a question regarding conception

[Guest guest]

I have a question for those of you who care to respond.

 

Which form of Devi would you ask for blessings of fertility? My husband and

I have been struggling with infertility for 4 years now. I concieved, but

miscarried recently. It was a sad time, but it let us know that there is

hope. I feel that the time is coming soon and I want to set up an altar. We

are both Ganesha and Saraswati devotees. I've also worked with Durga and

Kali and Parvati. Of all of these, Parvati seems the best option, but

something just doesn't seem right about it... I also thought about Tara, my

husband gave me a beautiful statue of her as a gift years ago... I've called

to her in several forms for several reasons, but none seems right for this

cause...

 

Any suggestions would be appreciated.

 

Thanks in advance.

 

Love and light,

Allison

 

~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~

And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet

and the winds long to play with your hair.

 

Kahlil Gibran

(From 'The Prophet')

 

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[Guest guest]

Namaste Allison,

 

I don't know which form of the Devi might be best for you at this

time, but I do know what a deeply emotional issue this can be. I am

sure that Devi can help you, is there with you. Perhaps only She can

truly understand.

 

My thoughts and warm wishes go out to you. I hope that loving

evidence of Her presence gives you the support, strength and comfort

that you require.

 

Bright blessings,

 

prainbow

 

, "Allison H"

<allison_hancock@h...> wrote:

> I have a question for those of you who care to respond.

>

> Which form of Devi would you ask for blessings of fertility? My

husband and

> I have been struggling with infertility for 4 years now. I

concieved, but

> miscarried recently. It was a sad time, but it let us know that

there is

> hope. I feel that the time is coming soon and I want to set up an

altar. We

> are both Ganesha and Saraswati devotees. I've also worked with

Durga and

> Kali and Parvati. Of all of these, Parvati seems the best option,

but

> something just doesn't seem right about it... I also thought about

Tara, my

> husband gave me a beautiful statue of her as a gift years ago...

I've called

> to her in several forms for several reasons, but none seems right

for this

> cause...

>

> Any suggestions would be appreciated.

>

> Thanks in advance.

>

> Love and light,

> Allison

>

> ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~

> And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet

> and the winds long to play with your hair.

>

> Kahlil Gibran

> (From 'The Prophet')

>

> _______________

> Protect your PC - get McAfee.com VirusScan Online

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[Guest guest]

Dear Allison,

 

There is a hindu Goddess Called Manasa devi or simply Manasi . She is

also known as Sree Nageshweri Devi, this Goddess is known as the

goddess of *fertility* and snakes. She is popular in Bengal and some

parts of South India. Women who desire to conceive and have children

perform a daily puja to this goddess with an offering of 'MILK' - IT

is believed snakes are pleased with milk offerings- hence this custom-

milk is also a symbol of 'motherhood.'

 

I would encourage you to read posts number 2827 , 2830, 2831 , 2833

and 2854. Not too long ago, shakti sadhana had featured Sree

NageshwerI Devi Or Manasa Devi as 'goddess of the week.'

 

meanwhile, i wish you all the best and hope your household will be

blessed with lovely children. May the Goddess shower her choicest

blessings on you! Worshipping Parvati devi also seems to be agreat

idea because Parvati devi is the mother of two popular Gods, Ganesha

and Karthikeya.

 

Much love to you!

[Guest guest]

Hi Allison,

 

Here is a suggested sadhana to help you obtain the blessings of

fertility.

 

MANTRA SADHANA MEDITATION:-

 

This Sadhana is made up of two phases, and should be undertaken for

a forty day period!

 

Phase 1 is twice daily meditation for about thirty minutes for each

period.

Phase 2 is chanting your chosen mantra as often as possible

throughout your day.

 

Phase 1-silent meditation:

 

1. Sit comfortably facing east, close your eyes, and Begin this

meditation with five minutes of thinking, very quietly the Ganesha

(Ganapathi) mantra – `'Om Gum Ganapatayei Namaha.'' As you are doing

this focus on the essence of Ganesh (Ganapathi) as the obstacle

remover, and the bringer of prosperity, affluence and success!

2. Then stop, wait 15 to 30 seconds and then…..

3. Start thinking, very quietly the mantra – `'Aham Prema.'' As

you are doing this focus on `Love,' do this for about a minute.

4. Then stop, wait 15 to 30 seconds and then…..

5. Start doing 20 minutes of effortless meditation using the

mantra `'SHRING''. At the end of this meditation, after you have

stopped thinking your mantra….

6. Introduce the idea of stillness, and drift back into that

stillness for 15 to 30 seconds and then….

7. Focus your attention on your 3rd eye chakra, feeling the

energy there, and begin to silently chant the "Om Gum Ganapatayei

Namaha" mantra. Actually chant this mantra in your 3rd eye chakra-

the mantra is actually thought in this area!

8. After chanting, visualize whatever you want to create,

imagine it as fully formed, completely realized, and in the `Here

and now!'

9. When your visualization is fully formed, real, and

uplifting, Breathe seven deep breaths into it, and Then silently

chant "Om Gum Ganapatayei Namaha" some more and allow this mantra to

penetrate the image. You have to see, in picture form, the thing you

want to create. Once it feels complete, just let it go, allowing the

Universe to handle the details!

10. At the end of this meditation, take your time coming out and

back to the surface of your mind. The transition from a subtle level

of mind to the gross level of mind must be smooth, gradual, and

natural.

 

 

Phase 2- chanting your chosen mantra as often as possible throughout

your day.

 

**** Throughout your day you should remember to chant the mantra "Om

Gum Ganapatayei Namaha" as many times as possible, either silently,

or out loud! While doing household chores, you will say the mantra,

in the shower, on a walk, grocery shopping, while driving your car,

and in a whole host of other daily situations! As you chant the

mantra, try to have some part of your mind focused on your desired

result!

 

 

1) According to Thomas Ashley-Farrand - Mantra combined with

intention increases physical and spiritual benefits. When we combine

the physical energy of mantra, the sound vibration, with the mental

energy of intention and attention, we increase, strengthen, and

direct the energetic effect of mantra. Intention, the reason we are

saying the mantra, is carried on the physical vibration, producing

an effect. This is the essence of Sanskrit mantra. In Phase 1-silent

meditation, during the initial chanting of "Om Gum Ganapatayei

Namaha," the intention is formed by focusing on the essence of

Ganesh (Ganapathi) as the obstacle remover, and the bringer of

prosperity, affluence and success! Whilst in the visualization part

of this sadhana as you are chanting the mantra "Om Gum Ganapatayei

Namaha," The Creative Visualization acts as your intention, whilst

in Phase 2.your intention is there along with your mantra as a

thought of the result you wish to achieve!

 

2) Why do we start with the Ganesha (Ganapathi) mantra – `'Om

Gum Ganapatayei Namaha.'' ? Because all Tantric and spiritual

worship in the Hindu tradition begins with an invocation of Ganesha

to ensure success!)

 

Allison, Please email me directly at:- avrilsmith

for instructions on the technique of effortless meditation,and I can

also send you wav.files (audio files) of the three mantras involved

in this Sadhana.

 

Namaste,

 

Billy

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

, "Allison H"

<allison_hancock@h...> wrote:

> I have a question for those of you who care to respond.

>

> Which form of Devi would you ask for blessings of fertility? My

husband and

> I have been struggling with infertility for 4 years now. I

concieved, but

> miscarried recently. It was a sad time, but it let us know that

there is

> hope. I feel that the time is coming soon and I want to set up an

altar. We

> are both Ganesha and Saraswati devotees. I've also worked with

Durga and

> Kali and Parvati. Of all of these, Parvati seems the best option,

but

> something just doesn't seem right about it... I also thought about

Tara, my

> husband gave me a beautiful statue of her as a gift years ago...

I've called

> to her in several forms for several reasons, but none seems right

for this

> cause...

>

> Any suggestions would be appreciated.

>

> Thanks in advance.

>

> Love and light,

> Allison

>

> ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~

> And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet

> and the winds long to play with your hair.

>

> Kahlil Gibran

> (From 'The Prophet')

>

> _______________

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[Guest guest]

Dearest Allison

 

Thank you for that lovely short excerpt from Kahlil Gibran

 

With regards to your questions : You have all the Devis there with

you : Ganesha, Saraswati, Durga, Kali and Parvati. They are all DEVI

and DEVI is the Goddess of Fertility.

 

What is it about Parvati that dosent seem right to you? You care to

tell us here or if not you can email me privately.

 

I can understand the pain. I have gone through it myself. I see

several people have given you suggestions, follow their advise and

choose what suits you most.

 

A friend of mind send me Gayatri Sadhana for having a child (

I've

being given the permission to spread this around if it helps ):

 

1. Both Husband and Wife should fast on Sundays.

2. You may take some fruits, fruit juice or milk

3. Taking a shower you could make a wish for a male or female

child and then do 10 pranayama as follows : inhale deeply through

both nostrils and retain the breath and mentally repeat the Gayatri

Mantra with three "yain" seed-syllabus ( bijak-sara) along

with "Om"

as follows :

 

Om yam yam yam bhur bhuvah svah

Om Tat savitur varenyam

Bhargo devasya dhimahi

Dhiyo yo nah pracodayat

 

And then exhale

 

You should hold a rosary of sandalwood beads in your hands and

mentally meditate on Gayatri as a child, wearing white clothes and

holding a lotus in her hand. After the meditation, you should

worship Mother Gayatri, offering cooked rice with milk and honey and

both of you should partake of that prasada or the sanctified food. It

contains the power of Gayatri that yields the fruit prayed for.

 

To be honest I have never got the opportunity to try this. I went to

the Annual Shri Mariamman Adipuram Festival, and there is this lady

who was in trance. She called me to her; asked me several questions (

one of the question goes like " If I give you a child what would

you

do?"), then took several Tulasi leaves and put it in my mouth.

 

Personally I believe its all within you. We can tell you a lot of

suggestions, but to carry a child ( life ) in our body is a very

sacred and joyful moment. I personally believe it is a spiritual

journey. You go through a lot during pregnancy.

 

First we must prepare our body. The food that you eat and the

activities you are involved in. Some woman can conceived easily even

though they are very active in sports and such. But be reminded that

each body is different it. Avoid acidic food especially pineapple.

Drink plenty of water as water is the source of life itself.

 

Lastly, FAITH in DEVI is the most important. Never, never lost faith

in HER. Sometimes SHE test us to see how sincere and honest we are in

our desire to have a child. A child is a gift from DEVI and we must

deserve this gift. But dosen't mean if you do not have a child,

it

makes you an undeserving one. I know of several couple who have been

childless for years, they eventually decided to adopt a child, a year

later the wife conceived. Another couple decided to serve themselves

with the children home selflessly and they got their gift.

 

Then again another question : how do you treat the other adopted

child when you have your own?

[Guest guest]

Hiya Allison

 

Allison H <allison_hancock wrote:

 

I have a question for those of you who care to respond.

 

Which form of Devi would you ask for blessings of fertility?

 

-----

 

The Devi called "Total relaxation".

 

What does this Devi ask from you?

 

Surrender in acceptance, ....

 

.....whether fertility expresses itself,

 

.....expresses itself and does not reach completion, ...

 

...expresses itself as un-expression.

 

Surrender in total relaxation is the acceptance that each of the above

expressings, is the very expressing of Devi, in the moment.

 

 

 

"And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds

long to play with your hair"

 

 

 

Have you walked with bare feet and untied hair, laughing with your soul, in

total trust?

 

These are the naividhi (devotional food offerings) to the Devi, mentioned above.

 

Or has your naividhi until now been,...... .....anxiety,despair, fear ....... to

the various icons?

[Guest guest]

Hi,

 

*IF* you have any interest/belief you may try mantras like Santana

Gopala mantra or mantra of Kartikeya/Nageshvara or any other

relevant mantras.

 

They need proper initiation which can be obtained from any guru.

 

If you are in US you may try RajaRajeshwari peetham in NY state

or else hindu temple priests anywhere should be able to direct you

to some teachers. I think approaching RajaRajeshwari peetham(if in

US) in person is better than taking instructions from

unauthentic/unverified mantra-meditation techniques on internet.

 

best of luck

 

 

 

, "Allison H"

<allison_hancock@h...> wrote:

> I have a question for those of you who care to respond.

>

> Which form of Devi would you ask for blessings of fertility? My

husband and

> I have been struggling with infertility for 4 years now. I

concieved, but

> miscarried recently. It was a sad time, but it let us know that

there is

> hope. I feel that the time is coming soon and I want to set up an

altar. We

> are both Ganesha and Saraswati devotees. I've also worked with

Durga and

> Kali and Parvati. Of all of these, Parvati seems the best option,

but

> something just doesn't seem right about it... I also thought about

Tara, my

> husband gave me a beautiful statue of her as a gift years ago...

I've called

> to her in several forms for several reasons, but none seems right

for this

> cause...

>

> Any suggestions would be appreciated.

>

> Thanks in advance.

>

> Love and light,

> Allison

[Guest guest]

Namaste,

 

I am looking for a really good yoga teacher. The type of yoga that I am

interested in is mainly hatha yoga. But I am also interested in yoga that

strengths

the mind as well. Does any one know of any good yoga teacher in the state of

Illinois? Or can anybody recommend some types of yoga that are good for

strengthening the mind and body?

I know that in order to do spiritual practice one must have a strong body and

mind.

 

N. Jones-El

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Thank you Satish for that reminder,

 

But we have to be practical that not everybody have the advantage of

access to temple. It is easy for you to say :Go here or Go there, and

for those the internet is the best things that ever happen to them.

Like you said, yes! it need to be verified and checked before one

embarked on anything. Don't just brush others aside just because

you

are the advantage one.

 

For information that piece of Gayatri Sadhana that I've posted was

send to me by a friend who is a follower of Sadguru Sant Keshavadas.

[Guest guest]

Dear Satish,

 

I do not beleieve for a moment one needs 'initiation' to pray to

gods /esses like Lord GANESHA OR mATA parvati etc. All one needs is

bbhakthi and a heart overflowing with love. but practicing sri vidya

is another matter; that needs formal intiation under a sree vidya

Guru. similarly, to practice bija mantras , one needs the formal

initiation under a guru. the same applies to practicing all the

tantric rituals .Pranayama (the technique of breathing) should also

be practiced under the guidance of a yoga teacher....

 

but , the divine mother is full of compassion and infinite mercy.

anyone can pray to her with folded hands and she will melt and grant

boons? which mother will not respond to the cries of her child?

 

byw, the internet is a great resource. because of the internet only,

i am fortunate to view these great pictures of the Nityas! and read

so many interesting details on goddess worship!

hari aum!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

, "Satish Arigela"

<satisharigela> wrote:

> Hi,

>

> *IF* you have any interest/belief you may try mantras like Santana

> Gopala mantra or mantra of Kartikeya/Nageshvara or any other

> relevant mantras.

>

> They need proper initiation which can be obtained from any guru.

>

> If you are in US you may try RajaRajeshwari peetham in NY state

> or else hindu temple priests anywhere should be able to direct

you

> to some teachers. I think approaching RajaRajeshwari peetham(if in

> US) in person is better than taking instructions from

> unauthentic/unverified mantra-meditation techniques on internet.

>

> best of luck

>

>

>

> , "Allison H"

> <allison_hancock@h...> wrote:

> > I have a question for those of you who care to respond.

> >

> > Which form of Devi would you ask for blessings of fertility? My

> husband and

> > I have been struggling with infertility for 4 years now. I

> concieved, but

> > miscarried recently. It was a sad time, but it let us know that

> there is

> > hope. I feel that the time is coming soon and I want to set up an

> altar. We

> > are both Ganesha and Saraswati devotees. I've also worked with

> Durga and

> > Kali and Parvati. Of all of these, Parvati seems the best option,

> but

> > something just doesn't seem right about it... I also thought

about

> Tara, my

> > husband gave me a beautiful statue of her as a gift years ago...

> I've called

> > to her in several forms for several reasons, but none seems right

> for this

> > cause...

> >

> > Any suggestions would be appreciated.

> >

> > Thanks in advance.

> >

> > Love and light,

> > Allison

[Guest guest]

> ...Pranayama (the technique of breathing) should also

> be practiced under the guidance of a yoga teacher...

 

Very true.

> ...but, the divine mother is full of compassion and infinite mercy.

> anyone can pray to her with folded hands and she will melt and grant

> boons? which mother will not respond to the cries of her child?

 

So simple and so beautiful!

 

Thank you!

 

Hari Om!

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

> I am looking for a really good yoga teacher. The type of yoga that

> I am interested in is mainly hatha yoga. But I am also interested

> in yoga that strengths the mind as well. Does any one know of any

> good yoga teacher in the state of Illinois? Or can anybody

> recommend some types of yoga that are good for strengthening the

> mind and body?

 

I don't know teachers in IL, but as for the style - I'd recommend

Integral Yoga, or Sivananda Yoga. They're the most balanced (as

far as I can tell). Depending on your physical needs and temperament,

you may benefit from Viniyoga (Gary Kraftsov - he's in Hawaii, but

I'm sure there are students of his teaching in your land), or

Ashtanga Yoga...

 

The best advice - try a few classes of each and decide for yourself

which works best for you (and with which teacher).

> I know that in order to do spiritual practice one must have a

> strong body and mind.

 

You got that right. :-)

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Thank you all, so much, for your responses. I feel better about this

whole process already! I didn't give all the details in my first

post. I've been diagnosed with Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome which

causes insulin resistance and most of the time infertility is a side

effect. I've now been on medication for almost 6 months to correct

this problem. My doctor seems to think that this is the perfect time

to try to conceive and had put me on Clomid, a very mild and non-

invasive fertility drug. This will be the only fertility treatment

that we'll be able to afford so if this doesn't work we'll be back to

square one. Besides, I just don't think I could go through with

invitro, even if we could afford it...

 

There were a lot of questions asked of me, I'll try to respond to all

of them.

 

As for why Parvati did not feel right to me, I think that her energy

is much more subtle than many other Devi. Saraswati was the first I

was drawn to, I am an artist and a creative soul, and she really

appealed to me. Then, and it was a slow process, I began to see what

Durga and Kali were all about. I feel the closest to Ganesha, he is

what pulled me into studying Eastern religion. I've seen him in

dreams, I feel like I know him now. My husband was immediately drawn

to Ganesha, as a writer and a lover of women, he had such difficulty

feeling akin to any male form of diety. He is gentle and all of his

close friends have always been women. He has learned about Shiva

through Ganesha, but he would have not turned to Shiva originally.

 

We were both pagan when we met, I started us both on the Eastern kick

and we have educated a lot of members in our pagan community on Hindu

and Buddhist beliefs as well.

 

Last night I set up an altar by our bed. We actually made the stained

glass top together in our first year of marriage, when we first

started trying to concieve. I included all of my Devi candles and a

couple of our Ganesha candles and some statuary, and several items

from other pantheons that I studied before.

 

As for the relaxation question... I've been trying to relax. It's

difficult sometimes. I went to a women's retreat last month with a

group of women I adore. Several of the Crones in the community did a

fertility ritual for me and a close friend of mine, also trying to

conceive. After that ritual, I relaxed a lot, deciding that I would

leave it to fate.

 

If I cannot have a child of my body, I would be perfectly happy

adopting. I just would really like to see a baby with my husband's

green eyes or maybe his smile... I want to breast feed and give birth

and all that stuff... I know I could love an adopted child just as

much, but I can't go that road until I've tried all I can try to do

it naturally.

 

I've known my whole life that being a mommy was my calling, I just

never thought it would be such a tough road to get there. It will

make me appreciate it all the more when it happens.

 

Thank you all for your advice and well wishes. I'd find you all and

hug you if I could!

 

Love and light,

Allison

 

~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~

And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet

and the winds long to play with your hair.

 

Kahlil Gibran

(From 'The Prophet')

[Guest guest]

Sri Vilasini Namaste

 

I cannot agree more on this. That is what I intended to convey too.

 

The initiation I was mentioning was only meant for practicing

mantras with bijas etc..

 

rgds

 

, "vilasini43"

<vilasini43> wrote:

> Dear Satish,

>

> I do not beleieve for a moment one needs 'initiation' to pray to

> gods /esses like Lord GANESHA OR mATA parvati etc. All one needs

is

> bbhakthi and a heart overflowing with love. but practicing sri

vidya

> is another matter; that needs formal intiation under a sree vidya

> Guru. similarly, to practice bija mantras , one needs the formal

> initiation under a guru. the same applies to practicing all the

> tantric rituals .Pranayama (the technique of breathing) should

also

> be practiced under the guidance of a yoga teacher....

>

> but , the divine mother is full of compassion and infinite mercy.

> anyone can pray to her with folded hands and she will melt and

grant

> boons? which mother will not respond to the cries of her child?

>

> byw, the internet is a great resource. because of the internet

only,

> i am fortunate to view these great pictures of the Nityas! and

read

> so many interesting details on goddess worship!

> hari aum!

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

, "Satish Arigela"

> <satisharigela> wrote:

> > Hi,

> >

> > *IF* you have any interest/belief you may try mantras like

Santana

> > Gopala mantra or mantra of Kartikeya/Nageshvara or any other

> > relevant mantras.

> >

> > They need proper initiation which can be obtained from any guru.

> >

> > If you are in US you may try RajaRajeshwari peetham in NY state

> > or else hindu temple priests anywhere should be able to direct

> you

> > to some teachers. I think approaching RajaRajeshwari peetham(if

in

> > US) in person is better than taking instructions from

> > unauthentic/unverified mantra-meditation techniques on internet.

> >

> > best of luck

> >

> >

> >

> > , "Allison H"

> > <allison_hancock@h...> wrote:

> > > I have a question for those of you who care to respond.

> > >

> > > Which form of Devi would you ask for blessings of fertility?

My

> > husband and

> > > I have been struggling with infertility for 4 years now. I

> > concieved, but

> > > miscarried recently. It was a sad time, but it let us know

that

> > there is

> > > hope. I feel that the time is coming soon and I want to set up

an

> > altar. We

> > > are both Ganesha and Saraswati devotees. I've also worked with

> > Durga and

> > > Kali and Parvati. Of all of these, Parvati seems the best

option,

> > but

> > > something just doesn't seem right about it... I also thought

> about

> > Tara, my

> > > husband gave me a beautiful statue of her as a gift years

ago...

> > I've called

> > > to her in several forms for several reasons, but none seems

right

> > for this

> > > cause...

> > >

> > > Any suggestions would be appreciated.

> > >

> > > Thanks in advance.

> > >

> > > Love and light,

> > > Allison

[Guest guest]

Namaste Vilasini,

 

I cannot agree more. If you read my initial mail that is exactly

what I am saying. But prayer is slow(for normal ppl), mantra japa is

quick . Hence I was suggesting initiation so as to get quick results.

 

rgds

Satish.

 

, "vilasini43"

<vilasini43> wrote:

> Dear Satish,

>

> I do not beleieve for a moment one needs 'initiation' to pray to

> gods /esses like Lord GANESHA OR mATA parvati etc. All one needs

is

> bbhakthi and a heart overflowing with love. but practicing sri

vidya

> is another matter; that needs formal intiation under a sree vidya

> Guru. similarly, to practice bija mantras , one needs the formal

> initiation under a guru. the same applies to practicing all the

> tantric rituals .Pranayama (the technique of breathing) should

also

> be practiced under the guidance of a yoga teacher....

>

> but , the divine mother is full of compassion and infinite mercy.

> anyone can pray to her with folded hands and she will melt and

grant

> boons? which mother will not respond to the cries of her child?

>

> byw, the internet is a great resource. because of the internet

only,

> i am fortunate to view these great pictures of the Nityas! and

read

> so many interesting details on goddess worship!

> hari aum!

[Guest guest]

Dearest Allison,

 

You state....

"I've been diagnosed with Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome which

causes insulin resistance and most of the time infertility is a side

effect. I've now been on medication for almost 6 months to correct

this problem. My doctor seems to think that this is the perfect

time to try to conceive and had put me on Clomid, a very mild and

non-> invasive fertility drug. "

You seem to be in good hands ! Medical science is so advanced these

days that 'miracles' do happen. By the grace of god/ess , you may be

able to conceive very soon. Let us not give up hope and be

optimistic.

 

You also write ...

"As for why Parvati did not feel right to me, I think that her energy

is much more subtle than many other Devi. Saraswati was the first I

was drawn to, I am an artist and a creative soul, and she really

appealed to me. Then, and it was a slow process, I began to see what

Durga and Kali were all about."

Yes! Most artists are drawn towards Saraswati, the Goddess of

learning. It is but natural. The divine Mother is 'glorious' in all

her divine manifestations (be it Parvati, durga , kali etc) and

appeals to different devotees in different ways depending on their

own temperamnt and preferences.

 

You go on to write...

" I feel the closest to Ganesha, he is what pulled me into studying

Eastern religion. I've seen him in dreams, I feel like I know him

now. My husband was immediately drawn to Ganesha, as a writer and a

lover of women, he had such difficulty feeling akin to any male form

of diety. "

 

yes! indeed! Lord Ganesha has universal appeal and is in fact adored

by men, women and children. Children are attracted by his 'pot belly '

and elephant head and large ears. Women feel 'motherly' towards him

and want to take care of him - the vatsalya bhava! and in any case,

in hindu religion, before beginning any major 'yagya' or riuual, one

always prays to Lord Ganesha to remove obstacles ! Looks like, You

have made the right choice! In any case , the way to a mother's heart

is through the child! and since Lord ganesha is the child of shiva

and shakti , in essence, you are praying to the parents as well!

smiles!!!!

 

You say...

 

If I cannot have a child of my body, I would be perfectly happy

adopting. I just would really like to see a baby with my husband's

green eyes or maybe his smile..."

 

ADoption is a very noble idea and believe me there are many babies

waiting to be adopted by 'loving and caring' parents....

I like to share this poem with you...

'Legacy of an Adopted Child

Once there were two women who never knew each other..

One you do not remember, the other you call mother.

Two different lives, shaped to make Your one...

One became your guiding star, the other became your sun.

The first gave you life and the second taught you to live it.

The first gave you a need for love, and the second was there to give

it.

One gave you a nationality, the other gave you a name.

One gave you a seed of talent, the other gave you an aim.

One gave you emotions, the other calmed your fears.

One saw your first sweet smile, the other dried your tears.

One gave you up ... that's all she could do.

The other prayed for a child and God led her straight to you.

And now you ask me, through your fears,

the age old question unanswered throughout the years...

Heredity or environment .. Which are you the product of..

Neither, my darling .. neither..

just two different kinds of love.

Author Unknown

 

Allison, this is to wish you all the best and hoping that everything

will turn out well for you and your husband,

 

love

[Guest guest]

Dear Allison: I wanted to offer some thoughts I have had after

reading your posts, and many of those who have posted in

answer. I have heard that sometimes when people let go of their

attachment to the outcome, movement can occur. Maybe calling

on the Ardhareshwari is warranted because that figure

represents the whole being that each human being is or

contains. It may be that there is a need to balance the whole self

rather than to focus so intensely on only this one part. I

empathize with wanting something so much and not having it

happen. I wish you good luck in your endeavors, and I also wish

you joy in being no matter what the outcome.

 

Love to you,

Mary Ann

 

, "Allison"

<allison_hancock@h...> wrote:

> Thank you all, so much, for your responses. I feel better about

this

> whole process already! I didn't give all the details in my first

> post. I've been diagnosed with Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome

which

> causes insulin resistance and most of the time infertility is a

side

> effect. I've now been on medication for almost 6 months to

correct

> this problem. My doctor seems to think that this is the perfect

time

> to try to conceive and had put me on Clomid, a very mild and

non-

> invasive fertility drug. This will be the only fertility treatment

> that we'll be able to afford so if this doesn't work we'll be back

to

> square one. Besides, I just don't think I could go through with

> invitro, even if we could afford it...

>

> There were a lot of questions asked of me, I'll try to respond to

all

> of them.

>

> As for why Parvati did not feel right to me, I think that her energy

> is much more subtle than many other Devi. Saraswati was the

first I

> was drawn to, I am an artist and a creative soul, and she really

> appealed to me. Then, and it was a slow process, I began to

see what

> Durga and Kali were all about. I feel the closest to Ganesha,

he is

> what pulled me into studying Eastern religion. I've seen him in

> dreams, I feel like I know him now. My husband was

immediately drawn

> to Ganesha, as a writer and a lover of women, he had such

difficulty

> feeling akin to any male form of diety. He is gentle and all of his

> close friends have always been women. He has learned about

Shiva

> through Ganesha, but he would have not turned to Shiva

originally.

>

> We were both pagan when we met, I started us both on the

Eastern kick

> and we have educated a lot of members in our pagan

community on Hindu

> and Buddhist beliefs as well.

>

> Last night I set up an altar by our bed. We actually made the

stained

> glass top together in our first year of marriage, when we first

> started trying to concieve. I included all of my Devi candles and

a

> couple of our Ganesha candles and some statuary, and

several items

> from other pantheons that I studied before.

>

> As for the relaxation question... I've been trying to relax. It's

> difficult sometimes. I went to a women's retreat last month with

a

> group of women I adore. Several of the Crones in the

community did a

> fertility ritual for me and a close friend of mine, also trying to

> conceive. After that ritual, I relaxed a lot, deciding that I would

> leave it to fate.

>

> If I cannot have a child of my body, I would be perfectly happy

> adopting. I just would really like to see a baby with my

husband's

> green eyes or maybe his smile... I want to breast feed and give

birth

> and all that stuff... I know I could love an adopted child just as

> much, but I can't go that road until I've tried all I can try to do

> it naturally.

>

> I've known my whole life that being a mommy was my calling, I

just

> never thought it would be such a tough road to get there. It will

> make me appreciate it all the more when it happens.

>

> Thank you all for your advice and well wishes. I'd find you all

and

> hug you if I could!

>

> Love and light,

> Allison

>

> ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~

> And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet

> and the winds long to play with your hair.

>

> Kahlil Gibran

> (From 'The Prophet')

[Guest guest]

"Allison" <allison_hancock@h...> wrote:

> Thank you all, so much, for your responses. I feel better about

this whole process already!

 

What a beautiful post!!!

 

I understand perfectly what you mean about Kali & Ganesh. Because my

father's from Calcutta, our clan Deity is Kali. I wasn't very much

into Her at first, being raised in the UK, but for the past couple of

years, let's just say I've heard Her calling & I cannot resist (my

Super MOM!!!).

 

Ganesh has always been my personal favorite. Though he doesn't

always smooth my path, in retrospect, I realize it was for my own

good.

 

My grandma swears that the reason she was so fertile (6 boys 4

girls), was because every morning, she'd pour milk on a black stone

Shiva lingam, collect the milk & drink it. At the risk of sounding

irreverent, I have my doubts about its efficacy... I personally

believe she (& my grandpa) was just naturally fertile, though her

devotion no doubt helped . Still, its what she recommends w/o fail

to any she meets who have the same problem (she still does it,

actually...), regardless of their religion, hehe.

 

I'd like to share w/you a mantra I learned when I went to the

Ramakrishna Maath a couple of years back. This prayer has helped me

a lot & though it doesn't come w/a money back guarantee (sorry), I'm

confident it'll help you too, if not w/a child, then in other areas.

 

oM kaalee kaalee mahaakalee kalike paapahaariNee

dharmarthakaamamokshade devi naaraayaaNi namo'stute

 

(the original mantra, I later found out, does not include "kaama",

but this is how it was taught to me. It means...)

 

oM Kali, Kali, Great Kali, beloved Kali, Remover of confusion/sin

grant us honor/virtue/goodness, wealth, love & liberation, Goddess

female Deity, salutations

 

love, light, peace & joy

Shahan