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Hiya TG and Jill (and everyone else)

 

 

 

Always good to hear from you both again.

 

We don't hear as much from each other as we did before, but it's

always great to see your familiar names appear on the screen.

It feels like a long time since we met, but it's only a few years.

 

Every time I hear from you TG I get reminded of what you said to the

list in connection with your personal story: "I remain on my knees

these days." That touched me a lot and has been a good reminder for

me too.

 

> When I experienced kundalini awakening, one very surprising aspect

was the experience of sudden and compelling devotion. Before

>kundalini, I had understood God as transcendent reality, without

form, and found the conception of God with form and attribute rather

>difficult, or artificial.

>I would wake in the middle of the night every night those first

months of new, pouring kundalini energy, calling the names of forms

>of god unfamiliar to me, consumed with a devotion I did not

intellectually understand. Devotion has indeed been the sustaining

>cord in the most difficult aspects of the k process.

 

 

I recognize what you say Jill.

 

To me it seems that devotion is so out of fashion these days, life is

all about control and always coping and when that doesn't happen,

there is the added sense of shame for not coping in addition.

 

So when there are situations where it would be natural and even

healthy to develop a sense of devotion, even when you have the

feeling that it's God who's making life difficult or testing you

(sometimes it's necessary to have someone to blame too) or what have

you, most ppl can't do it, even if they want to and feel that's their

deepest need then and there, forgetting that devotion is something

that has existed for centuries.

 

It takes a degree of independent thought and "don't worry about the

rest" attitude to dare to start giving in to the need for devotion

(when that is needed). At least I know it did for me, I did my

devotional "practices" in secrecy and it kind of had to sneak up

behind my back to get close for me to even start doing it.

 

Maybe this modernity and lack of practice in devotion is the reason

why ppl need to come to crisis to start turning inwards and come to

it not always in very healthy states too. But maybe when devotion is

then found (despite general society and despite peer pressure) it

really really sticks and unfolds, so maybe it's not such a dumb thing

after all?

 

It's too bad devotion is so unfashionable though because behind

devotion there is heartfelt trust and behind that there is a lot of

knowledge and security and rest.

 

 

Love,

 

Amanda.