dreams and reality (2)

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> It started happening again while I am in the ashram. I started waking up

> from my bed during the deep sleep, usually shouting on something. My

> roommate Ramakrishna felt quite uncomfortable because of this behavior.

> He complained to the elders in the ashram, they gave me a separate kutia

> to stay. That was in Kotappakonda.

>

> In the year 1999, I don't really remembered when exactly it started

> happening but I started getting immense pain in my head. The headache was

> so severe some times I thought my head will breakdown. One time the

> headache was there for almost 2 days. I was lying on the hard rock and I

> couldn't eat or take care of myself. I was alone in the entire ashram,

> because the ashram was completely destroyed due to a severe cyclone.

> Nothing except the board of Chinmayaranyam remained. I was staying alone

> in the entire ashram planing to help rebuilding. It was a horrible time

> of my life. Gradually the headache came down.

>

> Later days the headache used to stay only for a few minutes. When ever I

> go to bed after a headache, I used to wakeup shouting. Often I wake up

> and find myself in the middle of the room, unable to grasp why I am

> standing in the middle of the room. I realized that I started waking up

> from the sleep again. This time it was a different situation, I could

> wake up in the middle of the event, finding myself at strange places.

> Fortunately, for some reason, I never went out of my kutia during that

> time. At least, no one complained of any such.

>

> I moved to Hyderabad. I was staying with my friend Prakash. He observed

> that I wakeup some times shouting or talking. He was sympathetic. He

> asked me to find out why I am behaving like that. I remembered Sri

> Raghavanarayana Sastrygaru, the advise he gave me "dreams take you near to

> your reality".... I started witnessing strange things in dreams. Some

> horrible events which I could not explain. Lot of events that are

> supposed to happen, were witnessed by me in my dreams. I got confused.

> It is horrifying to know that a nightmare could turn to reality.

>

> Though I often meet saintly people, I never discuss about my personal

> things with them except to my teacher. For, I believed that they know

> what is happening and they will let me know if anything is required. I

> always felt that there is no need to tell when they know everything! Then

> I was told I have mistaken. Thanks again to Sri Mahaganapati, he advised

> me to go and talk to my teacher. I moved to Bombay. I started believing

> that I could see some events that are going to happen in my dreams, only

> in Bombay. While I was in Hyderabad I never got a chance to validate my

> dreams.

>

> One day, I saw that I was sitting in the back of a Silver color TataEstate

> car. In the front seat Sri Murari Bapu was sitting and we were going to

> some place. I heard of Murari Bapu as a saint, who gives talks on

> Ramayan. I also heard that millions of people attend to listen his talks.

> Hence, I know that it is an impossible thing to imagine, that too

> traveling in the same car, with such a highly adored saint! But then it

> happened. One day, Dr. Shah has called me and told me that he bought a

> brand new TataEstate Car. I congratulated him. Then he said that he is

> going to visit Murari Bapu and seek his blessings by asking him to travel

> in the car. He told me that he would be more than happy if I could join

> them. I am always ready to visit any saint. I felt more than happy and

> readily accepted the invitation. I went to their home and Nainaamma has

> shown me the brand new car. For my surprise it was in Silver Color. Now,

> I know what is going to happen next. We went to Newbombay where Sri

> MurariBapu was giving talks on Ramayan. It was the first time that I met

> him. Sri Shah has introduced me to Bapu. Babu gave a pleasant smile, he

> doesn't talk before giving the lecture. We approached him just before he

> was going to give lecture. Mr Shah asked him to travel in his new car.

> Murari Bapu accepted. I sat in the rear seat and Murari Bapu sat in the

> front seat.... That was a pleasant dream turned reality.

>

> Life has got good aspects and bad aspects. It is after all life, we have

> to live through it. There are good things which happen and there are bad

> things also do happen. One night I saw a horrible dream. I saw that a

> white color Ambassador car approaching our Kotappakonda Ashram. Two people

> descending the car and entering the ashram in the middle of the night,

> with knifes and baseball bats in their hands. I saw that they were

> beating the people living in the ashram and looting everybody. I also saw

> that one of the brahmacharis being beaten blue. After a gap I saw that

> the robbers being caught by police... I woke up horrified. In the morning

> I received a call from Narasaraopet, because kotappakonda ashram was not

> having a phone. It was Swamini Nirmalananda on phone. She told me that

> robbers have attacked the ashram. I kept quite, but I realized how

> horrible it is to know the events going to happen in future. But of

> course I told her that police are going to catch the robbers in a few

> days. She asked me on how do I know. I told her I that know. She kept

> quite.

>

> I determined to get rid of these dream experiences only after the

> Bangalore incident. I was working for a company which is having a branch

> office in Bangalore. Since I am working as a Head Analysis, I need to be

> constantly in touch with our Bangalore processing team which consists of

> total seven people. They were all quite friendly. I can still recollect

> their names Vina, Sonia, Chakradhar. One night I saw them going on a road

> in a van and all of a sudden a big oil tanker came in front of the van and

> smashed the van. The van was crippled and all the people got killed. I

> woke up again with a very severe headache. After having a glass of water,

> I determined that this is going to happen. And I wanted to stop that. I

> did not realize that witnessing events need not necessarily give you the

> power of stopping them. I called up our office to find out that our

> Director left to Bangalore, early in the morning flight. I called our

> secretary Hemalatha. She asked me "Madhav! kAy jhalO!". I told her that

> some thing is really bad. By afternoon we all came to know the news.

> That there was a horrible accident. It was a weekend and all the Bangalore

> office was going for a picnic. A drunk driver drove his oil tanker

> recklessly and caused the accident. All the people in the van died.

>

> I could not digest this fact and I applied for immediate leave and rushed

> to find solace in the presence of my guru. I told my guru what is

> happening. She reminded me the sloka of BhagawadGita 15th chapter, where

> Bahagawan says "mattaH smritirjnAnaM apOhanaMca" it conveys the meaning

> that Bhagawan makes people to forget. She advised me to pray the

> almighty to take me off from these horrible dreams. By her grace I got

> out of the problem. Dreams no more caused me pain. A true guru alone can

> understand the pain that you are undergoing through sadhana. I lucky I am

> to have such a guru in my life!

>

> By writing all the above, I just wanted to convey that there is a reality

> to the dreams that we witness. Though it doesn't stand for rational

> thinking, there is something higher that we need to comprehend. Perhaps we

> can call it as a missing link.

>

> Hari Om, tat sat!

>