midnight meditation with TM

[Guest guest]

midnight with the beloved in mi wuk village

 

“Looking for God is like seeking a path in a field of snow;

if there is no path and you are looking for one,

walk across it and there is your path.”

--Thomas Merton

 

i awake

from sweet dreaming

as i do,

you do,

we all do all ways

and in so doing do and do not

so doing nothing say something

that is but a sweet nothing

 

from a dream within a dream

to begin dreaming once again

as i am trying to say,

i awake

 

i step through the dreaming door

into the dusty world sparkling

onto a midnight carpet of spring snow.

you, my beloved dark one,

as you do, are sailing way far above me

your ivory chariot darting amidst

scattering silver clouds as a dragon

here and there ever deeper within

and then, one star crackles the darkness

with the voice of your sweet laughter

then another and another join you until

the midnight is an ode to bliss and joy

an empty but solid, sound but silent,

dance of immortal voices laughing

and so i said to no one, is it to me or you,

because only sweet nothing is listening

what a perfect darkness this is and is not

a dream that is the beloved’s dream

 

i am awakening

what i am trying to say is

to begin dreaming once again

from a dream within a dream

 

 

that is but sweet nothing

merely do something of nothing

in so doing not do what is not done

as we all do in all ways

as you do,

i do

from sweet dreaming

 

we awake to falter across a midnight carpet

a trackless spring of too solid fluidity

crackling with diamonds under our dead feet

into the pale arms of the dark one herself

into the discovery that we make without effort

that we are loved with an infinite love

we, each one, are lovers in love with the beloved

because this simplicity makes itself apparent

 

our one, true, faithful beloved is in love with us

 

 

oh, mirabai, my once and future goddess, always one

i journey into your dear darkness and so return to innocence.

 

white wolfe

(april 9, 2001)