As it came, so it will go.

[Guest guest]

I arrived on the 4th April, 1950.

In view of Sri Bhagavan's weak condition, darshan was restricted to

the queues in the morning and the evening,

and except the personal and medical attendants all others were

strictly forbidden to see Sri Bhagavan.

So, that night with a heavy heart I started to go back.

As I neared the wicket gate of Sri Bhagavan's room, Sri Jayadevlal,

who was guarding it, whispered to me:

"Do you want to see Sri Bhagavan?"

I replied: "Yes, but there is no permission.".

He said: "Never mind, get in", and pushed me in.

 

Sri Bhagavan was alone lying on bed and facing the entrance as though waiting for someone.

As soon as I got up after prostrating at the doorstep Sri Bhagavan said, "Come in".

As I went in and stood before Him, Sri Bhagavan asked me: "What do you want?"

I said with streaming eyes: "I want abhayam" (freedom from fear).

Sri Bhagavan said with overflowing Grace: "Saree Yicchanu" (Yes, I have given it).

 

Sri Bhagavan added: "Don't fear. As it came, so it will go."

 

At once I felt as though a heavy load were lifted from my heart and as

I touched His Lotus Feet with my hands and head

a thrill of ecstasy passed through my frame, and I was plunged in an ocean of peace and bliss.

 

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Subbaramayya: Sri Ramana Reminiscences

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