Yogaphobia...?

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I am new here but needed to dive in head first with a question if I

may.

 

I began my practice seriously last year and for a while was getting

on fine! I was experiencing a real sense of well being throughout all

of my bodies - not just the physical. Then, for no apparent reason I

was hurled into the deepest depression that I have ever experienced.

It seemed to manifest in an illness phobia. I began not so much to

resent my practice but felt that I was deluding myself by

enjoying 'physical well being' as none of us know from one day to the

next exactly how healthy we are. If you have ever been a smoker, eat

un-wisely and not been celibate all your life then there are a myriad

of potential problems.

 

I don't wish to sound like I am obsessing too much but I equally need

some advice as to how to get my head round this. I see many pictures

in magazines of indestructable looking people who look like they have

never had a days illness in their lives - I can't seem to reconcile

the fragility of the body with this idealistic view.

 

I was told by my teacher that Ashtanga would bring to the surface a

lot of 'stuff', but this seems self defeating as I am beginning to

develop an aversion to my practice as it is tending to accentuate my

depression.

 

Thanks for reading and your time!