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Hi Dear People,

 

As an introduction I am sharing with you a writing I finished yesterday.

Although at first glance it might appear very different in content I do not

believe believe what I have written actualy is truly different. I had a

powerful spontainious kundalini awakening in 1972 and have developed

my insights on my own.

 

Peace and Love to all of you.

 

Leif Crie

 

A Series of Thoughts: to help clear the way for intellect to surrender fear of

change and allow spiritual growth.

 

As I communicate my truth and offer my experiences to those who seek knowledge

about energy, awakening and spiritual development, I have witnessed a single,

unifying block. Namely, that the very kind of sensory learning that spiritual

seeking requires is in direct opposition to the kind , of learning we embrace,

become and treasure as students in the more traditional intellectual sense.

Even those who are drawn to the eastern ways of meditation and pursuit of inner

peace seem to find conflict between thinking and feeling. The former

valued as superior to the latter pervades our human consciousness. If I have

accessed a single point of divergence between what I propose as a way to the

light, and what has come before me, is that few can find the inner faith to

step away from that conditioned honoring of intellect, and allow the feeling

process to take its rightful, significant place in the process of spiritual

development. If intellect is male, linear, directed and focused, feeling is

open, wide, female, intuitive and flowing. To embrace a state of balance,

where the two forces work in harmony, is a crucial element in the

process of being the light.

 

Many spiritual traditions propose that awakening is an intellectual

pursuit, and the process of achieving it one of tremendously

complicated steps. Language is derived from our intellectual need

to separate and define things. It the basis of how we know the outer

world, the places we share, the experiences we have. Words and

scientific process both serve to delineate and refine into smaller

and smaller increments any topic of discussion. (foot note chaos

theory) While this skill most certainly served humankind extremely

well in our creativity and invention for our success as a species, we

are now at a place of new opportunity. Having nearly mastered the

art of refinement and delineation, the scales become nearly

imbalanced in that direction, and we are called upon to to view our

planet as a whole, for our own survival, to view the similarlities

between and amongst our mingled cultures rather than the differences,

and to come to know our inner selves from the heart, and not simply

the mind.

 

The traditions which evolved language, and the descriptions of how

the energy moves in the body, are not necessary for an awakening. I

had never heard of a chakra system before I raised my kundalini, or

any other of the many explanations such as "three channels of the

spine." An enormous volume of literature serves to massage the

intellect and prolong the process of learning to "be" since the

healing of emotions is a feminine feeling process. For the masters

who came before, all attempts to bring their experiences to the world

of intellect was necessary in order for them to be heard. So

extreme and different were their knowings, that few would ever fully

embrace the possibility. Today, however, many are called and drawn

to a path of enlightenment, many have accessed experiences that were

known only by the elite masters, many are struggling to find that

balance between living and loving in an enlightened space while

housed in a world of intellectual and material supervaluation.

 

Clearing the mind with meditation may begin this journey, but many

find this alien to their way of living. One sets limitations on

oneself when one requests the knowing without the meditation. There

is an alternative to silencing the mind in meditation. This will be

determined by you. What do you do in your life that is so absorbing

as to allow you to forget time? Do you find peace when you run, climb

mountains, listen to music, paint, garden or something else. Find

this place of silence and by mindful living and honoring the

importance of your specific Way, expand and bring that silence into

your daily existence. The intellect and the constant defining of

self with repetitive thoughts is all that stands between your Self

and a state of being. In other words, you have a choice to

experience life with the wonder of a child, and may do so by asking

the intellect to serve as a silent observer of self in an ongoing,

moment to moment, living with awareness meditation. This may sound

easy, but it requires diligence in observing self and how the self

interacts with the world.

 

Ego

 

Here it is appropriate to define ego in the context that I use

it. First, the Ego is the verbal self. Language, and everything

communicated through speech, writing, or the memory bank, evolves

through that medium defined as the intellect's definition of "Self. "

It is the most obvious manifestation of Ego. The internal library

which carries all the visual scenes of our earthly existence, and Ego-allowing

reruns of the past, which is important in the Ego's role of reinforcing self-

image. Our emotional history, both from the immediate life-history and the

inherited, past-life, emotional history, combine to form our

basicpersonality. This part of the is Ego is that which most of us

believe is unchangeable. In order for a human to evolve to a state

of enlightment, the Egomust shift, to allow a change in how we

define ourselves. All three catagories must be dealt with. I find the

best first step is to find the space between words, or a form of

meditation. I advocate meditation without a mantra. A mantra

occupies the intellect and allows easy access to an altered state.

However, when the intellect is occupied, intellect best serves the

process of being. It becomes a passive, but fully aware, observer of

the exploration of the inner self.

 

The human intellectualual fallicies of judgement and differentiation

do not exist in a silent mind. They are replaced by the beautiful,

loving energy of divination within. A danger that resides here is

that the Ego attaches to the experience of the Divine Energy and

identifies itself as Divine, without the emotional healing of the

human state having occurred beforehand. Behavior, or use of divine

energy, and knowledge are then tainted by the interpretation of the

Ego who is ruled by unhealed emotions.

 

In the case of an awakened kundalini, the individual can use female

energy to enhance male energy, but cannot be fully be in touch with,

or enhance the feminine with the male energy. The unbalanced Guru has

awsome personal power, but in truth is nothing if not balanced by

his/her female side.

 

The emotional world must be examined with a clear intellect. Damaged

emotional responses need to be identified, relived, and felt on a

cellular level, and then released to spirit. An acknowledgement that

PROCESS is the key to love, (not purification of the self, or ego, or

being) sets one free to the flow and life/love of the feminine. A

freed emotional being is grounded, and the freed emotions become the

tenticles of awareness of the world. The individual is free to be

grounded so he/she can become fully integrated with the

feminine/dark/processing/universal aspects of self.

 

The visual record, without the noise of the intellect constantly

defining itself and preventing self-examination, fades and loses

importance. Enlightenment is not the destruction of Ego, but rather

surrendering one's Ego to the Soul and the Soul's Divine purpose.

 

The role of the intellect becomes one of service, with an awareness

that the intellect is not Soul, but a passive observer and helpmate,

honed and skillful in its role of liasson between physical reality

and Soul energy. Unattatched to belief structures intellect

identifies patterns of emotional behaviour investigating the origin

of the trauma causing compulsive behaviour from this life or

inherited through the DNA and orcastrating the reexperience of the

emotion and surrender freeing ego to feel in the moment in an ongoing

State of Being. The Ego is not the enemy of enlightment, but a

beautiful instrument

to be tuned, designed and played to your liking.

 

We can release our souls from the prison of our beliefs. Without the

walls that confine us, we can soar and expand into universal truth.

To know the divine is to know that we know nothing. This is why a

truly enlightened soul is humbled in awe. Here, our knowledge is

unified, speechless, simply a state of "being". All beings,

enlightened or otherwise, are limited by their personal ability to

surrender their traditions, heal their emotions, and entrust their

beliefs to the Divine.

 

 

"Every cell in your body is part of long term memory, and not

just the traumatic emotional trauma but also joy and movement memory

as well as sound and speach patterns. Even our spiritual capacity is

inherited through DNA. Information stored in the DNA is both the

emotional memory of our ancestors (of which we have more the a

billion in just a thousand years at 25 years per generation.) This

memory is called Karma in Buddism. All of this stored emotional

trauma must be healed in order to be" Fully Present" in a divine

state of BEING. When emotions are freed from trauma they are the

feelings we then can utilize as extentions of discernment in the

surrounding energy fields."

 

I believe that emotional healing is the key to an easy transiton to

an enlightened state. One can deal with intellect by either taking on

a belief system or self discovery but our compulsive habits are still

their. Willing them away leaves one in awkward stae of disharmony and

inauthentic behaviour. Our emotional patterns are as much part of our

ego as is the intellect, but they are more difficult to heal.

Compulsive emotional behaviour is formed in the years before our

intellect is formed and lessons have no intellectual records. We do

have records though and they are stored within the DNA... Every cell

in your body is part of long term memory, and not just the traumatic

emotional trauma but also joy and movement memory as well as sound

and speach patterns. Even our spiritual capacity is inherited through

DNA. Information stored in the DNA is both the emotional memory of

our ancestors (of which we have more the a billion in just a thousand

years at 25 years per generation.) This memory is called Karma in

Buddism. This theory of memory being passed genetically would explain

past lives with a vast pool of lives available within each of us for

distinct memory retrieval. The burning of karma then would make a

great deal of sense to me.. All of this stored emotional trauma must

be healed in order to be" Fully Present" in a divine state of BEING.

When emotions are freed from trauma they are the feelings we then can

utilize as extentions of discernment in the surrounding energy

fields. The extention of those capabilities is directly in proportion

to our healed versus unhealed emotions. There is no limit of time and

space these feelings can penitrate. Intellect must undergo a

transformation in order to be present. A trance is one way to bypass

the intellect and emotional blockage for short travels in a state of

being. Lack of retention of the lifes lesson is a drawback of this

technique. Much more but that should help you understand where I am

coming from. I am having a meeting On Aug. 19th with four of the

people I have helped with their emotional process to create a

curriculum on emotional healing which includes identifying the source

of the emotional pattern reexperiencing the trauma in a full body

awareness in a safe invironment and consciously as an adult releasing

this stored emotion. We will also work on helping intellect deal with

surrender of beliefs protecting the emotional patterns of the

individual. In order to become a passive observer and interpeter of

truth from the inner intelligent life force it is critical that the

individual surrenders his/her judgements and beliefs. Truth can be

distorted in the same way a scientist might distort his findings in

an experiment by unconsciously designing his techniques and area of

study to justify hoiw he believed in the first place.

Emotional experiences in life are recorded on a cellular level,

both pleasent and pleasurable experiences and unpleasent painful

emotionally damaging experiences. Each cell is a living entity and

each individual cell commits its life span to a specific task as part

of a comunity, i.e. your body.

We know that our bodies are constantly rejuvenating themselves

as cells die and new cells replace them. I conclude from logic and

observation that cells pass on the emotional trauma genetically to

the cells that replace the dying cells. The logical conclusion, to my

mind, is that the process of reproduction also passes on the

emotional life of the parents to the offspring(this perhaps is a

different way to define karma ) On a broader scale, we must logically

see that we are the accumulated experience of all our ancestors.

This would explain the extensive memories of past lives which are

recorded and passed on within our genes. If we go back just fifty

generations, we have 1,025,876,889,780,224 direct parental ancestors

and that is one massive pile of pain and love all mixed together.

I have observed directly total recall of events over thirty

years prior where the pain and events are re-experienced as if they

were just taking place. The entire body is completely involved in

this reliving of pain. For instance, an adult who was raped anally

as a child and buried the experience, eventually relives the event,

not as a visual memory or intellectual knowledge, but as a pain in

the anus so intense as to cause them to go to the hospital, only to

find nothing physically wrong. The memories are cellular, and as

such are hard to address until relived. Physical, emotional, and

memory-based blocks are a protective, survival habit which keeps the

cellular memories from arising.

I see that every cell in the human body has the full emotional

memory of stressful events. Every cell in your body is part of long

term memory, and not just the traumatic emotional trauma but also joy

and movement memory as well as vocal sounds and speech patterns. Even

our spiritual capacity is inherited through DNA. Information stored

in the DNA is both the emotional memory of our ancestors (of which we

have more than a billion in just a thousand years at 25 years per

generation.)

This memory is called Karma in Buddism and original sin in

Christianity, although the definition of Karma covers a far broader

scope.. There is no doubt that Kundalini is a driving force behind

burning of karma. Having had the experience of holding back the

process of healing I know that the full power of Kundalini is

available to one who refuses but the potential of being imbalanced

and having painful lessons designed by Goddess to draw the attention

to the resistance caused by emotional patterns or beliefs to healing.

All of this stored emotional trauma must be healed in order to be"

Fully Present" in a divine state of BEING. When emotions are freed

from trauma they are the feelings we then can utilize as extentions

of discernment in the surrounding energy fields." In my experience

of bliss, the energy we call Goddess is the life force. The

expanded state of consciousness would not be experienced as bliss or

anything if we could not feel. Therefore, I would venture to say that

the enlightened experience, in a fully expanded consciousness, is the

same as that of the life force which manifests on Earth as feelings

or Goddess energy. Through the feelings of the life force we

experience the energy of God, or the Sun. I can feel, "in a trance

so deep, that I cannot experience the body", and therefore the

experience of feeling does not require the existence of body but

rather feeling is a manifestation of soul as a spark of the life

force.

God energy is an all pervasive love and is the energy of all

that exists, but it lacks the personal quality of the Goddess energy

or the life force. The Sea for instance will support you and carry

you but it has no compassion for your life or death. The Goddess is

compassion and caring. She looks after you through her many

energetic beings and oversees your emotional lessons in our struggle

to enlighten our DNA. She provides the classroom and reflections of

our intellectual intent and our emotional compulsions so that the

unconscious response to stimuly can be made conscious and surrendered

to Goddess in lifes journey to create enlightened matter imbued with

cosmic wisdom. She is not the intellectual presense but she is the

accumulated wisdom of survival and her language is the language of

feeling and love in the magnificent wonder of life. Without her God

could not be felt. In her crystalized form she is the spontanious

decision to flight or fight and the cumpulsive behaviour that plaques

most of us. Without her humankind is capable of horrendous acts

against fellow living creatures without feeling the victims pain. The

intellect has no inner voice of compassion but only the flawed

process of analitical reason which has not the capacity for being

love.

My best interpetation, from my observations of genetic

reproduction, and bringing together what information I have gleened

from scientific data, as well as my perspective as an enlightened

being, prompts me to propose these premises. That the memory

capacity of the DNA to store emotional events in every cell, for the

life time of the organism, pass on this stored information to the

next generation, and have system wide recall of emotional events is

the modality of of the life force for learning over generations as

well as preprograming for the best instantanious responses for

survival tested through each succeeding generation.. Emotional trauma

also leaves the body vulnerable to viruses which are emotional

oportunists and attracted to and sucsessful in emotionaly weekened

systems especialy organisms that have endured long term stress. These

viruses can change genetic structure creating mutations of of which

the succesful mutations become our evolution.

In all animal species except humans we call the genetic memory

instinct. DNA is passed both within the cell divisions within each

individuals body and through breeding. All the various aspects of

emotional existence is perpetuated through emotional memories as

the body regenerates and propagates. Emotions then are feelings

frozen in time by the DNA in an exact memory of an emotional event.

In the case of traumatic emotional memories of similar events in the

future they reinvorce and broaden the scope of triggers for post

traumatic events. Without treatment emotions can ruin the quality of

life but with comprahensive retrieval of the origin of traumatic

events thes patterns can be released and no longer create havoc for

the Victims. Freed, emotion becomes a conscious communication with

the living planet, as well as non verbal exchange between people,

animals, and plants.

I wish to introduce knowledge gained through years of

breeding horses and observing the emotional lives of these wonderful

animals. By deduction, as well as by observing offspring of

emotionally damaged stallions, it is apparent that emotional damage

is passed on genetically. A stallion who has received emotional

healing from past traumas will pass on a healed genetic memory to his

off spring. Most mares are artificially inseminated so the young

never meet their fathers who might be 2000 miles away. Stallions are

selected to pass on dominate genes the personality traits often come

through. I believe that the mares also pass on cellular memory, but

as they share months together and the foals are socialized by the

mare, it is a harder scenario to determine. Science tells us that our

cellular structure is completely new every few years so it follows

that emotional trauma is passed as new cells form and the evidence is

in the involvment of every cell in the reexperience of emotional

trauma in post traumatic stress. My deduction from here is that

emotions and feelings are the engine for genetic selection and the

process of evolution. Perhaps this is accomplished by the body

allowing disease in the form of viruses since viruses respond to

emotional stress and create genetic anamolies.

The Sun is loving energy... the life force is the feeling of

that love. Feeling is the realm of the creator of life and is full of

love and compassion for her creations. As part of that creative

intelligence, we are able to create our experience on this Earthly

plane through both the negative and the positive experiences we

manifest. And these emotional, physical and intellectual experiences

appear to be for our ever-expanding development and understanding of

our world... to answer the why of our existence. The intelligence in

a single cell is still beyond the learning of man and his intellect.

To experience Goddess in her fullness, the surrender of intellect and

silence of the mind appears essential.

Intellect plays the roll of passive observer with the

responsibility of forming an intellectual pathway for future

explorers of the creation. The intellect of man is both the highest

achievement and the most limiting factor. As a mirror of self and

communicator with others in tribal groups of language and the ability

to translate to other languages as well as the understanding of the

order of the universe through observation and math our

accomplishments are staggering. The limiting factor is that the

intellect with its capacity to catagorize and break every experience

both physicaly and intellectuly into the smallest concievable

partical has allowed a separation from the life force, No longer do

we have to feel the oneness of ourselves with all other beings

because we are each unique with our individual egos as our identity

and all other entities are other. We have an order of loyalties

defined by our differences and it is inconceivable for our ego to

except that any other people or animals with different beliefs are

the same. We are even willing to exterminate or dominate any being

that is other. We have in fact through our language and beliefs

created our horror on this Earth instead of using our intellect as a

tool for the betterment of all life we use it as an excuses to

destroy.

Our intellects can be used as tools in the surrender to the

Goddess or oversoul, and not as absorbed and identified with "I" but

as a universal we , in a revolutionary shift could transform this

planet into a loving paradise. Every species or form of living matter

is made up of living cells, individual with the feelings of the

creator who band together in full cooperation, to form organisms, and

to them the organism as an entity might well be perceived as god and

the combined individuals consciousness form an oversoul of that

species with a structured knowledge of its purpose, emotional code of

behavior, and reproduction. The combined energy of all oversouls is

the Goddess or life force. Each species can change the genetic

structure of itself in order adapt to changing environment. If any

species becomes to specialized it becomes vulnerable to extinction.

Our place as a highly evolved species is to care take with Love and

Compassion The Earth is the home of our oversoul and that of all

other living creatures. Our highest crime is the destruction of our

environment for if we and many other life forms cannot adapt to the

changes of our own creation, other species will evolve to take our

place. Don't be fooled by endless rhetoric. laugh and don't take

yourself or anybody else seriously

The only information that I take for truth is the knowing in

the light. I am fully aware that anything I write, or anyone else

writes, or has written, is open to the interpretation by the reader,

and so the reader is reading hearsay which is not even acceptable in

our legal system. If you wish to know truth, learn to silence the

endless thoughts and seek Goddess within yourself in the silence,

without judgment, and with an open mind. Why should you experience

Goddess second hand? Goddess certainly will share with you, and best

of all Great Spirit or Goddess lives in you, so you don't have to go

out and seek. I know you will find pure compassionate nonjudgmental "

Love" within yourself. Why ruin the perfection of Cosmic Love with

trying to discribe it. The depth of love of which I speak is not

found within the confines of words. A person with conditional love

for their children would ,when asked would tell you in all sincerity,

that they believe they love with all their heart and to them it is

the truth. A killer might believe that he kills out of love. Love is

a feeling to be known with the heart not a book. Loving is to be

lived as the heart dictates.

I have found that the eye communication is one of the deepest

forms of sharing. It is very important to have the permission of the

other person as there are no secrets left between you after gazing

into each others souls. It is for me more intimate then touch when

you and your spiritual partner are not lovers. Have you ever tried

putting your foreheads together? The bond feels like the

gravitational pull of the earth and takes considerable effort to pull

back as well as being Divinely pleasurable.

Manifesting a common reality that we believe in, is the common

denominator of mankind's existence. We create our world of folly and

with conscious "being" we will create a new world. Any belief system

defined by words is a creation of man and appears real to the

believers only because they cannot see beyond the confines of those

beliefs. They create and observe only those events that agree with

that reality created by their common beliefs. Science is limited by

Chaos as are all other intellectual pursuits of knowledge. The path

of change for humanity is to heal the damaged emotions from the

violent history of mans existence. Man is a creation of love in

divine love. Man is separate from this only by his beliefs and they

are perpetuated by the emotional damage caused by those beliefs both

in this lifetime and all the preceding generations.

Truth can only be experienced. Any interpretation of truth in

verbal form is a bastardization of truth. If you believe you have

found the way you have missed it. Truth does not exist within the

confines of the intellect. The intellect can observe truth and

experience truth but interpretation of truth is a prison for the

individual believing in that interpretation. Divine experience cannot

be confined within the limitations of intellect and to believe that

any system is anything more then a path is THE GREATEST FOLLY OF

MANKIND. The assumption of ego that there exists an "other" is behind

every act of violence of mankind.