Desire and the Importance of Failing

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"Desire and the Importance of Failing" - Rumi (at his finest,

clearest, Heart-rendingly...entirely given to want

Truth above all, Kindness above all, Compassion above all ... above

All, even above and beyond the All Which Calls Within...Friend, come

with Me, says Rumiji. Rumi zoomin' in wisdom-ecstasy beyond human

limits, and yet, sheesh, doing it ---

 

 

A window opens.

A curtain pulls back.

The lamps of lovers connect, not at their ceramic bases,

but in their lightedness.

 

No lover wants union with the Beloved

without the Beloved also wanting the lover.

Love makes the lover weak, while the Beloved gets strong.

 

Lightning from here strikes there.

When you begin to love God, God is loving you.

 

A clapping sound does not come from one hand.

 

The thirsty man calls out,

"Delicious water, where are you?" while the water moans,

"Where is the water-drinker?"

The thirst in our souls is the attraction put out

by the Water itself.

We belong to It, and It to us.

 

God's wisdom made us lovers of one another.

In fact, all the particles of the world

are in love and looking for lovers.

 

Pieces of straw tremble in the presence of amber.

We tremble like iron filings welcoming the magnet.

Whatever that Presence gives us we take in.

 

Earth signs feed.

Water signs wash and freshen.

Air signs clear the atmosphere.

Fire signs jiggle the skillet,

so we cook without getting burnt.

And the Holy Spirit helps with everything,

like a young man trying to support a family.

We, like the man's young wife, stay home,

taking care of the house, nursing the children.

 

Spirit and matter work together like this,

in a division of labor.

 

Sweethearts kiss and taste the delight

before they slip into bed and mate.

 

The desire of each lover is that the work of the other be perfected.

 

By this man-and-woman cooperation, the world gets preserved.

Generation occurs.

 

Roses and blue arghawan flowers flower.

Night and day meet in a mutual hug.

So different, but they do love each other,

the day and the night, like family.

 

And without their mutual alternation we would have no energy.

Every part of the cosmos draws toward its mate.

 

The ground keeps talking to the body, saying, "Come back!

It's better for you down here where you came from."

 

The streamwater calls to the moisture in the body.

 

The fiery ether whispers to the body's heat,

"I am your origin. Come with me."

 

Seventy-two diseases are caused

by the various elements pulling inside the body.

Disease comes, and the organs fall out of harmony.

 

We're like the four different birds,

that each had one leg tied in with the other birds.

A flopping bouquet of birds!

 

Death releases the binding, and they fly off,

but before that, their pulling is our pain.

 

Consider how the soul must be,

in the midst of these tensions,

feeling its own exalted pull.

 

My longing is more profound.

 

These birds want the sweet green herbs

and the water running by.

 

I want the infinite! I want wisdom.

 

These birds want orchards and meadows

and vines with fruit on them.

 

I want a vast expansion.

 

They want profit and the security of having enough food.

Remember what the soul wants, because in that,

eternity is wanting our souls!

 

Which is the meaning of the text,

They love That, and That loves them.

 

If I keep on explaining this,

the Mathnawi will run to eighty volumes!

 

The gist is: whatever anyone seeks, that is seeking the seeker.

No matter if it's animal, or vegetable, or mineral.

Every bit of the universe is filled with wanting,

And whatever any bits wants, wants the wanter!

 

This subject must dissolve again.

 

Back to Sadri Jahan and the uneducated peasant who loved him,

So that gradually Sadri Jahan loved the lowly man.

 

But who really attracted who, whom, Huuuu?

 

Don't be presumptuous and say one or the other.

 

Close your lips.

 

The mystery of loving is God's sweetest secret.

Keep it. Bury it.

Leave it here where I leave it,

drawn as I am by the pull of the Puller to something else.

 

You know how it is.

 

Sometimes we plan a trip to one place,

but something takes us to another.

 

When a horse is being broken,

the trainer pulls it in many different directions,

So the horse will come to know what it is to be ridden.

The most beautiful and alert horse

is one completely attuned

to the rider.

 

God fixes a passionate desire in you,

and then disappoints you.

God does that a hundred times!

 

God breaks with wings of one intention and then gives you another,

Cuts the rope of contriving, so you'll remember your dependence.

 

But sometimes, your plans work out!

You feel fulfilled and in control.

That's because, if you were always failing,

you might give up.

 

But remember, it is by failures

that lovers stay aware

of how they're loved.

 

Failure is the key to the kingdom within.

 

Your prayer should be,

 

"Break the legs of what I want to happen.

Humiliate my desire. Eat me like candy.

It's spring, and finally, I have no will."

 

~Mathnawi III: 4391-4472 Version by Coleman Barks

"Feeling the Shoulder of the Lion" Threshold Books, 1991

 

 

LoveAlways,

 

Mazie