Enough!

[Guest guest]

Several days ago I received an e-mail from an old acquaintance of ten

years. She had a lot of impassioned words for me about the decisions

I had come to regarding my mother and brother. This is not the first

letter I had received of this nature and in the past I'd pretty much

passed them by without responding to them, including one from the

same person back when I was forced to cut ties with my mom. This

time, however, I felt a strong call to not let it go; in other words,

to meet this opportunity directly.

 

It took days of rough drafts being composed in my head until finally I

gave up trying to come up with the correct response and I made the

decision to just drop it. I'd concluded that whatever was the right

thing to say back to her was going to have to come from somewhere

else because my attempts at using my thoughts were just not getting

me anywhere. In giving up, I was also realizing intuitively that the

true response was going to be somehow bigger than I was able to

conceive at that time.

 

To my astonishment, it was only about a half a beat after that release

that I literally had to stop what I was doing immediately and run for

a scrap of paper and a pen, and when I'd read over what had been

written (cleanly, without erasure), I saw that the intuition was

correct. My mind was just being way too nice to be able to let the

impact of the true message come through. Anyway, hold onto your

hats. Here it is:

 

~~~~~

 

Are these the kinds of things you tell yourself to keep your soul

locked up in a cage of compliance? Have you noticed the creases in

between your brows? Yes, this road leads only to bitterness and

disgust. I know it because I used to travel it myself. But guess

what? I do not live by the crusty rules of that old book of values

any longer and if you find yourself again in a mood to preach from

it, better to remove my name permanently from your address book.

 

Kheyala