Responses to Questions of Faith

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Here's sort of a 'digest' of the responses I recieved. I thank all

the readers for their understanding and their responses.

Especially in light of a new member's interest in reviving

faith in others, in a universalist spirit, I feel that this

discussion may be beneficial not just to me but as a

forum for all of us.

 

One main thread that runs through most responses - the fact

that faith is an issue of grace.

 

"The whole issue of 'faith' - both getting it and losing it - is

not up to you. you get this only by His Grace.-- N. S. Vishwanath

 

"It is probably our encounters with these knots that causes the

annoying moments of loss of faith and doubts and spiritual

anguish; but do we have much choice except to wait for that

magician- our ishta devatha? - Murali Manohar

 

With all due respect - and a request for correction if this flies

in the face of recieved wisdom =)

 

I do think that we, as sentient beings, have a responsibility

to strive for faith, and to strive for moksha. Our spirituality

is such that it is founded in faith, and built with further

insight and reasoning based on faith. Here I am merely restating

what Parthasarathi Dileepan said =)

 

The picture I am getting is how an uncle of mine explained the

mudra of Sriman Narayana, with an open palm outwards, fingers

facing down ( varada hasta I think ? ). " Here are my feet, your

only refuge" . Now it is up to us to reach those feet, hold on

to them. And it is His infinite grace that once we have done that,

he takes care of us. But to reach them in the first place, if

something gets up within you and says " non sum dignus" - I

am not worthy of even this, I have too little faith and too many

imperfections - then what do you do ?

 

Murali put it really well when he talked about the anguish of

spiritual destitution, and asks can there be a way out. Also

he reminds us of viraha bhakti, which is a definite tradition of

ours. Thank you, I had quite forgotten that much better people

than I have undergone more intense experiences. Now this

to me seems a wonderful place to begin contemplation - because

it is very emotional, and speaks to the heart entirely - by this

I mean the music and poetry of meera, Aandaal, and Bhadraachala

Ramadasa, who composed "paluke bangaaramayena".

 

Allow me to digress a while on this last song.. "paluke bangaaram

aayena" - he complains, a word from you has become as

precious as gold ? I have not heard from you for so long ! -

and states his grief - " kanalo nee naama smaraNa maravatsakkani

tanri" - " O my Father, not even in my dreams have I been able

to forget reciting your name always " ...

 

The humdinger of a reply comes from Vaidehi who pretty much

puts me through the wringer =)

 

"What is it that you have wavering or questionable faith in: the

religion or the existence of God or your faith to God? It sounds

more like the existenceof God himself to me.

 

Not that. I have been through the "fashionable atheist" and

"fashionable agnostic" phases fairly early in life, and found

myself wanting too much more to honestly be either. To

believe in God's existence is not the question for me, I think.

It is more a question of how the pieces of the puzzle fall into

place.

 

" I have no idea how much you know about God, philosophy etc.,

 

Very little, believe me =)

 

"but I think the more deeply you understand the various qualities

of God and atleast a fair bit of Vaishnavite (or whichever you

wish to understand more) philosophy, by a very gradual process,

your faith in God will become more and more unshakable

 

Maybe then the question is one of impatience with the graduality

of the process ? This is an interesting thought.

 

And then again, she throws in a challenge later that I think a

lot of us may not spend enough time considering, or maybe I am

the one frittering my time away thinking about it while the

rest of us go on in blessed assurance ? However, the validity

of the questions remain.

 

" What you want to experience can be a lifetime pursuit - the

question then will be: are u willing to spend your life in this

search? Are u ready to make the sacrifices that it may demand?

And finally are u capable of absorbing the immensity of what you

may find?

 

The capability - that is definitely in question in my mind. As for

willingess to sacrifice etc., I used to have this beezy assurance

that I would never be asked to give more than it was in my

capacity to give - i.e., any challenges thrown my way were

thrown there with forekowledge that I had it in me to overcome

them, and if i didn't the first time, I'd go back and do it again

till I got it right. This attitude used to help with the question

of faith too, until lately.

 

She then illustrates with the example of her father, how one can

fortify faith with an excellent knowledge and exploration of

the scriptures, and by sambandham with wise people and

"torch bearers of our religion" I think is the way she put it.

Excellent. However, I think there must be a part in the grand

scheme of things for us idiots too =) So far I thought I'd get by

on faith. It is when that begins to get shaky that i start worrying.

 

More discussion please, this is really helpful.

 

- Sundar