i seek to serve the Goddess as Devi

[Guest guest]

i have jouneyed for 7 plus decades - seeking the space of my

spirituality - occasionaly finding a space that seems correct,

however as the decades continue i felt that i had journeyed

apart from any place ... then i was led to this web site ...

 

i have read that one is insired and learns the Hindu path

thru the sturdy of sacred scripture ...

 

i fully experienced a spiritual Awakening/Remembering by the

reading of the few words in this web site ...

 

Worship of Devi,

 

the Goddess,

 

the Divine Mother!

 

 

Shaktism is a Hindu spiritual tradition focusing worship upon Devi,

the Goddess, the Divine Mother who creates and embodies all the

Universe.

 

Some conceive of Her as the Shakti (Supreme Energy) of Shiva

(Supreme Consciousness); others worship Her as Brahman Itself,

holding that all other forms of Divinity are but Her diverse

manifestations.

 

Achieve worldly contentment, divine enlightenment and ultimate

liberation: Surrender to Shakti, the Divine Feminine!

 

And then my Awakening was enhanced by the Sacred Art of this site,

of Shaktism ... i cannot but pray that somehow/somewhere, there is

a space within Shaktism for me, for i feel so very much at home

within your space ...

 

Please do not let my age distract the matter - within the last

decades i have journeyed the path of trangendering from male to

female - but really, seeking to become a female servant to

the essence of the Divine Female and to all females - to everyone.

AND with each year i have trangendered, i have Youngered 2 years.

 

For a while, i perceived that my spiritual path was that of the

Hijra. However apart from India, in America - i could only find

Hijra paths focused on sexuality - i seek a spiritual path, if

that path leads to sexual servitude, so be it - yet, i perceive

my path akin more to the now departed temples in the western world,

where males could dedicate themselves to the Goddess by offering the

gift of self-castration ... however, whati seek most, is to enter

a path of total serviture to Shakti - to TOTALLY surrender myself

to Shakti - to Kali Devi - to the Divine Goddess in HER every aspect.

 

i live in Dallas Texas - is there anyone within this Group who can

offer suggestion/Direction for my dedication to servitude to

the Goddess ?

i do not seek to be a priest/priestess - maybe, a servant to a

preist/priestess ...

ObedientSacredLove to ALL

Sheila, in Sacred servitude to Shakti

[Guest guest]

My dearest Sheila,

 

Hugs to you !

 

I must confess I am jealous. Your humility .... wow ! I wish I had some of

that good stuff :-)

>From where I stand, you are nearly there my friend, you will know it soon.

 

Sex, transgender, servitude, et all; that you speak of them - they are part of

you. Love and embrace them all, there are no flaws. Your life is as it should

have been, and this is not bull-shit. All is perfect, open the divine eyes your

humility has stirred, and I think you will find your Love there.

 

With all my love,

 

Red

 

 

 

Sheila Slater <sheilafeline wrote: i have jouneyed for 7 plus

decades - seeking the space of my

spirituality - occasionaly finding a space that seems correct,

however as the decades continue i felt that i had journeyed

apart from any place ... then i was led to this web site ...

 

i have read that one is insired and learns the Hindu path

thru the sturdy of sacred scripture ...

 

i fully experienced a spiritual Awakening/Remembering by the

reading of the few words in this web site ...

 

Worship of Devi,

 

the Goddess,

 

the Divine Mother!

 

 

Shaktism is a Hindu spiritual tradition focusing worship upon Devi,

the Goddess, the Divine Mother who creates and embodies all the

Universe.

 

Some conceive of Her as the Shakti (Supreme Energy) of Shiva

(Supreme Consciousness); others worship Her as Brahman Itself,

holding that all other forms of Divinity are but Her diverse

manifestations.

 

Achieve worldly contentment, divine enlightenment and ultimate

liberation: Surrender to Shakti, the Divine Feminine!

 

And then my Awakening was enhanced by the Sacred Art of this site,

of Shaktism ... i cannot but pray that somehow/somewhere, there is

a space within Shaktism for me, for i feel so very much at home

within your space ...

 

Please do not let my age distract the matter - within the last

decades i have journeyed the path of trangendering from male to

female - but really, seeking to become a female servant to

the essence of the Divine Female and to all females - to everyone.

AND with each year i have trangendered, i have Youngered 2 years.

 

For a while, i perceived that my spiritual path was that of the

Hijra. However apart from India, in America - i could only find

Hijra paths focused on sexuality - i seek a spiritual path, if

that path leads to sexual servitude, so be it - yet, i perceive

my path akin more to the now departed temples in the western world,

where males could dedicate themselves to the Goddess by offering the

gift of self-castration ... however, whati seek most, is to enter

a path of total serviture to Shakti - to TOTALLY surrender myself

to Shakti - to Kali Devi - to the Divine Goddess in HER every aspect.

 

i live in Dallas Texas - is there anyone within this Group who can

offer suggestion/Direction for my dedication to servitude to

the Goddess ?

i do not seek to be a priest/priestess - maybe, a servant to a

preist/priestess ...

ObedientSacredLove to ALL

Sheila, in Sacred servitude to Shakti

[Guest guest]

Sheila Slater <sheilafeline wrote: i have jouneyed for 7

plus decades - seeking the space of my spirituality - occasionaly

finding a space that seems correct, however as the decades continue

i felt that i had journeyed apart from any place ... then i was led

to this web site ... i have read that one is insired and learns the

Hindu path thru the sturdy of sacred scripture ...

 

Please do not let my age distract the matter - within the last

decades i have journeyed the path of trangendering from male to

female - but really, seeking to become a female servant to

the essence of the Divine Female and to all females - to everyone.

AND with each year i have trangendered, i have Youngered 2 years.

 

For a while, i perceived that my spiritual path was that of the

Hijra. However apart from India, in America - i could only find

Hijra paths focused on sexuality - i seek a spiritual path, if

that path leads to sexual servitude, so be it - yet, i perceive

my path akin more to the now departed temples in the western world,

where males could dedicate themselves to the Goddess by offering the

gift of self-castration ... however, whati seek most, is to enter

a path of total serviture to Shakti - to TOTALLY surrender myself

to Shakti - to Kali Devi - to the Divine Goddess in HER every aspect.

 

i live in Dallas Texas - is there anyone within this Group who can

offer suggestion/Direction for my dedication to servitude to

the Goddess ? i do not seek to be a priest/priestess - maybe, a

servant to a preist/priestess ...

 

 

 

Thank you sheila for that introductions.

 

Questions : Why be a servant when you can be the master? Why do you

want to serve the priest or priestess when you can be the priestess?

Why limit yourself to be at the lotus feet of the goddess or be just

a servant of the goddess, when you are the Goddess yourself?

 

You mentioned "TOTALLY surrender yourself to Shakti". What do you

understand by this. Like to share with us?

 

Perhaps we should go back to the basic question : What is the

purpose of your sadhana?

 

Please do understand I am not trying to ridicule you or anybody. I'm

just in one of my adventerous mood. Lets explore this thoughts.

[Guest guest]

NMadasamy <nmadasamy wrote:

Thank you sheila for that introductions.

 

Questions : Why be a servant when you can be the master? Why do you

want to serve the priest or priestess when you can be the priestess?

Why limit yourself to be at the lotus feet of the goddess or be just

a servant of the goddess, when you are the Goddess yourself?

 

You mentioned "TOTALLY surrender yourself to Shakti". What do you

understand by this. Like to share with us?

 

Perhaps we should go back to the basic question : What is the

purpose of your sadhana?

 

Please do understand I am not trying to ridicule you or anybody. I'm

just in one of my adventerous mood. Lets explore this thoughts.

 

 

 

*** Dearest NMadasamy , i appreciate your questions, i do not perceive it as

ridicule at all - i am also on that universal quest to "Know Thyself". Why do i

seek to be subservient ? There is a pratical reason, best explained from my

boating background - Thanks for a variety of reasons , i could be the Captain of

a spiritual ship - the patriarchal ship that is sinking ... Or i could serve as

a

deck hand on the ship of the Goddess, that will serve to carry spirituality into

the future ...

 

For starters, i still have decades of learning, on the path of Shakti Sadhama.

Then, as i am aware that the path of Shakti is healing and positive - and

quality leaders are needed - however, a path can only have so many Leaders -

and has such already ... while important in their own way are the servants - and

few seek to be servants.

 

Ok, also, the answere you were probably questing for - As i trangendered from m

to femme servant - an awareness that my role in

this life was as a servant , from Hijra level, to maid in a temple, awakened to

me ... NOT at all, a belief that a Woman should be in servitude - that my path

is to be in service to All women/all men - and a Total dedication to the Goddess

.... alin to the path of dedication of the Sacred Eunuchs that offered their

maleness in the temples of the Goddess in the Mediteranian.

 

i never found the original/ancient path of the Hijra, as temple servants -

however, in my quest, that Path seemed "correct" to me - even if its source no

longer existed - maybe all the more reason to dedicate myself toward recreating

that space - offering a space to

others who feel that their role in this life is one of spiritual servitude - to

become the servant of all other servants.

 

Or, it just seems "right", to be submissive. i am in service to you, and to

everyone.

sheila

[Guest guest]

Vir Rawlley <redderred wrote: My dearest Sheila,

Hugs to you !

I must confess I am jealous. Your humility .... wow ! I wish I had some of

that good stuff :-)

>From where I stand, you are nearly there my friend, you will know it soon.

Sex, transgender, servitude, et all; that you speak of them - they are part of

you. Love and embrace them all, there are no flaws. Your life is as it should

have been, and this is not bull-shit. All is perfect, open the divine eyes your

humility has stirred, and I think you will find your Love there.

With all my love,

Red

 

*** Dearest Red,

from my perception - Your Awareness/Understanding, of the value of

Spiritual Servitude that you define as

"jealousy" - actually defines You as a step

ahead of me on a path we both relate to ...

i Love most the essence of Kali, who is

accepting of my servitude of surrender.

i am Forever in Love & servitude to You.

sheila

 

 

 

 

http://home.earthlink.net/~pleiadesx/

 

^..^

Mesu nuit ~ an suten apt neheh

******************************

Carpe Noctum

[Guest guest]

My dearest Sheila,

 

I am told no effort is ever wasted. Namaste !

 

With love,

 

Red

 

 

 

Sheila Slater <sheilafeline wrote:

 

*** Dearest Red,

from my perception - Your Awareness/Understanding, of the value of

Spiritual Servitude that you define as

"jealousy" - actually defines You as a step

ahead of me on a path we both relate to ...

[Guest guest]

Sheila wrote :i appreciate your questions, i do not perceive it as

ridicule at all - i am also on that universal quest to "Know

Thyself". Why do I seek to be subservient ? There is a pratical

reason, best explained from my boating background - Thanks for a

variety of reasons , i could be the Captain of a spiritual ship -

the patriarchal ship that is sinking ... Or i could serve as a deck

hand on the ship of the Goddess, that will serve to carry

spirituality into the future ...

 

For starters, i still have decades of learning, on the path of

Shakti Sadhama. Then, as i am aware that the path of Shakti is

healing and positive – and quality leaders are needed - however, a

path can only have so many Leaders - and has such already ... while

important in their own way are the servants – and few seek to be

servants.

 

Ok, also, the answere you were probably questing for - As i

trangendered from m to femme servant - an awareness that my role in

this life was as a servant , from Hijra level, to maid in a temple,

awakened to me ... NOT at all, a belief that a Woman should be in

servitude - that my path is to be in service to All women/all men -

and a Total dedication to the Goddess ... alin to the path of

dedication of the Sacred Eunuchs that offered their maleness in the

temples of the Goddess in the Mediteranian.

 

i never found the original/ancient path of the Hijra, as temple

servants - however, in my quest, that Path seemed "correct" to me -

even if its source no longer existed - maybe all the more reason to

dedicate myself toward recreating that space - offering a space to

others who feel that their role in this life is one of spiritual

servitude – to become the servant of all other servants.

 

Or, it just seems "right", to be submissive. i am in service to you,

and to everyone. sheila

 

 

**************************************

 

As I was reading your message, suddenly it reminds me of wounds. As

a nurse [now im in temporary retirement], performing wound dressings

is one of my areas of interest. I remember my patient better from

their wounds and not their face. I enjoy and to certain extent find

it sometime an obsession. The nastier the wound, the more I love it.

Maggots are at one time my best friends. To me it's like a

challenge. I know that I can't just apply the necessary lotion and

cover the wounds. I need to explore deeper into the wound. To make

sure that there are no foreign objects. No dead tissues. And if

there is I need to remove/cut those dead tissues. Then we access the

viability of the wound. The flesh surrounding the wound. Are they

still viable or appear infected etc. All these are done even before

we decided to any suturing.

 

The wound need to be healed. There are many factors that hinder

wound healing. Even if the wound did heal, it still leaves scars and

to some extends pain. Not severe but dull irritating pain. Once we

try to stretch our selves, the pain gets severe, and it hurts us.

And we stop to move further least the pain will bother us again.

That is why perhaps to some it is the trigger point. You touch the

point; they go berserk and into uncontrolled rage.

 

We need to resolve that pain before we talk about healing

altogether. I believe Healing is the first step to any spiritual

progress. So one way of solving this root problem I think is to

address this issue of pain and healing. Another is to remove this

low self image/esteem one have of oneself. Only then we are able to

really look within ourselves and say : I am DEVI. Otherwise we

continue to think ourselves as second best.

 

As a women, how many of us are being brought up to believe that our

body is dirty. We have such fracture image of ourselves. We can't

even make ourselves to look at our naked body in the mirror. But to

look at our nakedness in the mirror is the first step in accepting

our body as it is and seeing the divinity within.

 

It is my personal believe that submissive itself is strength. As I

understand, in Shakti Sadhana, everyone is a leader and eventually

becomes a leader of their own right. This role of servant and master

is alien in Shakti Sadhana. It's like when you travel in a road or

when you try to venture out into the forest. Initially you get

guidance from an experience traveler. You learn the tricks about

survival in the forest. After a while you have to embark on your

own. Create your own path so that others can follow. But first you

must have the courage to make that first move of creating your own

path. Fear is always the main hindrance to taking that first step.

Once you remove that fear, everything becomes possible for you.

 

This lead us back to this issue of devotion. There are many stages

in devotion. Many have said, mother& child is the safest. It is the

safest because it's the most simplest and easy for us to relate to,

but a child must grow only then he/she can contribute to humanity.

Refusing to grow is itself death.