re fear

[Guest guest]

Hi Jennifer,

 

I think Jan's advice is only possible at a stage in sadhana, where the

emotions have essentially been seen through. It may make sense to try

to acheive this by in essence deciding that you have reached that stage,

and behave as if you had until it becomes real, but I was unable to do

that when I was starting on this journey, and am still limited in my

ability to do so, although it seems less out of reach now than a year

ago.

 

What I've found useful, and this may not be for everyone, but lemme tell

you about it and you can decide. What I found useful is to remind

myself often (as often as possible that I truly believe that God and

Love are the most powerful things in the universe and that fear was

created to give me the opportunity to experience the fact that God and

Love are the most powerful things in the universe.) Once I started to

believe this, I was able to allow the fear to rise up and express

itself. Sometimes this seemed (seems) overwhelming, but as long as I

keep the idea that love still is, and just surrender to whatever

happens, knowing that God will support me, the fear would get really big

and just when it seemed that it was all there was, it would (how can I

say this without seeming egotistical... maybe I can't)... It would turn

inside out, reveal itself to me made of the energy of love (like love

was all there is, but we learned this really cool, albeit scary trick in

which we inverted love to create fear), and it would bow to me and

depart. This happened a whole bunch of times, and I cultivated it by

allowing it to happen in the shower, which was a good place because

there was no one else there to see me doing it, and get worried about

me, and also I felt the water could take the fear and wash it down the

drain, and I allowed that to happen, and reminded myself many times that

the water could wash away the energy as I released it. I think the fear

is just stored up in your body after years of refusing to experience it,

and it needs to be experienced before it can go free and start to move

again. The universe seems to me to be energy in motion, and somehow

through our conditioning, we have trapped it in our bodies and by being

trapped, it turns mean and ugly, and we have to experience the meanness

of it to let it out, but once it is freed this way, it becomes grateful

to us and is our ally.

 

The demon energy is this very energy, wanting to be freed. I have been

in holotropic breathwork sessions (it's a kind of experiential therapy),

where many people were experiencing and letting go of demon energy. It's

real and it's scary, but it is energy seeking to become love, but it's

confused and doesn't know how to acheive this goal. We can help it

become free and be love if we choose to do so, and I think it is a very

good thing to do. We are here not to be tortured by evil, but to

transform evil into love. It is an amazing gift when you think about

it. Many folks here speak of a stage where this is all seen to be

illusion. I think that is quite true, but I also think that working to

set the energy free and do the transformation helps you get to that

stage much faster than just living an ordinary life. Well, there is

much that I don't know, I just wanted to share some of the things that

have happened to me along the way.

 

Love, Mark

 

 

Hi Jennifer,

 

Why not ignore fear? In the sense of not dedicating any

thought to it

but continuing "business as usual". All feelings can be

ignored this way-

nothing is suppressed, just not allowed to control any

activity.

 

Jan