Guest guest Posted August 26, 2004 Report Share Posted August 26, 2004 Heavy Grace Ram Dass speaks of suffering as "heavy grace." Amen to that. The grace of this day has all but floored me. Not only is Bob anemic and in need of transfusions but he also needed platelets. It was only a couple of weeks ago that our neighbor said he could have a "bleed" that could prove to be fatal. We stumbled over to the cafeteria and ate in silence and then I walked him to the Outpatient Infusion Center. I drove home listening to the radio and checked the mail and the computer. Now that I have the freedom of privacy I can let down my hair and cry. If what I am recounting sounds familiar, that's because it is. I have written in this vein as often as his have been hooked up to IV machines. It never gets any easier; in fact the fatigue level rises daily. I am pretty much wiped out. Today I spoke with the social worker in the doctor's office and she, as always, gave me plenty of space to feel my grief and helplessness. Sometimes a nod is enough as the story spills out into tears and remorseful words. Why can't I be stronger and less.....me. I tend to say things I regret and build walls around myself. Of course these tactics don't work. All they do is isolate me. Writing is confessional for me. For those of you who don't know me, I write about my husband's battle with multiple myeloma. For those of you who know me even better, I am writing about myself. Occasionally I rise above conditions and words roll in like a mist, unfurling like so many fronds on a fern. That is grace. Vicki Woodyard http://www.bobwoodyard.com Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 26, 2004 Report Share Posted August 26, 2004 , "skiplaurel" <vicki@b...> wrote: > Heavy Grace > > Ram Dass speaks of suffering as "heavy grace." Amen to that. The grace of this day has all but floored me. Not only is Bob anemic and in need of transfusions but he also needed platelets. It was only a couple of weeks ago that our neighbor said he could have a "bleed" that could prove to be fatal. > > We stumbled over to the cafeteria and ate in silence and then I walked him to the Outpatient Infusion Center. I drove home listening to the radio and checked the mail and the computer. > > Now that I have the freedom of privacy I can let down my hair and cry. If what I am recounting sounds familiar, that's because it is. I have written in this vein as often as his have been hooked up to IV machines. It never gets any easier; in fact the fatigue level rises daily. I am pretty much wiped out. > > Today I spoke with the social worker in the doctor's office and she, as always, gave me plenty of space to feel my grief and helplessness. Sometimes a nod is enough as the story spills out into tears and remorseful words. Why can't I be stronger and less.....me. I tend to say things I regret and build walls around myself. Of course these tactics don't work. All they do is isolate me. > > Writing is confessional for me. For those of you who don't know me, I write about my husband's battle with multiple myeloma. For those of you who know me even better, I am writing about myself. Occasionally I rise above conditions and words roll in like a mist, unfurling like so many fronds on a fern. That is grace. > > Vicki Woodyard > http://www.bobwoodyard.com Namaste V, Maybe some relief may be found here. Cayce says that three almonds a day will prevent most cancers etc etc. He also says that cancers and viruses do not like alkali bodies. Our diet must be 80% alkali. Glyco-Thymoline is a good alkali, so is a 1/4 teaspoon of bicarb in a glass of water etc. Castor oil packs are good for healing and imporving lymph cleansings etc.....No offering cures but there may be some relief.........Love ONS...Tony. http://www.edgarcayce.org/health/database/chdata/index.html http://www.are-cayce.org/readings/Main.html Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 26, 2004 Report Share Posted August 26, 2004 , "Tony OClery" <aoclery> wrote: my hair and > me. > > > > Writing is confessional for me. For those of you who don't know > me, I write about my husband's battle with multiple myeloma. For > those of you who know me even better, I am writing about myself. > Occasionally I rise above conditions and words roll in like a > mist, unfurling like so many fronds on a fern. That is grace. > > > > Vicki Woodyard > > http://www.bobwoodyard.com > > Namaste V, > > Maybe some relief may be found here. Cayce says that three almonds a > day will prevent most cancers etc etc. He also says that cancers and > viruses do not like alkali bodies. Our diet must be 80% alkali. > Glyco-Thymoline is a good alkali, so is a 1/4 teaspoon of bicarb in > a glass of water etc. Castor oil packs are good for healing and > imporving lymph cleansings etc.....No offering cures but there may > be some relief.........Love ONS...Tony. > > http://www.edgarcayce.org/health/database/chdata/index.html > > http://www.are-cayce.org/readings/Main.html Namaste V, http://health.areclinicsmedicalforum/messages Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 26, 2004 Report Share Posted August 26, 2004 Dearest Vicky thank you so much for sharing your load. You are in my heart and your light is a great help for me. in GD i trust michael ________________ Tiscali ADSL Senza Canone, paga solo quello che consumi! Non perdere la promozione valida fino al 31 agosto. Per te gratis il modem in comodato e l'attivazione. In piu' navighi a soli 1,5 euro l'ora per i primi tre mesi. Cosa aspetti? Attivala subito! http://abbonati.tiscali.it/adsl/prodotti/640Kbps/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 26, 2004 Report Share Posted August 26, 2004 , michaelbindel@t... wrote: > > Dearest Vicky > > thank you so much for sharing your load. > You are in my heart and your light is a great help for me. > > in GD i trust > > > michael Dear Michael, I am an open book with some pages missing As far as my light is concerned, perhaps an itty bitty book light. A funny story. My nephew loved to read in the first grade so much that he would stay up past bedtime reading with a flashlight! Love, Vicki > > ________________ > Tiscali ADSL Senza Canone, paga solo quello che consumi! > Non perdere la promozione valida fino al 31 agosto. Per te gratis il modem > in comodato e l'attivazione. In piu' navighi a soli 1,5 euro l'ora per i > primi tre mesi. Cosa aspetti? Attivala subito! > http://abbonati.tiscali.it/adsl/prodotti/640Kbps/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 26, 2004 Report Share Posted August 26, 2004 , "skiplaurel" <vicki@b...> wrote: > Heavy Grace > > Ram Dass speaks of suffering as "heavy grace." Amen to that. The grace of this day has all but floored me. Not only is Bob anemic and in need of transfusions but he also needed platelets. It was only a couple of weeks ago that our neighbor said he could have a "bleed" that could prove to be fatal. > > We stumbled over to the cafeteria and ate in silence and then I walked him to the Outpatient Infusion Center. I drove home listening to the radio and checked the mail and the computer. > > Now that I have the freedom of privacy I can let down my hair and cry. If what I am recounting sounds familiar, that's because it is. I have written in this vein as often as his have been hooked up to IV machines. It never gets any easier; in fact the fatigue level rises daily. I am pretty much wiped out. > > Today I spoke with the social worker in the doctor's office and she, as always, gave me plenty of space to feel my grief and helplessness. Sometimes a nod is enough as the story spills out into tears and remorseful words. Why can't I be stronger and less.....me. I tend to say things I regret and build walls around myself. Of course these tactics don't work. All they do is isolate me. > > Writing is confessional for me. For those of you who don't know me, I write about my husband's battle with multiple myeloma. For those of you who know me even better, I am writing about myself. Occasionally I rise above conditions and words roll in like a mist, unfurling like so many fronds on a fern. That is grace. > > Vicki Woodyard > http://www.bobwoodyard.com Hi Vicki, Thank you for this grace-laden fern-speak. If you keep on writing and reading what you've written, surely you'll see what I see...that you're doing way better than you think. Love to you, and thanks again for the inspiration, Kheyala Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 27, 2004 Report Share Posted August 27, 2004 Vicky as small as you think your light is its reaches me thousand of miles away LOL regarding your nephew and reading i did the same love you in GD i trust michael >-- Messaggio Originale -- > ><BR> >"Love itself is the actual form of God."<BR> ><BR> >Sri Ramana<BR> ><BR> >In "Letters from Sri Ramanasramam" by Suri Nagamma</tt> ><br><br> > ><br> > ><!-- |**|begin egp html banner|**| --> > ><table border=0 cellspacing=0 cellpadding=2> ><tr bgcolor=#FFFFCC> ><td align=center><font size="-1" color=#003399><b> Sponsor</b></font></td> ></tr> ><tr bgcolor=#FFFFFF> ><td align=center width=470><table border=0 cellpadding=0 cellspacing=0> <tr> <td align=center><font face=arial size=-2></font><br><a href="http://us.ard./SIG=129e9pfg7/M=298184.5285298.6392945.3001176/D=g\ roups/S=1705060955:HM/EXP=1093657525/A=2319501/R=0/SIG=11tq0u909/*http://www.net\''>http://www.net\'>http://www.net\ flix.com/Default?mqso=60185353&partid=5285298" alt=""><img src=" " alt="click here" width="300" height="250" border="0"></a></td></tr></table> </td> ></tr> ><tr><td><img alt="" width=1 height=1 src="http://us.adserver./l?M=298184.5285298.6392945.3001176/D=groups/S=\ :HM/A=2319501/rand=643300131"></td></tr> ></table> > ><!-- |**|end egp html banner|**| --> > > > ><!-- |**|begin egp html banner|**| --> > ><br> ><tt><hr width="500"> ><b> Links</b><br> ><ul> ><li><br><a href="/">/gro\ up//</a><br> ><li><br><a href="?subject=Un">Har\ Terms of Service</a>. ></ul> ></tt> ></br> > ><!-- |**|end egp html banner|**| --> > > ></body></html> > ________________ Tiscali ADSL Senza Canone, paga solo quello che consumi! Non perdere la promozione valida fino al 31 agosto. Per te gratis il modem in comodato e l'attivazione. In piu' navighi a soli 1,5 euro l'ora per i primi tre mesi. Cosa aspetti? Attivala subito! http://abbonati.tiscali.it/adsl/prodotti/640Kbps/''>http://abbonati.tiscali.it/adsl/prodotti/640Kbps/'>http://abbonati.tiscali.it/adsl/prodotti/640Kbps/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 27, 2004 Report Share Posted August 27, 2004 skiplaurel [vicki] Thursday, August 26, 2004 10:02 PM Heavy Grace Heavy Grace Ram Dass speaks of suffering as "heavy grace." Amen to that. The grace of this day has all but floored me. Not only is Bob anemic and in need of transfusions but he also needed platelets. It was only a couple of weeks ago that our neighbor said he could have a "bleed" that could prove to be fatal. We stumbled over to the cafeteria and ate in silence and then I walked him to the Outpatient Infusion Center. I drove home listening to the radio and checked the mail and the computer. Now that I have the freedom of privacy I can let down my hair and cry. If what I am recounting sounds familiar, that's because it is. I have written in this vein as often as his have been hooked up to IV machines. It never gets any easier; in fact the fatigue level rises daily. I am pretty much wiped out. Today I spoke with the social worker in the doctor's office and she, as always, gave me plenty of space to feel my grief and helplessness. Sometimes a nod is enough as the story spills out into tears and remorseful words. Why can't I be stronger and less.....me. I tend to say things I regret and build walls around myself. Of course these tactics don't work. All they do is isolate me. Writing is confessional for me. For those of you who don't know me, I write about my husband's battle with multiple myeloma. For those of you who know me even better, I am writing about myself. Occasionally I rise above conditions and words roll in like a mist, unfurling like so many fronds on a fern. That is grace. Vicki Woodyard http://www.bobwoodyard.com ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ beloved vicki, sister. the fire of suffering you are going through seems to be burning all dross leaving out the pure gold of your honest and direct true nature for the benefit of us all... be blessed, sister, as are we by your presence. may you and bob know the unblemished joy of pure being forever basking in your grace with tears of compassion yosy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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