persona

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Hi Dharma,

 

Thank you for this reminder. This was an interesting weekend. I think

the name game was truly a last ditch strategy to keep some part of my

persona intact (some sarcasm directed primarily at myself perhaps). It

was all a joke, but at the same time it was all serious. I am letting

go of the "professional scientist" part of my mask. It never fit well in

the first place, but it was stuck on with a lot of "real effort glue".

Peeling it off is not easy. As I do so, I find some serious pain in

concepts such as "failure" and "abandoned", "rejected", which I am

probably milking, but that's not the intent. The intent is to let it

exhaust itself so that I don't continue to carry it around. I think I

am also debunking the "serious spiritual guy" part of my mask, and of

course giving Harsha a hard time simply because I'm Satan and out to get

him. But seriously, you guys are so helpful in making something that

feels serious (even devastating) into a lark. In the end, I think it'll

all be just fine.

 

Anyway, I thank all those who played this odd little game. Kudos to

Dharma for making my woolen hat feel like a crown, and of course

Jessica, who scared me by running so far ahead. I wish Patty and Allen

well. Now, about those yellow stains...

 

Love, Mark (my brother chose it and I'm proud to be known by it)

 

 

 

Hi Sea,

>Don't forget me. (how could you...) I almost lost my

identity this

>weekend. Thank you for helping me maintain my

contraction by providing

>me with new names. I think this one was a close one.

 

You can't lose what you really are. Whatever you

can lose is not really

you... like your hat, or a foot, or part of the

personality; or persona,

which means "mask"; or "ego."

 

Love,

Dharma