Adventures at Rasa Ranch #141

[Guest guest]

11/27/03

 

Ananda and I were seated on the living room floor taking advantage of

Zacky's nap, to do some long-overdue coloring together. Jim was in

the kitchen making the last preparations for our Thanksgiving meal

and for some crazy reason which I do not know, I gave him a hard time

for making unnecessary dishes that would need cleaning. As usual, he

did not sink to defending himself, and as usual, I had an apology to

make.

 

I called into the kitchen. "You know, I get on your case for doing

things that I think will make life more difficult for us, but it's

actually my getting on your case that makes things the most difficult

of all." Jim chuckled and agreed. "Do you forgive me?" I asked.

"Yeeessss," he called back, good-naturedly. Ananda stopped her

coloring for a moment and aiming her eyes directly at me, she asked,

"Do you forgive yourself?"

 

I looked back at her, my mind a total blank. It must have been the

gawk-expression on my face that made her start laughing out loud, and

melting in the vision of this naked, redheaded, sheer music-making

beauty with crayons in her hands, I said affectionately, "Very good,

sweetheart." I wrapped her up in my arms and planted a kiss on the

top of her head. I don't know how she knew it, or even *if* she knew

it, but the reality was that I, indeed, had not forgiven myself. I

had been leaving that up to Jim, and I had never in my whole life

noticed that tendency before Ananda asked me that.

[Guest guest]

Wonderful day for You Kheyala and all the others!

what a wonderful happening with Ananda!

Reminds me on my relationship with our son Gavriel, since he is back on earth again!

Growing up in a real spiritual background might give our kids the necessary selfesteem!

Have a fulfilling weekend

Michael Bindel

>"Kheyala"

> >

> Adventures at Rasa Ranch #141 >Fri,

28 Nov 2003 15:12:55 -0800 > >11/27/03 > >Ananda and I were seated on

the living room floor taking advantage of Zacky's nap, to do some

long-overdue coloring together. Jim was in the kitchen making the

last preparations for our Thanksgiving meal and for some crazy reason

which I do not know, I gave him a hard time for making unnecessary

dishes that would need cleaning. As usual, he did not sink to

defending himself, and as usual, I had an apology to make. > >I

called into the kitchen. "You know, I get on your case for doing

things that I think will make life more difficult for us, but it's

actually my getting on your case that makes things the most difficult

of all." Jim chuckled and agreed. "Do you forgive me?" I asked.

"Yeeessss," he called back, good-naturedly. Ananda stopped her

coloring for a moment and aiming her eyes directly at me, she asked,

"Do you forgive yourself?" > >I looked back at her, my mind a total

blank. It must have been the gawk-expression on my face that made her

start laughing out loud, and melting in the vision of this naked,

redheaded, sheer music-making beauty with crayons in her hands, I

said affectionately, "Very good, sweetheart." I wrapped her up in my

arms and planted a kiss on the top of her head. I don't know how she

knew it, or even *if* she knew it, but the reality was that I,

indeed, had not forgiven myself. I had been leaving that up to Jim,

and I had never in my whole life noticed that tendency before Ananda

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