Kicking the Clown Who Made This Oaf into Bread

[Guest guest]

"I placed one foot on the wide plain

of death, and some grand

immensity sounded on the emptiness.

 

I have felt nothing ever

like the wild wonder of that moment."

 

~Rumi

 

Having spent an hour and a bit longer

perfecting the art of Zen,

i lost my mind when i lost my work,

and then, i just heard someone laughing.

 

Laughing like some rabid racoon who's told me,

"Sweetheart, why waste a moment wasting time,

when you can work from 'Word' and keep your head?"

Keeping my sense of humor,

i just started to write another Lover's lament

about how it went right out the window of Windows.

 

Time spent and time lost in losing one's work,

losing one's sense of intellignece to ignorance,

well, can't say he didn't tell me he would tell me,

"Baby, i told you to listen to what i said."

 

Man! The words i want to say won't get it here,

they're way to red-faced making if they were ever said!

 

i placed my foot up my own place of worship,

worshipping what i would call stubbornness to change,

and really Robert, wasn't it just grand

to have to stand here with not a loaf of bread,

but an immense oaf instead!

 

Emptiness

 

where words should have been,

can one even comprehend

how much i wish

i had actually

listened to you?

 

i have felt nothing ever

like the wild wonder at my blunder,

instead of the moment where you,

when you might have been responding

to a great piece of poetic notions,

full of the motions of what Zen

could have sent to say

what i am not saying now.

 

Give me a caning like a raining,

and give me a break

for being such a fool.

i can either keep laughing at my oafishness,

or be so dismayed that i can only drool.

 

Dropping to my knees

and still trying to find it,

i gave up and got it

when the screen went blank.

 

What a crazy cat walking backwards wanted to say,

it will not be said right now, not ever i guess.

'Cause there seems to be this thing

where the listening to good advice

is always on delay.

 

What a day!

What a dolt!

What a waste of time

i brought upon myself!

 

So saying all this nonsense,

do you get the sense that i just blew it,

and i knew it

when i saw the work wing off again!

 

Whew! It's a wonder

i can even remember my own name!

Good thing i still believe

it's all just a game.

 

So sending this

i was remiss in saving all the work,

and now,

i surely can keep calling me,

and saying,

"Mazie, you really are a full-tilt jerk.

 

Jerking around

and acting the clown,

i lost every word

that wanted to be worded

as some fine Zen being in the moment.

 

Just a moment dear,

while i try to clear

this momentous, monumental blunder.

But really, really Robert,

You just gotta love it!

 

"If you want money more than anything,

you'll be bought and sold.

 

If you have a greed for food,

you'll be a loaf of bread.

 

This is a subtle truth:

whatever you love, you are."

 

~Rumi

 

 

LoveAlways,

 

Mazie (and a mazie who will always use 'word' from now on!)

[Guest guest]

, "mazie_l" <sraddha54@h...> wrote:

>(and a mazie who will always use 'word' from now on!)

 

 

....zen at work!

 

 

:-))

 

 

 

 

(loved the sandwich!)