Nisaragadatta November 21, 1980

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Whatever I had thought earlier has now changed. What is

happening now is that even the slightest touch of individuality has

completely disappeared, and it is consciousness as such which is

spontaneously experiencing. The result is total freedom. All the

time there was complete conviction that it was consciousness which

was experiencing; but that "I" which the consciousness was

experiencing was there. Now that has totally disappeared; therefore,

whatever happens in the field of consciousness, I who am there before

consciousness, am not concerned in any way.. The experience is of

consciousness experiencing itself.

Nevertheless, understand what consciousness is, even if

consciousness is not an individual.. The basis and source of

consciousness is in the material.. what I say is still in the

conceptual world, and you need not accept it as truth. Nothing in

the conceptual world is true.

Once the disease was diagnosed, the very name of the disease

started various thought and concepts. Watching those thoughts and

concepts I came to the conclusion that whatever is happening is in

the consciousness. I told the consciousness, "it is you who is

suffering , not I." If consciousness want to continue to suffer let

it remain in the body. If it want to leave the body, let it Either

way, I am not concerned.

All kinds of things were happening, thought and experiences, and

they were credited to my account, but once have seen what it is , all

those account books have been burned and I no longer have any account.

How amusing it is to see someone who thinks of himself and an

individual, who thinks of himself as a doer or achiever. What ever

is happening, and the experiencing of the happening, these place in

this consciousness when the "I" Am" arises.

 

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