Amma Darshan

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Today I had "darshan" with Amma. (That means a hug).

Actually, I've had two already.

 

As I waited in line for my hug, I watched

the faces of the Indian devotees standing

close to Amma's chair. She was laughing

and joking with them. They were obviously

having a wonderful time. I wished I could

understand what they were saying. They were

looking at her with total love.

 

"I don't love Amma like that," I thought.

"I don't love anyone like that. There is

no one I feel that kind of devotion for."

 

In Vedanta class we have been talking a lot

lately about gaining mental stability. A calm

and quiet mind is recommended for self-inquiry.

 

I thought perhaps as Amma hugged me I would

mentally ask her to help me gain a steady mind.

That seemed to be a good thing to ask for. That seemed

to be what I needed.

 

She smiled, took me in her arms and hugged

me close to her. As I melted into my favorite

place to be in this world, all preconceived ideas vanished,

and I found myself thinking, "Let me loose myself

in the ocean of your love. Let me loose myself in

the ocean of your love."

 

So much for acquiring mental stability.—Durga