My Experience

[Guest guest]

Hello everyone - I am new to this group.I came here primarily

because I am searching for the answers to a question that I have had

for about 5 years now , an experience I really did not have a name

for.

 

Basically, this is a summary of what happened that December

which seems like a lifetime ago in retrospect : I was laying down,

thinking of Yin and Yang, the forces of nature working together with

one another, yet pushing and pulling - opposites coming together.All

of a sudden, my room seemed to vanish, my body seemed to vanish, and

my conscousness simply floated in what could only be termed a void.

 

Void is probably the worst term I could have used, because while

this place seemed empty, it also seemed to pulse with the possibility of

everything that ever has, or ever could exist.As I took this in,I seemed to

recognize sort of a feminine overlay to the entire place -it was alive with its

own consciousness which was distinctly feminine.

 

When I say feminine, I mean in a more universal "yin" context instead of what

many people think of as humanly feminine.

"She" joined with me and began to explain how certain parts of

the universe worked. Or perhaps it was more of a realization of how

it worked - its quite hard to put into words. As I fell deeper into

this state, life as I knew it felt like a dream, that what I was

presently experiencing was the only truth that ever was, and for some reason

this truth had been veiled from me.

 

I then began to feel that if I had stayed in this state longer,the "me" that

exists now would have been absolutely

annhilated.I felt like I was being given a choice of what to choose -and I chose

to come back. My room, and normal reality popped right

back into my mind as if nothing had happened.

 

Perhaps my heart had stopped, perhaps it was something real ; some

spiritual entity hell-bent on tricking me, or perhaps it was

something benevolent.

 

If anyone would like to comment on this, please do.

[Guest guest]

dear techno,

 

to me this sounds like you went through an experience i call "ego death"

like a lobster shedding its shell, it is the death of an aspect of the

shell self

as the limited shell is shed, consciousness expands

these instances are usually labelled as panic attacks, and they can be

terrifying

the presence you sensed as being feminine may have been a non-physical

being assisting you in your experience

referred to as guide

 

we are actually consciousness

experiencing life in the physical plane in separateness

each time we expand consciousness we become more of who we truly are

 

your body and surroundings vanishing, to me, means you went to a higher,

non-physical plane

it is said that consciousness does not inhabit two planes at once during

these experiences

thus you vibrated out of the physical plane into a higher vibratory

plane, yet maintained consciousness

the fireplace scene in the movie the shadow depicts such an experience

 

the void is reported by others who have had this experience

it is experienced as self-annihilation

it is both terrifying and dynamic, terrifying because one has no control

over it and feels totally vulnerable

one nears the void

part of the self enters into it

 

so something experienced as being vivid and possibly destructive

in my opinion, may have been consciousness expansion

 

dean furukawa