Exploding Into Spaciousness

[Guest guest]

(I was planning to write individual responses to those who commented on my

post, "How Do You Empty The Mind?" This came, instead, as an overall

response.)

 

All talk of truth is a game. A joyful game. A game in which we toss a ball

of light back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. And the goal of

this game, as our movements slow down and our words taper off, is to make

the ball get smaller and smaller and smaller and smaller, until, without

will or warning, it simply disappears without a trace. And when its gone,

the game is over. And when the game is over, it's realized that the

shrinking light was not truth being distinguished and distilled, but the

fantasy that truth can be known and put into words, gradually losing it's

power over us.

 

We're so busy trying to discover and delineate THE TRUTH, that we can't see

that the truth is ALL THAT IS. We don't need to narrow our focus to discover

truth, we need to enlarge it until it includes everything!! So when that

ball of light finally disappears, it isn't disappearing into nothingness,

it's disappearing into everythingness. And in that moment we realize they

are one and the same.

 

And right now, that's all I want. To disappear. To explode. To burst into

infinite pieces of light that blaze for a breath-taking moment and then

dissolve back into the shimmering glow of spaciousness. To shatter the bonds

of thought and time and dissolve back into the ocean of presence.

 

NO. Sorry. That's way too thought heavy. Too many beliefs are encapsulated

in those words. What I want is far more simple. To be. Not to be this or

that. Not to escape being this or that. Simply, to be. Whatever that may

mean. Whatever that may look like. Whatever that makes me do or not do. I no

longer care to define, understand, or even know what it means to be. Even

wanting to be, is too much effort to endure. I'm here. I'm open. If being

wants to engulf me, that's fine. If being prefers to elude me, that's fine,

too. Since there's nothing I can do about it, I'm going to go out and play.

 

Will you join me?

 

Namaste,

Julie