Adventures at Rasa Ranch #25

[Guest guest]

7/27/02 "Preparing for the Birth - Part I"

 

Yesterday our midwife came over to meet with us. We talked for a

while and she gave us a list containing additional things that we

need to do and supplies that we need to have on hand in order to

prepare for the birth. Then, as usual, she took my blood pressure,

pulse, etc., and had me lie down so that she could measure my belly

and feel the position of the baby. Jim and I both saw a shadow cross

over her face as she felt around. Apparently, our littlest one had

flip-flopped during the night and was now "heads-up."

 

This midwife does not deliver babies in the breech position and told

us that we would have to go to the hospital if he didn't turn around.

My initial unspoken response was like this: 'Hey, I'm not really

that big yet, there's still plenty of room, what's the hurry?' In

contrast, our midwife's reaction was, "I want you to talk to the baby

and let him know that you want him to turn around..." She told us

that after a couple of days, if there had been no change, Jim was to

build me a slanted board apparatus that I was to lie on with my feet

pointed upward for twenty minutes because babies in utero do not like

their heads scrunched up against Mom's ribs. If that didn't work,

there was the manual turning of the baby which is supposedly not much

fun for anyone. And then there was the mention of the C-section.

 

When she left, I hate to say it, but I was a little shaken. She had

retained a "cheery" disposition but I hadn't. Jim and Ananda were

completely fine. When I asked Jim what his take was on it, it was

amazing. His thoughts were exactly the same as my original ones had

been. The only difference between us was that I had followed the

midwife down the path of anxiety and he hadn't. I saw clearly that

the source of the nervousness was not my heart and in that same

moment the anxiety vanished. I am grateful to Jim for not taking a

single step down the worry-path!

 

A little later, while watching a show we like on TV, I lay down and

propped my hips up high with a bunch of pillows, just because. The

next time I stood up I felt the baby settle back into "heads down."

It was almost comical. I called the midwife only an hour and a half

after we'd seen her to tell her what was up (or down, as it were).

"Oh! What a relief," she said, confirming to me that she really had

been a little anxious about it even though she did not admit it when

she was here. I reminded her with a joking voice that there was

still "plenty of room in the womb" and that the baby could decide to

change position at any time. She told me to keep her posted, I told

her okay, and we hung up.

 

As I was putting the phone back into its cradle with a click, the

notion hit me that I am about to play a leading role in one of the

most intensely powerful experiences known to humankind, and that I

desire, more than anything else in the whole universe, to be fully

present, fully aware, and absolutely, positively as full of love and

serenity as I can possibly be.

[Guest guest]

Kheyala, could you send your Rasa Ranch adventures to ZenPearl as well... Or do you do that already?

Wim

Kheyala

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Adventures at Rasa Ranch #25

7/27/02 "Preparing for the Birth - Part I"

Yesterday our midwife came over to meet with us. We talked for a

while and she gave us a list containing additional things that we

need to do and supplies that we need to have on hand in order to

prepare for the birth. Then, as usual, she took my blood pressure,

pulse, etc., and had me lie down so that she could measure my belly

and feel the position of the baby. Jim and I both saw a shadow cross

over her face as she felt around. Apparently, our littlest one had

flip-flopped during the night and was now "heads-up."

This midwife does not deliver babies in the breech position and told

us that we would have to go to the hospital if he didn't turn around.

My initial unspoken response was like this: 'Hey, I'm not really

that big yet, there's still plenty of room, what's the hurry?' In

contrast, our midwife's reaction was, "I want you to talk to the baby

and let him know that you want him to turn around..." She told us

that after a couple of days, if there had been no change, Jim was to

build me a slanted board apparatus that I was to lie on with my feet

pointed upward for twenty minutes because babies in utero do not like

their heads scrunched up against Mom's ribs. If that didn't work,

there was the manual turning of the baby which is supposedly not much

fun for anyone. And then there was the mention of the C-section.

When she left, I hate to say it, but I was a little shaken. She had

retained a "cheery" disposition but I hadn't. Jim and Ananda were

completely fine. When I asked Jim what his take was on it, it was

amazing. His thoughts were exactly the same as my original ones had

been. The only difference between us was that I had followed the

midwife down the path of anxiety and he hadn't. I saw clearly that

the source of the nervousness was not my heart and in that same

moment the anxiety vanished. I am grateful to Jim for not taking a

single step down the worry-path!

A little later, while watching a show we like on TV, I lay down and

propped my hips up high with a bunch of pillows, just because. The

next time I stood up I felt the baby settle back into "heads down."

It was almost comical. I called the midwife only an hour and a half

after we'd seen her to tell her what was up (or down, as it were).

"Oh! What a relief," she said, confirming to me that she really had

been a little anxious about it even though she did not admit it when

she was here. I reminded her with a joking voice that there was

still "plenty of room in the womb" and that the baby could decide to

change position at any time. She told me to keep her posted, I told

her okay, and we hung up.

As I was putting the phone back into its cradle with a click, the

notion hit me that I am about to play a leading role in one of the

most intensely powerful experiences known to humankind, and that I

desire, more than anything else in the whole universe, to be fully

present, fully aware, and absolutely, positively as full of love and

serenity as I can possibly be.

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and indeed all experiences arise from and exist in and subside back

into the Space of Awareness. Like waves rising are not different than

the ocean, all things arising from Awareness are of the nature of

Awareness. Awareness does not come and go but is always Present. It

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Finality of Eternal Being. A true devotee relishes in the Truth of

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[Guest guest]

, Wim Borsboom <wim@a...> wrote:

> Kheyala, could you send your Rasa Ranch adventures to ZenPearl as

well... Or

> do you do that already?

> Wim

 

 

I do now!

 

 

Thanks, Wim.