New person and a short intro

[Guest guest]

There are no Coincidences.

 

This is a firm belief of mine. I say this upfront because I have no

idea where or who sent me this invitation, but after reading some of

the posts, I am sure that somewhere, someone will be able to show me

what I am to learn next.

 

First off my id name.

 

Believe me when I tell you I didn't even know what Devi meant until

about a year ago, when I happened to pick up a book called "In Search

of the Divine Mother." I'll tell you how the name came to me. I

attended a Spiritual Center about ten years ago, maybe a bit longer.

One service, we had a guest speaker, A South African Holy Woman.

After the initial service, she gave each member of the Center a

private and public spiritual name. She gave me Devi. I still don't

understand this but have used this name since I started online...and

most of my real life associates and friends just know me by that

name. I use it not out of any kind of disrespect but in total

respect for the Woman that gave it too me.

 

Secondly, I have been Wiccan for over twenty years now. I have been

very comfortable and comforted in this path, until recently.

 

I am in a very serious crisis of faith. For the past two years, I

have been fighting severe depression, The year and a half I have

lived where I am now, I have had a job only for eight months...I was

recently laid off in December. Now, if it were just me, I could make

it. The problem is I am responsible for my MOther, who I took on the

blessing of taking care of her after my father died...and I am

raising my nephew who just turned eighteen years old. Now, I have no

means of taking care of them. Sure I have unemployment, but only for

a short period of time. I have food stamps this month but will have

to try to get it extended because a job is not in sight.

 

Just today I broke down. Why is this happening. What lessons am I

not learning. What more can I do. Am I not doing enough.

 

I know I am not being punished....but right now, at this moment and

time. I am feeling very alone. I have never felt alone..I have

always had a spark of love, of light to guide my next step. I have

always been strong in my faith. But my faith is weak right now. I

see no help coming, I see no future and that scares me.

 

I know this is a heavy post to begin with, but one thing I am is

honest. You will find however, I am a very loving person, and even

at this time, if someone comes to me and asks for help, I give it and

more than they expect if I can.

 

Blessing to all and just know I am willing to learn what would be

best for my soul.

 

dev

[Guest guest]

Pranam, Devisunji,

Cheer up. Good things are coming your way soon :-)

With Love

Shankaree

 

 

 

 

 

 

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