Thiruvaaymozhi 8.1- Please make me serve You eternally, Lord!

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SrI:

 

Dearest Sisters and Brothers,

 

Still AzhwAr's desire to enjoy performing kaimkaryam has not

materialised. However he has more faith now on Emperumaan and describes

His state of being the saviour of His devotees always and of our eternal

connection with the Lord. Thus, AzhwAr does not have any semblance of

doubt if at all He will come to save him.

 

1. BhagawaanE! Why should I lament and worry when You are with Your

BhUmi Piraatti and Periya Piraatti? (means they are there to recommend

my case to You). Also, to carry out Your Divine commands and orders,

there are NityasUris readily available at Your Lotus Feet. You, the

ruler of all three worlds- show Yourself in the exact form (whatever

form) Your devotees desire and worship You and bless them. You have

simply captured me with Your lovely Most Beautiful Red Lotus Eyes and

Your round, enchanting Coral lipped mouth and are terribly disturbing

me! My uyirE! (life!), Oh My Dearest Emerald! My Nectarine beauty! My

Father! The One who churned the Milky Ocean! Please bless me to have

Your Darshan with my (physical) eyes. (kamalak kaNNanadhu Or pavaLavaay

maNiyE! AaviyE! AmudhE! Alaikadal kadaintha appanE!-)

 

2. I have been suffering heavily and am remorse with tears very often

thinking of You and Your mercy that You will bless me, (the Greatest

sinner) have Your darshan. I long to reach You in different ways and in

various means, and with that craving, I keep on uttering Your names very

many times and suffer terribly. Is this Your mercy on me, Lord? KaNNA!

You are like the Sweet fruit ("kaRpaka kani") to adiyEn (me.), Your

eternal servant! You are like the Sweet nectar to bhAgawthAs! (those who

are desirous of seeing You). Oh Masculine EmperumaanE! The One who

brought back the Mother Earth and saved the same! Please bless me to

have Your darshan.

 

3. KannA! The Dearest darling child of NandhagOpan! You gave yasOdhA

unbounded limitless joy. You were like the Lion among the cowherd (aayar

kulam). Such a Greatest Lord only is my Dearest Lord. You tore open the

body of HiranYan (the one who craved for fights with others) into two

pieces with Your sharp nails and killed that asuran. That day You

appeared so spontaneously and now You have NOT yet appeared to save me!

Should You not come in some form that suits for me? If You do not come

to me now and save me from these troubles and dangers, how will Your

bhAgawathAs (who have Your guNAs only as their food for their lives)

believe You?

 

4. You take the form of the most desired shape/body (ThirumEni) in

which Your bhakthAs (adiyaargaL) (ones who are Yours at all times) would

long to see You always. You take mercy on such BhagawathAs, who are

simply engrossed in their enormous bhakti (devotion) towards You and in

order to involve them and enchant them further, you perform various

mischievous deeds as a Great Maayavan. Like that- You are at the

disposal of BhagawathALs and I possess that jnAnam (knowledge) of Your

sowlabhyam. Still, due to my karmic disease, I get into little doubt

whether it is true or not. How can I talk about Your Great acts of

performing the KurukshEthra yuddham and destroying the vast Kaurava

armies? You are the limitless and unbounded nectar (amudham) to dEvAs,

while You are such a poison for asurAs (asurAs, who are born and/or

asurAs, who become one, by their nature). Such Greatest Lord, -You are

and the One who is my Life itself. (amarar tham amudhE! Asurar tham

nanjE! ennudai aaruyirEyO!)

 

5. EmperumaanE! When You are there as the life (jIvan) for me (who is

the "sarIram" (body) for You), what can I do to reach You and How?

(There is nothing for me to do or to offer to You- Everything is Yours

including myself). This vast-huge Earth- You created the same- and In

order to protect You brought it back during Your Varaaha avataaar and

You retained it in Your stomach and brought it out during PraLayam

(Cosmic cycle). You are the One as Trivikraman, who measured the whole

universe in Your two steps! You are the Grandest Chief who created the

huge Milky Ocean and lied down on it! (and have "aRithuyil"). You are

the one who churned the same Milk Ocean! (for giving nectar to dEvAs).

You are the One who built the bridge across the sea (during Rama

avataar!). You are the chieftain, SarvEshwaran of dEvAs, (who themselves

are greater than human beings in their wealth and nature). You are the

life (jIvan) of these worlds- supporter of them- the Director of them-

and have them as Your body (SarIram). (With such innumerable strings of

greatness in Your nature and guNAS), How can I ever try to attempt even

to see You? You out of Your mercy on me and out of Your grace should

show Yourself to me.

 

6. Oh My Dearest Ruler! When the seven worlds are under Your command, is

it possible to reach You with my own efforts? In this world, the demi

Gods whom You have appointed are all under Your direction and order. The

pUjA performed to these demi Gods and the acts they perform (like

creation, destruction etc..) are all actually delegated to them by You.

(They are all under Your control.) The vast (outside the universe)

tatvAs like "mahat" (The Cause) are all under Your ruling. The

"sookshuma" tatvA (the most minutest state of chit ) are also under

Your order. The muktha jIvAthmAs (who are not visible by naked eyes) are

all under Your command. When such is the case about Your Power,

Greatness, HOW WILL I REACH YOU BY MYSELF?

 

7. Oh KaNNA! The One who hugged the shoulders of Nappinnai Piraatti and

married her! Everything and all objects are under Your control and

direction. The Past, the present and the future - the objects that live

in these trikaalams (three times) are all under Your ruling. When such

is the case, that object- (which is far away), this object (which is

the nearest one) and the in between one are all created to do good to

You (as a part of Your leelA). Even though I possess the knowledge of

such a tatvam (i.e: He has All (except Him) in Him as ones belonging to

Him as His sarIram), due to my incorrigible enormous sins that I had

committed in the past, I still have a little "samsayam" (suspicion) on

this. You are so sweet like the milk that has just been milked (from the

cow); so tasty like the Ghee in that milk. You are like the sweetest

nectar of ThiruppaaRkadal! You are the experience of that joy /bliss/

happiness/ pEraanandham that one derives from tasting that tasty amudham

(nectar)! (You are the tasty "akkaara adisil") Since You are so tasty

and sweet, (which is beyond one's comprehension and perception), I get

such a suspicion? (Please read the words in Tamil for better taste of

AzhwAr's "akkaara adisil"- kaRandha paal neyyE! Neyyin insuviayE!

KadalinuL amudhamE! Amudhil piRandha insuvaiyE! Suvaiyadhu payanE!

Pinnai thOL maNandha pErAyA!" What a Thamizh! - The ghee from akkaara

adisil is flowing down the wrist dripping from the elbow -"mooda ney

peydhu muzhanghai vazhivaara")

 

8. Oh Chief (of Cowherd men)! The One who united with Nappinnai

Piraatti! You have captured me (the Great sinner who has not got You

with me) with Your Great Most auspicious kalyANa guNAs and made me

suffer terribly languishing for You. You are like a Yaman to the cruel

asurAs! You have the GarudA (by whose mere glance can kill its enemies)

as Your flag! You have the AdhisEshan (1000 headed) as Your bed! You are

there having Yogha nithra at ThiruppaaRkadal, EAGERLY AWAITING the call

of Your devotees! Even after having my mind, my words, and even myself

under Your ruling, I still do not know HOW TO PAY obeisance to You.

Since, everything is under Your ruling and direction, there is nothing

that I need to do or act. Hence, You should only save me.

 

9. (This pAsuram is quite deep in its meanings and content! Also

NampiLLai's eedu vyAkhyaanam beautifully explains it and is self

explanatory, which I have detailed below: Perhaps, learned Sisters and

Brothers can add value to my blathering on this rich deep, pAsuram!)

BhagawaanE! (Oh Lord!) Since You are there in everything and everything

is in You, I AM ALSO IN YOU. YOU ARE ALSO IN ME. To tell further, You

are even the cruel hell. Hence, whether I go to Parama Padham or I

proceed to hell (i.e. birth in this world again), though they are one

and the same (because they are all part of You only), I am still scarred

of the hell (further births!). The reason is: After having clearly

realised and experienced being Your servant, why should I reach the

hell? Oh parama Padha nAthanE! Please bless me by showing Your Lotus

Feet! (NampiLLai's vyAkhyAnam: I am Your sEshan- and am in You as an

ornament / a part belonging to You. There is no doubt about it. My

samsaaric ills (which are like the most cruel hell to me) are also Your

sEshathvam only. Hence, when I and my enemy (my samsaaric ills) both are

under Your control and are Your sEshathvam- How does it matter whether I

go to Parama Padham or back to samsaara saagaram? It is essential for a

sEshan to please and act per directions of sEshI. (Slave to do as per

Master's actions only!). Even then- if I get back to this Samsaara

saagaram- I am scared that I WILL FORGET THIS (LITTLE) KNOWLEDGE that I

possess about Your Seshathvam and Your Sarvarakshathvam. Hence, YOU

PLEASE bless me to call me and involve me in Your Nitya vibhUthI (Parama

Padham) to perform eternal kaimkaryam to You (in order to grant me

eternal limitless unbounded blissful happiness). Please show mercy on me

and show Your Lotus Feet to me, Lord!- What an explanation by

NampiLLai!)

 

10. Oh My Father! You are the JyOthiswarUpI! You have thousands of

shoulders! Your Heads (Thirumudi) are also thousands! Like the bunch of

fresh, lovely, Beautiful flowers- the eyes are thousands! You have

thousands of Feet! Your Divya thirunaamams (names) are thousand; Such

Greatest Emperumaan You are! You have blessed me and elevated me higher

and higher by showing Your Lotus Feet! (The Lord has actually shown His

Lotus Feet to our AzhwAr!). You have captured me, enslaved me and You

have shown Your Lotus Feet- What and How can I repay You, My Dearest

Lord! (Dearest Sisters and Brothers, See the next statement- Imagine

AzhwAr's ecstasy in his attempt to repay back and his enjoyment of

surrendering to the Lord!) I will hug the shoulders of my "uyir" -life-

(jIvan) and surrender my AthmA to give "it" to You as the price for what

You have done to me. (Read again! AzhwAr has personified his jIvan and

hugs it by its shoulders to jointly surrender his AthmA to the Lord!).

My uyir jIvan DOES NOT BELONG and hence, is NOT FOR ANYONE ELSE. I AM

PLACING IT AT YOUR FEET AND IT IS ONLY FOR YOU, MY LORD! (NampiLLai

replies to the question of how one can give the AthmA as the price for

What Emperumaan has done when it is actually His. The reason is : AzhwAr

is so overwhelmed in joy and is so excited that he talks in such state

of tremendous absolute bliss.)

 

11. Paramapadham, This world,- Emperumaan is the Chief of them; He is

the Father of Sivan, Brahman, the Sages, dEvas, and all others. He is

the SarvEshwaran. He alone is the Unparalleled, unmatched, peerless,

"than oppAril appan- Oppiliappan" Chief. About such Greatest Emperumaan-

Sri SadgOpar of Thirukkurugoor has sung and composed most dearly and

devotedly 1000 pAsurams. Out of them, these ten have been sung with

garlands of words. Oh Servants (of Emperumaan!) please read them and GET

SAVED! You will definitely get saved!

 

NammAzhwAr ThiruvadigaLE saraNam

 

Ram Ram

 

With Best Regards

 

NarayaNa dAsan madhavakkannan

 

 

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