masks and jobs and...

[Guest guest]

>> I am letting

go of the "professional scientist" part of my mask. It never fit well in

the first place, but it was stuck on with a lot of "real effort glue".

Peeling it off is not easy. As I do so, I find some serious pain in

concepts such as "failure" and "abandoned", "rejected", which I am

probably milking, but that's not the intent. The intent is to let it

exhaust itself so that I don't continue to carry it around.<<

Thank you for sharing a bit more about this, even before I got around

to asking. Slowly I am getting to "know" people here a little better,

and feel ever marvelous about being part of this group. When I had to

leave my job/career because of my health, I too had the "failure,

abandoned, rejected" mantra going on. I am still working a bit to let

go of this with regard to one particular person. So much of my

identity was tied up in my work (career) that, even with my art and

music to support me as they always have, I still fell into the Slough

of Despair. (Okay, now I am succombing a bit to your humor and this is

reminding me of a game I used to play as a child ~ "Candyland." Anyone

remember it?) I am 52 and still trying to figure out what I want to be

"when I grow up." Shanti ~ Linda

[Guest guest]

, nierika@a... wrote:

> > >> I am letting

> > go of the "professional scientist" part of my mask. It never fit

well in

> > the first place, but it was stuck on with a lot of "real effort

glue".

> > Peeling it off is not easy. As I do so, I find some serious pain

in

> > concepts such as "failure" and "abandoned", "rejected"

 

 

Good luck, Mark.

 

Not easy to switch job / career after having started on one already.

 

Love,

 

Amanda.