GALAXYLAZY: Smoke and Mirrors

[Guest guest]

Malsag, I was veiling my motive, WOOPS!! I can't

restate my novela, it stands as it is.<br><br>Now as far

as the real answer--swadyaya, self study. You are in

your skin, and if it works once, it may not work that

way the next time. You aim close, or you aim far and

you center in and HIT--Or at least that's how it was

supposed to happen this morning. Now if you travel around

abit and find yourself at a few other studios, they

all have their own little culture about them--some

places may appear to have a bit of thrush-- but as we

all know, a little bacteria can be

beneficial.<br><br> If your in one stew for awhile, you can get used

to a teacher and they can get familiar with you "I

just LOVE blah blah's adjustments, WOW there just so

blah, blah blah". Once you've danced with them a bit

you begin to look,sound, taste a lot like them. Not

satisfied with the replication, you may need a new baccilus

strain as the flatulence is getting a bit strong...

entre' search, and then search,...Till I began to

recognize the foulness of my own breath, "Why is that

LITTLE OL' ME?" I could create more dependency on

sytems, books, rules, or I can step into some

acknowlegement that "IT'S MY PRACTICE!?!" Meaning as some point

I had to stop the voices of authority humming their

hymns and tune into my own "nada". I DO acknowledge

those sages that have laid down the path. I also give

thanks to teachers who have guided and supported me, and

am greatful for having the priveledge of being in a

large yoga community that I can lean on, BUT as far as

asana and turning inward, it's a solitary job. I get

plenty out of classes with "green" teachers because it's

my intentions that set my practice. And maybe that

means that I can also have the courage to tell a

teacher "hands off", and maybe it means I connect, and

the teacher knows it, and I can learn something

either way. Hey I'm saying this as much to myself as I

am responding, so the tone is meant in all respect

to your question. I've had major transference issues

with teachers, I've had my failures, I am always

starting again. It just feels good to know I can ask

myself if I'm hiding behind a tradition or a mask of

myself... or that a divine spark in you and me is enough

for me to value that as guidance.

[Guest guest]

Slaxylazy,<br>Your response on 'smoke and

mirrors' was excellent! I think of a lot of teachers get

so hung up on their ideas of what is the right and

wrong way they forget that svadhaya is a personal

journey.<br>I know some studios that have some of that

bacterial strain you were talking about....it puts a damper

on my freedome to practice the way I

want!<br>twochant (no I am not baglady or the senor)