Adventures at Rasa Ranch #6

[Guest guest]

7/5/02 "The Angel and the Grouch"

 

I was awful today. I mean, really a big grouch. At one point I

snapped at something really insignificant and Ananda said, "Mommy,

did you have a bad thought?" I didn't answer. I was too grumpy.

Then she came over and said, "What is it? Tell me your thought." I

told her to leave me alone. She went over to her dad and I heard her

say, "I am going to help Mommy because she is sad." I called out to

her that I didn't need her help because I was fine. Then I made

myself scarce.

 

I wasn't gone for very long but when I came back Ananda was sitting

there in tears. "Why did you fool me? Why did you tell me you were

fine? I know you weren't fine." I sat down beside her, put my hand

on her back and said, "You are right. I didn't fool you, did I?"

She shook her head and said no. She asked me again about what my bad

thought was but I just shrugged and admitted that I couldn't find it.

Then I started to cry. She said, "It's okay, Mommy. I will hold

you."

 

She wrapped her arms around my neck and squeezed her whole little body

against me like she really meant it, with everything she had. Then

she put the softest, plumpest hands on my face and kissed it in a

couple of spots with a sweetness that I can't even begin to describe.

My tears of sadness had shifted into tears of wonder and she noticed

that right away, saying, "Is that what you needed, Mommy?" So I

sniffed and chuckled a little, wiped the remaining tear away and

said, "I guess that was exactly what I needed!" Then she jumped up

and declared that she was going to go play....and then she was gone.