a strong feeling, a deep realization, that you are unborn. You are not

born, you do not experience a life, and you do not disappear, you do not die.

You are not born, you have no life, and you do not die. You have to feel

this, that you are of the unborn. Do you realize what this means? There is

no cause for your existence. There is no cause for your suffering. There is

no cause for your problems.

Some of you still believe in cause and effect. This is true in the relative

world, but in the world of reality there is no cause. Nothing has ever been

made. Nothing has ever been created. There is no creation. I know it's hard

to comprehend. How do I exist if I was not born, I have no life and I do not

disappear in old age? You exist as "I AM". You have always existed and you

will always exist. You exist as Pure Intelligence, as Absolute Reality. That

is you true nature. You exist as Sat-chit-ananda. You exist as Bliss

Consciousness, but you do exist. You exist as Emptiness, as Nirvana, but you

do exist. So don't worry about being nonÂexistent. But you do not exist as

the body. You do not exist as person,. place or thing. Do you feel that? If

you have a strong feeling about that, then you're close to self realization.

Principle number 3: You are aware and you have a deep understanding of the

egolessness of all things; that everything has no ego. I'm not only speaking

of sentient beings. I'm speaking of the mineral kingdom, the vegetable

kingdom, the animal kingdom, the human kingdom. Nothing has an ego. There is

no ego. And do you realize what this means? It means that everything is

sacred. Everything is God. only when the ego comes, does God disappear, what

we call "God". Everything becomes God. You have reverence for everything.

When there is no ego, you have reverence for everybody and everything.

So you have to be aware of the egolessness of all things. Animals have no

ego, minerals have no ego, vegetables have no ego, and humans have no ego.

There is no cause, so there cannot be an effect. There is only Divine

Consciousness, and everything becomes Divine Consciousness. So if you look at

your fellow man and animals and everything else as being egolessness, you

will see them as yourself. Can't you see that?

It's the ego that causes separation. When I am full of ego, I become strong

within myself. I become totally separate. So the more you like yourself as a

person, the bigger your ego is. You say, "Well, I'm not supposed to like

myself?". You're supposed to love yourself, but what self are we talking

about? We're not talking about your body self, because that comes and goes.

We're talking about your permanent self, that has always been here. And your

permanent self is me, is you, is the world, is the universe, is everything.

That's your permanent self.

Egolessness. That's the only time that you can love you fellow human beings,

when you have no ego. That's how you can tell where you're at, if you're

close to self realization. That's principle number three.

Principle number 4 is simply this: You have a deep conviction, a deep

understanding, a deep feeling of what self realization of noble wisdom really

is. What is Self Realization of Noble Wisdom to you? You can never know by

trying to find out what it is, because it's Absolute Reality. You can only

know by finding out what it is not.

October 25, 2002

hrtbeat7 wrote:

We commune with helpful Friends, and are very conscious of their

Presence -- Ramana, Nityananda, Nisargadatta, Yogananda, Lahiri

Mahasaya, Amma, Han Shan, and many others -- they live and play with

us, and bless us.

God once said to Yogananda –

"Come along little boy,

come on along with Me."

Yoganandaji replied thusly –

"Hello Playmate!"

You all know the rest of the story.

Man makes good.

He Gets God.

Lives Happily ever after

and Yadda-Yadda,

ya gotta hand to God –

He plays a good game

And He tells a good story.

"If you could feel one drop

of God’s Love for you,

so great would be your Joy

that you could not contain it."

Yes, my Love, we play with the Friends

Both night and day, endless as the hours

Gone up in moments,

Endless are the ways and whats of this

As we discover why we were born.

Just to be here now.

Ha! Ram Dass really got us going!

Two on the move to groove with guys like

Ramana.

Oh yeah.

Ramana jams

The ‘shram up with silence, saying –

"The point to be grasped is this,

that heart means the core of one’s being,

the center without which there is

nothing whatever."

A jnani rocking the cyberwaves,

Rocks my world and I weep while

waving back at

Nisargadatta.

Never knew a cat could howl so deep.

Never saw a lion tame the world

With one flick of his wrist.

Never saw a head severed so cleanly

As when Nis went in to do

repair work on a pal.

"This consciousness, which is really what is born,

mistakenly attaches itself to this body and thinks

it is the body and works through the three gunas;

that is the association. And, it is that which is born.

But I have nothing to do with this.

In the Gita, Lord Krishna tells Arjuna that

You are not killing somebody, nor is anybody getting killed.

The whole thing is an illusion.

This knowledge "I am," this consciousness,

This feeling or sense of Being, will also have gone.

This sense of Being cannot remain

Without the body, just as sweetness

Cannot remain without the sugar.

What remains is the Original,

which is unconditioned,

without attributes,

and without identity:

that on which this temporary state of the consciousness

and the three states and the three gunas

have come and gone.

It is called Parabrahman,

The Absolute."

Whew! Nis riffs with the Om…

He hangs out with a guy

>From the Sky of Heart.

Uhh, hmmm. Yeah.

Him.

Nityananda.

Yo Bro. I gotta give it to ya.

Young and old alike like to strike

The iron while it’s neti-neti.

Not!

Winking away in mirth at his chum

I never knew a cat more

Cultivated

Than the wild jungle-sky

Of his Heart.

Huuuaaahh!

Heart-Sky skims my head

And I am nodding in some stupor

Of Bliss to hear him Kiss the universe

With this –

"Words and actions should show "sameness."

Burn the physical sight – and look!

It is the sense of separateness

That causes suffering at the time of death.

Yoga is union.

The eternal spirit dwells in the cave of the body.

When the two merge –

That is Yoga."

Looking at me looking at him,

The one who’s looking out

Is the one who’s looking back.

Lurking near the Namah part

Of Om Namah Shivaya,

He calls out casually to his Homeboy,

Hey!

You.

Is that ol’ Lahiri Mahasaya.

This lad of Light that shines both day and night

Is none other than the Friend

Who befriended my father in a dither

Having the characteristics and

The experience of nothing less than

Divine Mystery fire-licking at his heels.

"Dera danda uthao…"

whispers Babaji to the likes of this Yogavatar.

"Let us lift our camp and staff."

"Keshabananda, it is I. From the disintegrated atoms of my cremated

body, I have resurrected a remodeled form. My householder work

is done; but I do not leave earth entirely. Henceforth I shall spend

some time in the Himalayas, and with Babaji in the cosmos."

The Transcendent form of Lahiri Mahasaya then vanished."

As in the photo that would not be taken,

Lahiri’s taken to this game we play and says,

Jai to Ammachi!

Jai to comraderie!

Jai to giving it all up for the One!

Amma makes her way through the crowd,

Hugging each great being in turn.

As I sit here now,

I feel her warmth against my Heart.

I know she’s the Breath of Love

And I am the last gasp going out.

I try to speak of the Unspeakable,

Tongueless still I thrill to the Hearts who Hear this –

"Children, to say that there is no God

is like saying, "I have no tongue" with your own tongue.

Is it possible for a person who has no tongue to say,

"I have no tongue?"

Likewise, when we say,

"There is no God,"

at that moment itself we agree

that there is God.

In order to say that a particular object

Is ‘not,’

We must have a general knowledge

Of that object previously.

How can we prove the non-existence

Of something which is known to us?

Truth is only one.

That is God."

Merrier now than ever,

The crowd begins to crow for bo.

Bring on b,

Bring out the glee!

Wine and dine the mind with the Cup

Of Bliss-Wisdom we have brought

To this table.

And not to be overlooked for his late arrival,

Han Shan merely looks into the sky and sighs,

"In an instant of thought,

this chaotic mind is put to rest.

Internally and externally,

the sense faculties and objects

Became empty and clear.

Overturning the body —

emptiness is now shattered.

The myriad forms and appearances

arise and extinguish

in their own accord."

Have nice day!

Have a nice life!

Have a nice death!

Have a nice whatever!

It’s nice to be nice to the nice."

~Major Frank Burns of M.A.S.H 4077

Sheesh, can't somebody

shut this woman up!

LoveAlways,

Mazie

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October 25, 2002

Hi Mazie,

I just wanted to tell you how much I enjoyed this writing. I haven't

been much in touch with my friend, Ed, of South Africa, but I am

sending this along. I know you won't mind. There is a wonderful

incantatory rhythm. So simple, so sublime. Thank you.