Thiruvaaimozhi 5.4- The whole world is sleeping peacefully except ME!

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SrI:

 

Dearest Sisters and Brothers,

 

In the last ten, AzhwAr was so much obsessed with KaNNan and wished to

perform madal oordhal immediately; Due to her (parAngusha nAyaki’s)

suffering, she exerted herself and was so tired; The dusk also set in.

It became dark. Hence, she had to postpone her performance of madal

oordhal.

 

AzhwAr describes MOST EXCELLENTLY the languishing suffering of the

nayaki due to her being away from her beloved Lord for so long; More so,

during nights, any disease gets aggravated. IT IS A SUPERB RENDERING OF

AZHWAR.

 

1. Everybody has slept. The ones who blamed me; the ones who talk good

about me; the ones who gave me company- all sorts of people has gone to

sleep. When everyone is so united in sleeping in this

L......O......N.....G night, When, the whole world is filled with so

much darkness, when the animals on land and in water have gone to sleep,

there is no sound any where and it is so much deafening silence that

kills me. The One, who saved the world during the Cosmic cycle is not

coming now to protect me. The One who has the snake as His bed, is not

coming now and is making me suffer in this night. I have committed so

many greatest sins; is there any one who can save me? (No.) My getting

saved- is it possible any more? No. (This Pasuram is our dearest SrI

MaNi’s favourite).

 

2. Everywhere -it is pitch dark. It is darkness, totally incomparable.

This night appears to be getting Longer and longer. This darkness spans

everywhere- the deep sea, the vast earth, the sky- it occupies

everywhere with huge ugliness. My KaNNan, who is like the fresh bloomed

flower petals, has not yet come. The Ever helpful Lord, is not here to

help me. Oh mind of the greatest sinner (i.e. me!), you are also NOT

there to provide me support and company (because you have gone to Him).

aiyO! Who else can save me! (tvayi rakshati rakshakai kim anyai; tvayi

cha arakshati rakshakai kim anyai- Swami Desikan says in

Kaamaasikaashtakam- Oh NarasimhA! When You have decided to protect some

one, where is the need to look for the protection from other Gods? And

when You have decided NOT to save some one, who is capable of protecting

that person?- Simple; But nettiyadi (hitting straight on the forehead)

for those who are after other dEvathAs;)

 

3. Oh Mind, without you, I can Not do any thing; Even you have deserted

me and do not appear to be doing good to me; This long, vast dark, night

appears to be lengthening more only and is not reducing. It keeps

lengthening. Oh RamA! Like You went to save SitA Piraatti, why are You

Not coming to help me? His Not helping me is due to my lots of paapams

and I am born as a mahApaapi girl in this world. But I do not know how

to die now.

 

4. The bright Sun also has gone saying that he can not bear to see the

sufferings of those who are born as females. (Excellent- It is still

unfortunately man’s world. The sufferings a female undergoes with so

much patience and endurance is beyond description and words- NampiLLai

writes that ladies always are supported by the male members; they are so

soft and tender and can not bear the pangs of separation - Hence, they

are the Greatest sufferers in this world and undergo more dukkham;-

KavimaNi dEsika vinaayakam piLLai a, tamil poet wrote: moonRu

bhuvanatthu poruL muRRum kodutthu EnRa vazhpaadu iyaRRidinum en Thaay

oru naaL vaLarrthadhukku iyaiyaavE- " Even if one offers all the three

worlds and worship his mother, even then, it will NOT BE EQUAL TO ONE

DAY OF HER CARE AND BRINGING HIM UP- HATS OFF TO ALL SISTERS IN THIS

GROUP.) Even Vaamanan has not come to save me. Who will now remove my

sufferings?

 

5. The mother and friends, who are to help me in such times of crisis

are now sleeping throughout this long night without even bothering to

know my state of sufferings. Okay, if they do not know or care to know;

What about my KaNNa perumaan who has to save me? He also has not come.

At least am I able to end my life? I am not able to do that either. I am

just living for name’s sake.

 

6. The love disease has been chasing my mind without any interruption

or gap and has been hurting me greatly. The long night appears like the

end of the world and has literally engulfed the whole world and has even

darkened my eyesight. Alas! The ever permanent, My maayavan, Emperumaan

has not come to save me yet. In this state, there is none who can help

me but Him.

 

7. It is His duty to protect me and save me; Even if He does not come,

who else will come to save me? This lengthening night, this cold night

sees the snow drops everywhere. Oh What can I do? In such a might, the

Omni present Emperumaan, with His white Conch and Strong ChakrA, has not

yet appeared. What amount of sins I must have committed for that Most

Merciful Lord even NOT to save me? Oh Gods! The Ones who do not wink

your eyes! You all are awake, but have not helped me (by recommending my

case to the Lord). I am literally crippled and helpless.

 

8. Oh Gods! What can I do? This long night literally hurts my body and

thins me down, while the chill breeze enters even my bone. In spite of

my terrible sufferings, He has not come to me. The breeze that others

enjoy is literally burning me (causing more viragha thaapam) like the

fire.

 

9. This long night, with dense darkness, with chill breeze and snow

droplets everywhere, is burning my body like fire. When will there be

light and dawn? When will the bright Sun appear in the East? The Red

Lotus eyed Lord, My Most Beautiful KaNNan has also NOT come; My mind has

been literally weeping thinking of Him. Who else will cure my mind’s

sorrows?

 

10. In this dark, long, chill night, Oh my Goodness! There is none to

help me! The whole world is simply NOT bothered about my sufferings.

(AzhwAr’s anubhavam is simply superb; one can really feel this long,

night and loneliness when we suffer with some pain or disease; every

body else sleeps; except the patient.- it is really pathetic. More so,

when you are love sick; Most so, when you are love sick with the Chief

Himself!). No one sympathises with me; He came and appeared in front of

mahAbhali! But He has NOT appeared in front of me yet. Oh No! The whole

world is sleeping!

 

11. The One who is having His yOgha nithrA on the AdhisEshan,

Emperumaan KaNNan has been sung by SrI SadagOpar in his 1000 pAsurams of

Thiruvaaimozhi. Out of those 1000, those who read these ten- How can

they NOT reach SrI Vaikuntam when they leave from their bodies? (They

will definitely reach and will NOT stay here for any more births to talk

about AzhwAr’s sufferings).

 

AzhwAr thiruvadigaLe saraNam

 

 

 

Ram Ram

 

With Best Regards

 

NarayaNa dAsan madhavakkannan

 

 

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