Thiruvvaimozhi 4.4- My girl is going CRAZEE after Sriman NarayaNan!

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SRI:

 

Dearest Sisters and Brothers,

 

NammAzhwAr enjoyed narrating Emperumaan’s love towards Him in his last

decad. Emperumaan thought, this way, if it goes on increasing, the love

for the Lord may even spoil his health and hence, decided to stay out of

AzhwAr’s scene for some time. Immediately our AzhwAr again, has started

suffering from pangs of separation and the Viragha thaapam. In this

decad of Thiruvaaimozhi 4.4, he again enters into the Piraatti role and

languishes heavily. Whatever he sees, in all things, he connects to

Emperumaan. He sees everything as Him and Him only and suffers heavily

longing for Him. And Parangusa Nayaki’s mother suffers looking at her

daughter’s pains of separation.

 

1. She, my girl, is sitting on the sands and is taking the sands from

the ground in her handful- claiming those sands were all dropped from

His Feet, when He took TrivikaramAvathAram. Due to Viragha thaapam, she

feels as if she is touching His Feet by touching the sands on the earth.

She look at the sky and pays obeisance to it. She tries to say that

there His Parama Padham exists in the sky but unable to even utter any

words due to her exertion of separation. She only shows with her finger.

After showing the sky, she is so much remorse with tears, crying heavily

whether she will totally lose her enjoyment of seeing His Beautiful

form. She looks at the Blue sky and shouts "kadal VaNNA!" (The one of

Blue hued colour of the sea!). The One who made my daughter so much

crazy- How will I make Him come here and How will she recover at all!.

 

2. I am not able to understand my daughter’s actions. The so much

beautiful daughter of mine is even unable to utter NarayaNA and wiping

her continuos outpouring of tears from her big, dark eyes. Finally she

manages to say amidst her sobs "narayaNA!" and exerts herself. She is

standing like an orphan in front of me (her mother). She is calling

Emperumaan as kadal VaNNan and languishes thinking of His dark, blue

hued Beautiful colour. Her bangles automatically fall off her hands (due

to her thinning down from languishing). She imagines the sea waves’

noises and says that is the ocean where NarayaNA is lying down. When the

sun dawns in the morning, she gets so much excited and shouts Hey! There

is Emperumaan Sridharan’s Beautiful Thirumugha maNdalam (face). I simply

do not know what to do with her.

 

3. Everyone (including the kid, if cautioned) knows that the fire can

not be touched and will burn the body. My crazy, mad girl is almost

touching the fire and says" AchuthA!" But nothing happens to her body.

(SubrahmaNya Bharathi says " TheekuL viralai vaitthaal, NandalaalA!

Unnai theeNdum inbham thOnrudhaiyA NandalaalA- When I put my finger

inside the fire, it gives me a feeling of touching You, NandalaalA- he

is also a Great poet). She hugs the cool chill breeze and says "My dear

GovindhA!". Her body is smelling with such Great Fragrance like

ParimaLam and ThuLasi leaves. Even when she laments for Emperumaan

Sriman NarayaNan she smells so much divine; But, the MahApaapi, I am,

suffering and unable to solve her pangs of pains. Her sufferings are

countless; Her crazy actions are so many. I have lost count.

 

4. My daughter, when she looks at the Full Moon, she gets so excited

and shouts "NarayaNA!- The Most shining Lord of mine!". When she looks

at the Big mountain, she calls the mountain "NedumAlE!, Please come to

me!". When it rains she yells "hey! NarayaNan has come" and jumps with

joy. My sweet, lovely Beautiful daughter- why does He trouble her like

this? What can I do?.

 

5. When she hugs the healthy cute calves, she is so happy and tells

these calves were the ones taken care by KaNNan. My God! She literally

touches the running snake and says that is AdhsEshan and His bed. (It

will bite, kaNNE!- how to explain her, Lord!). I do not know what all

she is going to do and how am I take full care of her safety. He has

deceived her and allured her for being so much crazy after Him- Maayavan

is He. Look, How does she dance so vigorously longing for NarayanA!

6. When she sees the street dancers, she runs behind them as says

"Govindhan is dancing". When she listens to the flute anywhere, she gets

into ecstasy and says "ahA! Kannan is playing flute!" and she gets into

the trance. When she someone carrying butter, she gets excited and says

this veNNai (butter) was eaten by my KaNNan and grabs it. Her madness

after KaNNan is beyond narration and is not proper to tell in public

too.

 

7. When she is totally maddened by His thought, she tells all these

worlds were created by KrishNan only. When she sees someone with even

vubhUthi marks on their faces, vertically (Oordhva PuNdram) she calls

them as BhAgawathAs of Sriman NarayaNA and runs behind them. When she

looks at fragrant thuLasi leaves, she gets into ecstasy. She, (even

when she is clear and when she is NOT clear in her words as well )

always keeps talking about Emperumaan’s kalYANa guNAs.

 

8. When she hears or sees the good kings without any blemishes, she

says "I have seen the Sriya: Pathi Sriman NarayaNan". When she looks at

the beautiful flowers, she yells, it is due to His Feet’s divine touch

as Trivikraman. Wherever she sees any temple or any statue, she calls

all of them as Emperumaan Kadal VaNNan’s temples. She also shouts

adamantly that the idol is her Lord SarvEshwaran NarayNan only. When she

is normal and is conscious of the surroundings and when she is in a

trance and unclear as well, she longs only for Sri KrishNan’s Lotus Feet

alone. (there is also an interesting ithIhyam about this mistaken

identity of kings as Sriman NarayaNan by Srimad NathamunigaL- Once when

he saw chOlA king stepping on the head of his servant and climbed on his

elephant, Srimad Nathamuni went into ecstasy and prostrated thinking

that he is Sriman NarayaNan who stepped on BrahmA’s head and boarded

GarudA. Also on another occasion, when he saw a king with his queen,

minister, and the servant, he went behind them calling them as PerumAL.

SitAPiraatti, Ilaya PerumAL and AnjanEYA. What an anubhavam! They are

BhAgawathAs; they are great devotees!)

 

9. When may daughter sees the sannyaasis, she gets so excited and says

"Emperumaan is here and He is the One who ate everything and the entire

world!". When she looks at the dark, rainy clouds, she shouts "KaNNA!

Please come fast" and tries to fly to the clouds and raise her hands

like feathers. She has literally gone crazee! She runs behind the group

of cows telling that KaNNan will definitely be there. Oh Lord, what have

You done to my girl for getting so mad after You! She is crying heavily!

(There is yet another story about these dark clouds: At Chozha dEsam

during RajEndra Chozhan perios, there was one Thiruvaayk kulatthAzhwAr

(an ardent bhakthA of Sriman NarayaNA) who went to see the growth of his

paddy fields during the rainy season., saw the dark rainy clouds and

went into ecstasy thinking of Emperumaan’s Neela mEgha shyAmaLan’s

colour and fainted. Someone who passec by lifted him in his arms and

carried him to his home and scolded his people for allowing such an

ardent bhakthA of NarayaNA to go out during the rainy season (may be

that happens to him often!))

 

10. My beautiful darling daughter has become so mad after Him and

faints often thinking of Him always; She looks at everywhere without any

clarity like mad person. She always sweats heavily! She is full of tears

in her eyes and always sobs continuously. She sighs deeply and exerts

herself calling "KaNNA! Please come to me fast!". Alas! What can I do

now? I am not able to bear looking at my darling in this state. What

mahA Paapam (great sin) have I committed for seeing all these sufferings

of my darling daughter! (Similar to these feelings of dearest mother of

Parangusa Nayaki, Sri Bhagavadh Ramanujar uttered the same words when he

saw KooratthAzhwAn’s face with blinded eyes (due to ChoLA king who had

ordered to pluck the eyes of KooratthAzhwAn and Periyanambhi and

Periyanambi’s eyes were pierced and KUrEsar plucked his eyes by

himself): "What Paapams have I committed for seeing KooratthAzhwAn’s

blinded eyes!" - this is actually a comparison of Nampillai.)

 

11. Sri SadagOpar sang 1000 pAsurams about his bhakthi for KaNNapiraan

who removes all (irremovable) sins of even the highest order. Out of

those 1000, readers of these 10 pAsurams, who consider them as the means

to get rid of their sins and karmAs will definitely get their sins

ridden of; They will ALSO reach Parama Padham, Sri Vaikuntam and stay

there and obtain all praises from everybody here and Srivaikuntam as

well.

 

Graet set of pAsurams! What an outpour from AzhwAr! Enna MahAnubhavam!

 

AzhwAr thiruvadigaLE saraNam

 

 

Ram Ram

 

With Best Regards

 

NarayaNa dAsan madhavakkannan

 

 

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