when i awake

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when i awake

 

“In a dream....when deep sleep falleth....the beloved opens the ears....”

-Job

33.15-16

 

each morning when i begin to stir

i discover not yet but once again

that you have worked still another

miracle my beloved my mirabai

when i begin arising each morning

 

i discover within my liquid gold heart

that indigo mood, that dark feeling

that brightly you stood hovering

a shimmering above my starry dreams

stillness wandering deep within me

dancing my feet along the astral way

the dreamer watching a dreamer

within my quicksilver mind i discover

 

when i am hardly arising each morning

i realize that not once again but again

that just you have ever more still magic

sublime illusion within sublime illusion

each morning when i feel love’s sweet stir

 

i discover within my quicksilver mind

that azure stillness, that profound silence

that dark flame that burns more brightly

spirit love burning within carnal desire

consuming desire ravishing consuming desire

dreamy thought beyond dreamy thought

the refiner’s fire flaming the refining fire

within my liquid gold heart i discover

 

each morning when i awake to silence

divine illusion divine beyond divine illusion

i know you as the one with ever holy magic

i understand not again but for the first time

when i awake in stillness each morning

 

i find your kiss, my beloved, your kiss i find

 

you have placed your sacred lips upon my profane lips

a searing kiss of blue magic igniting a timeless cobalt flame

the flame within the flame burning within and beyond all

 

love wounded marrying wounded love

your sacred heart cauterizing my mystic mind

 

subtle wonder arising awakening wonder subtlety arising

i love you, my beloved, my dark one, i love you

 

hail, Mary full of grace, queen of eternal bliss and compassion.....

 

mark christopher valentine

(July 31, 2001)