This Satsangh and My First Months Here

[Guest guest]

Dear Friends,

 

When I first joined this satsangh, I droned on about my own Guruji,

about my little experiences as a Bhakti, and a whole host of "head-in-

the-clouds" bumblings. Everyone was the epitome of kindness,

actually, I feel as though everyone took me under their nondual wings

and drew me closer. The patience that was extended, the openness to

my stories about my practice of Kriya yoga and devotion, all this was

so gently and kindly recieved and accepted. Now, after fifteen months

with everyone here, I cannot express enough how much I've been helped

by reading and listening to the discussions about Advaita. I found a

way to reconcile my over-flowing loving devotion to God and guru with

nondualism, and now, I am ever more aware of beauty, the completeness

of Advaita. Even my poetry has a new voice that speaks of these new

understandings. I am grateful that everyone was so patient and kind

about all my stammerings to understand all about nondualism,

something I had previously known only very little about. All the

great friends and teachers here are to be thanked for the job they do

in allowing others to come to an understanding about nondualism as

they are able to. Some things are actually not able to be understood

to those who are unable to break past their long-held beliefs and

rituals of practice. These things that they, or I, clung to, were

what brought me to where I was in my understanding, and to just toss

them was not something that I could do right off. I had to learn to

let go and just let it all happen, without any methods, without any

rituals, just naturally unfolding as I unfolded under the kind

guidance from my friends here. It seems that loving patience and

gentle understanding are the easiest and most reliable methods to

allow another to find out what they have known all along, if not

consciously. But then again, what works for one may not work for

another. Perhaps some do need a swift boot to the mental derriere to

get with the program. But the way that I was treated was an

immeasurable help to me in finding out what nondualism is really all

about.

 

Love, Peace,

Mazie