naan kaNdu koNdEn

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Dear Sri vaishnavaas,

This is madhavan from singapore.

Another favourite pasuram which I relish singing in the Raag Sahaanaa (as

learnt from my mother)- pardon me for any semblance of exhibition of pride-

Tears always well in my eyes whenever I sing this pasuram of Thirumangai

mannan.

 

VaadinEn Vadi VarundhinEn manaththaal

perunthuyaridum idumbayil piRandhu

 

KoodinEn Koodi eLaiyavar thammodu

avar tharum kalaviyE karudhi

 

OdinEn odi uyvadhOr poruLaal

uNarvenum perumpadham therindhu

 

NaadinEn naadi naan kaNdu koNdEn

NARAAYANA yennum naamam

 

Those who know tamil and Thirumangai mannan's story would have already

understood the meaning.

 

Meaning: (as understood and recollected by me-)

 

VaadinEn vaadi varundhinEn manaththaal- Regretting, Feeling guilty,

miserable, painful at heart;

 

perunthuyaridum idumbaiyir piRandhu - Being born in a material body which

is a reservoir of terrible and tremendous sorrow/unhappiness;

 

KoodinEn Koodi eLaiyavar thammodu avar tharum kalaviyE karudhi OdinEn odi-

Ran after young women seeking for monentary pleasures which they give from

the physical union with them;

 

uyvadhOr poruLaal uNarvenum perumpadham therindhu-Realised now (with His

grace) that there exists a Higher Blissful goal to save me ;

 

NaadinEn naadi naan kaNdu koNdEn NARAAYANA yennum naamam- I have been

yearning for this and Now I have found out and it is: "NAARAAYANAA"-

 

An excellent pasuram- a touch of pathos for Thirumangai mannan's

guilt,regret for his past actions (Karpanyam?);- Rightfully regretting ,

especially after realising that even Kumudavalli (wife of Thirumangai

mannan) herself was sent by Narayana to divert the Azhwar from Material

pursuits/pleasures of the world -ThadutthaatkoLLaL)-Such is the Grace of

Sriman NarayaNa)

 

(I only wish the Lord sends us such sources for "ThadutthaatkoLL"-ifying

us- or may be it is our Sri Mani, whom He has sent- to connect us

electroncially and get benefitted in the process)

 

One should know the story to relish this pasuram more. (With Bhagavaan's

grace, I would like to attempt to write the complete stories of Azhwaars -

as a means for self purification- ; I will try to make it lucid and simple

so that even a novice can follow.)

 

Ram Ram

 

Thirumangaiazhwaar ThiruvadigaLe saranam

 

madhavan