This much I seek.

[Guest guest]

Thursday, 19 April 2001.

 

 

 

 

Fortunate are those who are proficient in their

oratorio , fortunate are those who express, fluent

notes in presentation,fortunate and blessed are

raghava kaluri, suprabha, sunder, Ravi,sridhar,

krishnamoorthy, and other elites, for whom Vaag devi

would have appeared before them smiling with her

merciful look , endorsing their poems, extempores, by

nodding and granting them boons ;;;; i imagine

that scene, how lucky they are to have Darshan of

ambaal, oh, could i not also be with them, though i

am unworthy of anything , not articulate enough to

praise HER, shall i enter the podium,, am i eligible

to enter, have a peep atleast, ? ;; , hesitatingly,

with a pause ;;; slowly, somehow stealingly , i

enter, some force takes me there, to witness that

spectacular sight , i visualise;; Devi Shaarada

would have appeared before them ;; i visualise, the

beautiful Mother in a white gorgeous silk sari and

green silk blouse,, bedecked with jewels all over her

chest , the emerald ruby coral gold diamond

necklaces, and Thirumaangalyam, adorned diamond

studded gold crown, with her locks of curly hair,

peeping through the kireetam, with her forehead ,

decorated with kasturi aromatic vermillion, eyes

with anjanam full of compassion,, with her nosering

glittering in the sunrays, the Thaatangam in SRI

CHAKRA order , with smiling lips in manda haasam, ,

her face like a chandra bimbam,, her hands holding a

veenai and sphatika maala, pusthakam, her waist

decorated with a gold waistband full of pearls, gold

beads,, she is seated in a rathna simhasanam, her

lotus feet smeared with marudaani , fingers in

golden metti and kolusu , i look at her, what a

beauty, tears roll down my cheeks,, i murmur, “

Tripura sundarini divya rupamunu

............amma......, then at this hour, i look at

devi, iam yearning, she cast a look on me, i cannot

wait, i sob, cry, then i run towards her,

prostrate to her ,I, hold her lotus feet keep my head

on her feet,, offer , jasmine , roses, lotus, bilva,

thulasi, manoranjitham, marukkozhundu,

dhavanam,sampangi, mullai, , maru, arali, sougandhika,

makizhampoo, thaazhampoo, semparuthi, paarijatham,

javanthi, kasithumbai, iruvakshi, lily,,,,, garden

fresh flowers, full of fragrance ,, i offer the

sweetghee rice, thaamboolam, i talk to her ; amma,

wont you look at me, i am your child too, you are

PAAMARA JANA PAALINI, PAAHI BHAARATHI DEVI, GRANT ME

A BOON that , I ALWAYS KEEP WORSHIPPING YOU,

THINKING YOU ALLWAYS, WHATEVER I DO I SUBMIT TO YOU, ,

AT THE TIME OF MY LAST BREATH, LET ME CHANT YOUR NAME

THINK OF YOU AT THAT TIME WITHOUT FAIL, SO THAT YOU

 

 

WOULD TAKE ME IN YOUR ARMS,PLEASE GRANT ME THIS MUCH ,

THIS MUCH I SEEK. THIS MUCH I SEEK , THIS MUCH I SEEK.

Amma, amma, please grant me , please. I TOOK ENTRY

HERE WITHOUT PERMISSION, BUT I PRAY I BEG YOU BE

PRESENT WHEN THE TIME TO BREATH MY LAST, LET YOU BE

PRESENT , WHEN MY BREATH CHOKES, , YOU BE PRESENT

BEFORE MY EYES, AND SAY, DO NOT FEAR, WHEN IAM HERE, I

WOULD HEAR YOUR SOOTHING WORDS, AND WHAT YOU WILL DO

WITH ME IT IS UPTO YOU, THIS IS THE PRAYER OF A

DEVOTEE, DO THIS MUCH FOR ME, AMMA, AMMA, MY DEAR

AMMA,, ONLY THIS MUCH I SEEK. SHIVE PAAHI. SHRI

MAATHRE NAMAH.

 

SIVASHANKARI SUNDARESAN.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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with love and regards, sivashankari sundaresan

 

 

 

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