Kundalini Awakening

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Dear Shakti Devtees,

Here is a brief discription of my kundalini awakening and how I got

there.

Love Guy

 

 

I experienced a powerful kundalini awakening in 1972. I did not

know what it was for three years, as even Gopi had not written

anything at that time. I met a Yoga teacher and when I described

what had happened, she knew about kundalini and that my experience

fit the ancient texts.

 

Kundalini awakening

 

In the fall of October 1972 in my apartment in New Haven,

Connecticut my life changed for all time. It was in the afternoon

and I was home from building houses, sitting in a chair.

 

About six months previous I observed a child playing. She was about

one and one half year old and I realized that she was thinking

because of her actions, but I also knew that her language was not

yet capable of verbal thought. I also was aware that I, too, must

have been able to think without words at some time in my life. This

piqued my curiosity and I proceeded to experiment with my self to

see if I could stop the continuous circle of thoughts in my head.

 

After many trials that were not successful (which I will not go into

here) I found that if I concentrated on the thought in my mind at

the moment, I could not hold it for long, as it would disappear.

Another unrelated thought would come up, and I would repeat the

process. After a time I discovered some very pleasant sensations in

the space between thoughts, and when I grasped this sensation with

my will, it did not disappear as thoughts did, but instead

increased. The circle of thoughts ended.

 

I had entered an extraordinary world of internal energy. Shifting my

focus, I explored my internal body and learned to control breathing,

digestion, pain and my heart. I soon found out that taking control

of involuntary process required the mind to be constantly aware of

them and that it was a great skill but required a lot of focus and

concentrated work.

 

My next bright idea was, w'hy not create an orgasm entirely through

concentration?' I had long experienced energy between my eyes as

concentration, so in this endeavor I concentrated on the energy of

initial sexual arousal and my will center. I learned that breathing

slowly and holding at both ends of the breath, while keeping my

tongue against the roof of my mouth increased the energy and

pleasure signifigantly. To this, I added flexing every muscle in my

body for as long as I could hold it, and then releasing and allowing

myself to fall into a blissful state. I repeated this, often all

night, and any time the physical world did not demand my attention.

I continued this practice for about six monthes and the last few

days I had gotten very close to something really big. I encountered

a difficuly because every time the energy and pleasure became

intense, my intellect became excited by what might happen and

instantly the energy would rapidly decrease and I would have to

build it up all over again. I became determined not to fail by

losing focus. As I got close, the pleasure intensified and my body

felt like I was having a continious orgasm, but I sensed there was

more and I kept working hard to make it happen, whatever it was. My

breathing was almost non existent and I concentrated until I hit a

plateau and then release. Time and time again I went

through this same ritual.

 

While I was in the relaxation portion I felt the energy going up my

spine and my tongue got thick, as if I was going to throw up. There

was a noise in my ears like thousands of crickets singing on a

summer night, and there was a distinct metallic taste in my mouth

when suddenly it felt as if something broke. My head filled with

brilliant light with cobalt blue, reds, and then white. The

pleasure from the liquid fire flowing into my skull was accompanied

with unbearable pleasure, so intense I wanted it to stop but it had

taken over and I could do nothing but ride. I

expanded into the light and love until I could no longer feel myself

as a body, nor control my body parts. My intellect seriously

entertained the notion that I was dead, but everything was so

beautiful I didn't care and it was a long time before I felt my body

again. When I opened my eyes my hands were great balls of golden

light extending at least a foot around them. The entire room

glowed and shimmered in gold and I was wrapped in a sensation of

love and tranquility. I fell asleep in this glow. I did not believe

in God and had never heard of kundalini. My sleep was deep and

untroubled with thoughts of what I had accessed.

 

Leif Crie