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, yosyflug <yosyflug@i...>

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> harsha my friend, you know i respect and love you dearly. and

wouldn't want to spoil the sangha atmosphere. but my first

obligation is to the truth as i perceive it, and i have real allergy

to pretence... true virtue fears no critique. yes, indeed, i saw

keyhala's pukingly oversweet and licked-up posts about the "rasa

ranch" she cross-sent to many lists years ago, and remarked on the

pretentious make-believe then - which got me chastised from all

sides lol... but when eventually the "rubber met the road", and the

make-believe bullshit confronted real life - 'the lover of her life'

got sick and in real need -

 

*****You know, I would never have called him that, even in the

height of my make-believeness. Did you know he is thirty years

older than me? I might have called him "the father of my life." We

were almost completely celebate our entire 10 years together.

 

 

- keyhala abandoned him immediately, taking the kids and whatever

possessions she could lay her hands on with her... "a friend in need

is a friend indeed".

 

 

*****Yosy, I am not sure where you are getting your information, but

you have no idea what you are talking about. Jim and I intended to

move away from Rasa Ranch together. I went ahead early with the

children because our daughter was due to start school, and Jim,

himself, decided to take some space in order to retreat and focus

wholly on his health. It was during that time that we MUTUALLY came

to the decision to maintain separate homes because it had become

obvious that each of us was doing much better than we had been when

living together.

 

It's true that I had been a victim to make-believing in the past, in

that I had the tendency to only see the positive side of things

rather than the whole picture.

 

Of course I can only write about what I can perceive at the time.

Fortunately, my perception is always growing. When I look back at

some of my previous writings, while they were always as honest as I

was capable of being at that moment, I can see that I was blind to

some things I wasn't prepared to really look at. Like where I

sometimes really blew it with Ananda. And like the truth about my

relationship with Jim. Those were not easy for me to come to terms

with. But I have, indeed, come to terms with them, and with no help

from you, to be sure.

 

I am not enlighened, and I do not claim to be. I still have my

moments where I take myself to be somebody, good or bad. In those

moments, I screw up.

 

For the most part, however, I don't take myself to be anybody at

all, and clearly, it is entirely something else that moves me into

action. One of those actions is writing. (Yet, because I can still

misidentify, I am still capable of having blindspots.)

 

I do my part, and the reader must do theirs. I would encourage

anybody to use the light of their discrimination with whatever they

read.

 

You can be quite cruel with your words, yosy. When I would take

myself to be a person, your words could hurt me like few others

could.

 

Congratulations.

 

Kheyala

 

 

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> i apologize to you, but i see as my duty to expose such lies. i

will abide by your decision, whatever it may be. but i will not lie

to myself and others. "one compassionate to the cruel, ends up being

cruel to the compassionate", states an ancient hebrew

dictum. 'positive' and 'negative' are matters of attitude and

identification, and do not affect the real.

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> prema

> yosy

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