Cloaks

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Last night I had a very cool experience. My family was asleep and I

was lying there totally relaxed and also very alert. In my mind's

eye I saw a cloak appear before me. It was a cloak of what I took to

be someone else's impression of me. I stepped into it, it felt lousy,

and so I stepped out of it. Then it happened again with what I took

as a different person's impression of me. (These impressions were

coming from the recent influx of comments that had lodged in my mind

from people relating to my list contributions.) I also experimented

with old cloaks of impressions that key people in my past have had of

me, from what I found to be the most ideal to the most repulsive, and

even dared to try on one of the ugliest self judgements I could

recall.

 

This all happened in moments, by the way. At the end of the

experience, I felt as if I was standing naked, as the nobody I

really, really am, before a closet full of robes that did not look

attractive enough to me to even try on for size.....

 

.....and I saw that I was in no need to dress myself.