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Honest Writing

 

Since Bob has been given a month off from fighting his cancer, the two of us

have gotten a taste of what our life used to be like before cancer took control.

It is always the simplest things that count the most. For me, having everything

in order at home enables me to enjoy what Pamela Wilson calls "rest and

rapture."

 

There have been too many days engaged in suffering for me to take daily life for

granted ever again. Putting a new liner in the trash can and seeing that we

have extras is just as important as knowing what Nisargadatta has to say about

consciousness.

 

Finding a box of Valentine's candy marked down to fifty cents when we went to

Kroger was positively uplifting and I ate all six pieces within hours. Drinking

coffee and watching the Daily Show on Comedy Central is just as relaxing as yoga

on a studio mat. Am I selling out....I don't think so.

 

Michelle, our friend with metastasized breast cancer, died at age fifty last

week and another friend was in the ICU for a few days. We all know that hell

visits regularly and there is nothing much we can do to keep it from coming. I

write on my homepage and work crossword puzzles. Is that better or worse than

praying? You got me.

 

Checking in at Harsha's and Jerry's is a comforting thing to do. Lately things

are slow on the lists; where has everyone gone? Maybe they are drinking coffee

and eating donuts by the sea. Is that as fulfilling as reciting a mantra or

doing seva. I don't know and something in me doesn't care. I used to be much

more punctilious about my spiritual practice. I still love a good spiritual

phrase; that will never change. I also like watching dvd's and getting a good

night's sleep.

 

Well, that's it from my part of the universe. Love from Vicki.