Confusion

[Guest guest]

, "MICHAEL BINDEL"

<michael_bindel@h...> wrote:

 

Om namo bhagavate sir ramanaya

 

Dear unknown friends

 

please let me share with you the idea which came into "my mind" today

could we not use our sangha as a meetingplace where everyone who

feels that heshe needs it can state openly witout hesitation the

obstacles he meets in daily life following the deep belief in

nonduality?

 

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Dear Michael,

 

I was considering sharing this...and your suggestion gave me a nudge

of courage to go ahead and do that. Thank you.

 

-Aly

 

It was a week of confusion. It was a week of helplessness to form

the question so that it was understood...and of explanations that

could make no sense. The exact same words were being used for

different enough things that it threw a monkey wrench into the whole

operation. Go figure. Exasperation fanned the flames. People

choked on the smoke. A mole hill became a mountain...and that

turned into an erupting volcano. "Everybody" got some on them.

"Everybody" was working hard to quell the disaster...some with

rudeness, some with kindness. Everybody was "Me"...This

Consciousness. Nothing else. The fact that I have no control over

this stuff...Life...seemed somehow no excuse. There is also a place,

a point of view, where there is no escaping responsibility for it.

It all belongs to the Self. Everything I see is somehow

myself...returning to me. The only thing to do is enter...go ahead

and hurt...acknowledge...see it for exactly what it actually is. Let

go of protection.

 

I wanted to run to the whole world and apologize...so I guess that's

what I'm doing. I'm sorry, Universe, that I misunderstood. I'm

sorry I couldn't explain clearly. I am sorry I felt abandoned. I'm

sorry I forgot there is no separation. I'm sorry I lost my sense

of humor. I'm sorry I forgot tenderness. I'm sorry I made it all

into a fight to be right. I'm sorry I let it infect everything and

make us all sick. Somehow, this is the background against which

Peace will finally reign again. Yin Yang movements. Right now it

just feels like a big mess. And there is not one thing that "should

have been" different. How about that for a paradox? There is

nothing but Love, showing and experiencing all its various forms.

The knot in my stomach and the ache in my heart is Love too. I am

embarrassed to tell you the "nothing" that this all started

over...but it was nothing, be assured. You would laugh if

I tried to explain it and you would be right. Still...if you can

use any of this...take it....as prasad...on me.

 

Love,

 

Aly

[Guest guest]

i forgive you, Aly. we all have days like that. it's karma. we are

all caught up in our karma. you gotta let it work itself out. it's

all part of the process. we are all little me's projected into the

material world from the Big Me. we sometimes get caught up in the

material, the maya, the appearance of things. but, keep on keeping on

with your karma yoga. we are all gonna make it Home sooner or later.

see ya.

 

danananda

 

, "Aly" <freckalyb@a...> wrote:

> , "MICHAEL BINDEL"

> <michael_bindel@h...> wrote:

>

> Om namo bhagavate sir ramanaya

>

> Dear unknown friends

>

> please let me share with you the idea which came into "my mind"

today

> could we not use our sangha as a meetingplace where everyone who

> feels that heshe needs it can state openly witout hesitation the

> obstacles he meets in daily life following the deep belief in

> nonduality?

>

> ----------------------

>

> Dear Michael,

>

> I was considering sharing this...and your suggestion gave me a

nudge

> of courage to go ahead and do that. Thank you.

>

> -Aly

>

> It was a week of confusion. It was a week of helplessness to form

> the question so that it was understood...and of explanations that

> could make no sense. The exact same words were being used for

> different enough things that it threw a monkey wrench into the

whole

> operation. Go figure. Exasperation fanned the flames. People

> choked on the smoke. A mole hill became a mountain...and that

> turned into an erupting volcano. "Everybody" got some on them.

> "Everybody" was working hard to quell the disaster...some with

> rudeness, some with kindness. Everybody was "Me"...This

> Consciousness. Nothing else. The fact that I have no control

over

> this stuff...Life...seemed somehow no excuse. There is also a

place,

> a point of view, where there is no escaping responsibility for

it.

> It all belongs to the Self. Everything I see is somehow

> myself...returning to me. The only thing to do is enter...go ahead

> and hurt...acknowledge...see it for exactly what it actually is.

Let

> go of protection.

>

> I wanted to run to the whole world and apologize...so I guess

that's

> what I'm doing. I'm sorry, Universe, that I misunderstood. I'm

> sorry I couldn't explain clearly. I am sorry I felt abandoned.

I'm

> sorry I forgot there is no separation. I'm sorry I lost my sense

> of humor. I'm sorry I forgot tenderness. I'm sorry I made it all

> into a fight to be right. I'm sorry I let it infect everything

and

> make us all sick. Somehow, this is the background against which

> Peace will finally reign again. Yin Yang movements. Right now it

> just feels like a big mess. And there is not one thing

that "should

> have been" different. How about that for a paradox? There is

> nothing but Love, showing and experiencing all its various forms.

> The knot in my stomach and the ache in my heart is Love too. I am

> embarrassed to tell you the "nothing" that this all started

> over...but it was nothing, be assured. You would laugh if

> I tried to explain it and you would be right. Still...if you can

> use any of this...take it....as prasad...on me.

>

> Love,

>

> Aly