Thiruvaaymozhi 7.9- What, How can I repay Him for His Krupai?

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Dearest Sisters and Brothers,

 

NammAzhwAr gets into his grateful mood and is so grateful to Emperumaan

for His grace on him to let him compose these verses. AzhwAr says in

these ten pAsurams that there is no way that he can repay Emperumaan for

what good He has done to him. Needless to say that it is a great ten

again!

 

1. Emperumaan has saved me for all my eternal future (as long as time

can prevail and exist), considering even me as an object worthy to be

considered. From the time He has enslaved me as His humble servant for

ever, He has blessed me with everything (jnAnam, bhakti ) and utilised

me as an instrument to sing about Himself in Sweet tamil verses. Such

Great SarvEshwaran- Primordial Chief- SarvakaaraNan- Most Brightest

Master of mine- How will I praise Him?

 

2. That maayavan- the Mischievous Lord- Emperumaan- has sung about

Himself in His own words, but only used me as an instrument to compose

these verses. He gave everyone an impression that it is "I" who sings in

my words in praise of Him and made me compose His words through me.

Thus, my precious life has been made by Him an object of worthiness.

Such Marvellous Lord - Wonder- The Chief of the trio (mummUrthys)- has

made me fit enough to be considered by Him. What will I say in gratitude

for what He has done to me? How will I stand? What all will I speak

about Him?

 

3. My dearest Father- Emperumaan- has enabled me to have a clear concept

about Him and realise that "He is the Chief of all!" (Aam mudhalvan

Ivan!); He has gracefully entered into my tongue and sat down there to

make it appear that I sing the sweetest Tamil pAsurams in praise of Him.

(thus He sang about Himself, using me as His instrument!). Such a

Merciful Lord of mine- is the reason for these pAsurams- How can I

forget Him ever? (If I forget Him, I am an ungrateful wretch) (In

Kancheepuram, when Alanvandhaar was present (in the eastern side at

ThiruppuRRu), He was shown Sri ramanuja from afar, who had happened to

come over there (with his then guru Yadavaaprakasar). Alavandhaar,

seeing the Divya tEjas of YathirAjA, said "Aam mudhalvan Ivan!" as

referred in this pAsuram.)

 

4. Bhagawaan considered as a worthy object (who is actually NOT), and

utilised me as His instrument and sang faultless beautiful pAsurams

about Himself. The Greatest incorrigible sinner- I am- He has even saved

me! Not just that! He has used ME (out of all good people in this world)

to sing about Him and hid my incapacity and uselessness. After knowing

His such a GuNA, How can I ever forget Him?

 

5. Emperumaan (alone) knows His kalyANa guNAs completely. I- the lowly,

illiterate, ajjnAnI, having absolutely NO CAPACITY, a useless person;

have been considered as an object of worthiness and have been blessed

and used by Emperumaan to sing about Him. He made me His bhakthA and

enabled me to sing Bhakti-laden songs on Him. That Chief- who has no

parallel to Him- made me sing such sweet verses on His Glories.

 

6. There are umpteen much better poets than me in this world. Even then,

without making use of their talents and strengths to sing about Himself,

He - My Vaikunta Nathan- has made ME sing about Him. Today, He has come

and is with me and has made me sing on Him. With rhythmic words and rich

meanings He has made me sing such verses.

 

7. Emperumaan- Sri Vaikunta Nathan- is so merciful to remove and destroy

all my numerous countless sins and has blessed me. His Parama krupai has

made me realise that I am His possession. He has even made me sing on

Him and praise Him as "Sri Vaikunta Nathan". On such Sri Vaikunthan-

even if I sing all days melting with Bhakti- will I still be satisfied?

(No.)

 

8. My Lord- Sriman Narayanan has got the Divine ChakrA in His Beautiful

hand. That Em piraan has made me - who has absolutely no capacity to be

a poet nor a bhakthA nor any desire to become one- His property for

ever. Is it just that? He has even made me sing about His guNAs and

Glories in sweet verses (which I am NOT at all capable of). Have I

become an object for His Greatest guNA? Even though I sing as if I have

fully experienced Him, Does that mean I have? (No. It is He who is doing

it.). Even if one gets all powers of the vast space, the mammoth waters,

and sing enjoying Him for infinite amount of time, it is still

insatiable; Such an aaraavamudhan avan.

 

9. Bhagawaan- with His limitless krupai (dayA), has made me- (who was

totally away from Him and was NOT at all proceeding towards His

direction) His property and used me to sing many verses on Him. He is

capable of making even a lowly grass do great wonders! Such a Wonderful

maayavan- My Lord- Even if I enjoy Him and His guNAS all days (taking

all my past days and future days into account), I will still be longing

for more.

 

10. For His mercy and Great upakaaram towards me and making me sing such

verses on Him, I would love to do something to repay to Him. Even if I

plan to give my life and jIvan to repay Him for His dayA, that also

belongs to Him only and IS NOT mine. What else to do? For such merciful

Lord, the One who made me sing about Him, there is NOTHING in both

worlds that I can offer to Him; (because everything is His). There is

absolutely Nothing that I can do.

 

11. The Lord- Thirumaal Emperumaan- but for Him- there is Nothing

anywhere realises Sri SadagOpar and sings 1000 verses in praise of Him.

Out of them, reciters / readers of these TEN, in whichever fashion,

(enghanamE sollinum inbham payakkumE- means even if it is translated by

worthless incorrigible sinner like Madhavakkannan), it will fetch tem

Greatest Blissful Happiness.

 

(Referring to Sri Krishnamaachari's excellent post on Swami Desikan's

Nyasadaskam verse 3, it matches perfectly with NammAzhwAr's feelings and

anubhavam. Quote: One who is doing prapatti should realise that bhagavAn

is our Lord, and whatever knowledge we have, whatever we do, whatever

effects they have, whatever benefits they result in, these are all His

acts, and everything

belongs to Him. This is called sAttvika tyAgam. This is a necessary

and essential concept of any dharma towards the attainment of moksham.

This consists of three parts - 1. We should realise that bhagavAn uses

us as the means to do things, and it is not we who perform any act by

ourselves. This is called kartr*ttva tyAgam. 2. We should realise

that the benefits accruing from our acts are not the result of our acts,

but that of bhagavAn. This is called mamatA tyAgam. 3. We should

dedicate the benefits of any of our actions also to bhagavAn, and not

look at the

benefits as belonging to us. This is called phala tyAgam. Unquote. My

heartiest thanks to Sri Krishnamachari for his such Great kaimkaryams).

 

NammAzhwAr ThiruvadigaLE SaraNam

 

 

Ram Ram

 

With Best Regards

 

NarayaNa dAsan madhavakkannan

 

 

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