Thiruvaaymozhi 8.5- Ghee in Milk- Emperumaan as antharyaami!

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Sri:

 

Dearest Sisters and Brothers,

 

AzhwAr's longing for seeing Emperumaan's Divinely Beautiful form keeps

on increasing like the fire in the forest. AzhwAr cries and weeps,

yelling for the Lord!

 

1. Oh Lord! The Wonderful Master! VaamanA! KaNNA! The leelA krishNA! My

Chief! I will compare Your Beauty to the Lotus Pond only because Your

eyes, hands, Feet are all so cute and lovely like that of fresh just

bloomed Lotus petals. Your coral lips, that mouth is like the rose

reddish Lotus bud in the middle. Dark, cool, Divya ThirumEni (divine

body) is similar to the cool beautiful Lotus green leaf. Hene, I can

tell that You are the most fragrant Lotus pond. (thaamaraith thadaakam).

Such Beautiful Lord! At least only one day- You should come for me to

see You.

 

2. My Master! When I see Your bright, shining beautiful Head (with long

dark hairs), it appears like the Bright Black Sun rising on top of the

Emerald mountain. I would love to see that Beauty of Yours, with my

eyes. Due to that desire, I have been calling You many times; my lips,

mouth have all been dried up; my anticipating eyes, keep on shedding

tears and even that has been dried up; My feminine shyness have all been

lost and I am suffering-longing and languishing in this world. Seeing my

such a pitiable situation, will You not show mercy n me and appear at

least one day (ONLY ONE DAY) for me to see You? aiyO! What will I do

now?

 

3. Oh My Lord, who has the Brightest Beautiful Head with long dark

hairs! Oh PerumaanE! The One who wears the most fragrant thuLasi maalai

(garland)! - like that I have been repeatedly calling You so many times

and since You do not at all come in front of me, I have been crying

heavily. You- who is like the dark, (pure water laden) clouds-will You

not appear in front of me with Your beautiful makarakundalangaL (long

ear studs)- with Your coral bimbhA fruit like mouth- with Your four

broad, huge shoulders, with Your waist string (thiru araijnAN)? Please

appear to relieve my sorrows.

 

4. My father! My EmperumaanE! You Divine thirumEni (Body) is like the

clouds that bear the pure waters; Your such brightest, lovely form is

tormenting me terribly. That curvy bimbhA fruit like red mouth- those

eyes that are like the Honey dripping beautiful Lotus flower- have

simply robbed my heart and have filled my mind entirely. The way You are

sleeping on the Milk Ocean is like the Dark Black clouds spanned over

the white Silvery mountain. Thus Your beauty is troubling me so much

that I am NOT ABLE to even speak few words any more.

 

5. Oh Lord! The One who retained the whole universe and protected the

same during the PraLayam! You are so beautiful like the dark clouds!

Your tow Lotus Feet are so lustrous that they appear like the two bright

suns for me; They have stayed in my heart. Hence, How can I know their

brightness and tell that in pAsuram? In order to forget the beauty of

Yours which torments me so much, I need to get ignorance of Your beauty.

If You do NOT wish to show Yourself to me, why don't You at least show

me the way to get that anjnAnam (ignorance)? At least my sufferings will

be over. (Narayana says: Simple- Be with Madhavakkannan for a minute.

You will get that anjnAnam and run behind the worldly pleasures and

materialistic fruits- Don't blame me if he gets changed with your

presence, AzhwArE!) (It is just that AzhwAr is vexed that Emperumaan is

NOT appearing in front of him)

 

6. Oh Blue hued, cloudy coloured Lord! Oh Dancer! (kuda kkoothanE!) You

are the eye for this lowly self, a great sinner! KaNNA! Chief and master

of the whole world! - like that I have been addressing You. To take me,

at least one day, You should come in any way, in any form whatsoever. I

should see Your Lotus Feet and pay obeisance to Them. You can show

Yourself to me at Paramapadham, or on the Earth, or in lying position on

the Milk Ocean, or as my antharyaami in my heart. (at least in one way!)

You should show Yourself to me, the One who is Your eternal servant!

 

7. My master! My ammaanE! What a Beauty You are! How can I say! I should

say that You look like Black Sun. With those red cool Lotus flower like

eyes, lips, hands, face, and the dark Divya ThirumEni, it appears like

the black bright sun with its limitless, rays of light spanning

everywhere. You are such an exquisitely bright beautiful form and You

should come for me to see You here on this earth. Or show me Your Feet

at Paramapadham and bless me to perform kaimkaryam to Your Feet for

ever. (i.e. either You come here for me to see You or take me to Your

place)

 

8. Whenever I see the cluster of dark clouds, I think of the similar

dark form of Emperumaan's ThirumEni (Body) and feel highly elated with

that thought. Immediately I also feel depressed for not having You with

me. You drove the chariot during the kurukshEthra battle for Pancha

paaNdavaas and destroyed the 100 kauravas effortlessly. Such a saviour

of devotees,-You- how come YOU ARE NOT HERE TO save me? It is NOT

appropriate of Your nature. Hence, You should show mercy and bless me to

see Your face.

 

9. Is this the connection between You and me? I- who has been repeatedly

calling You in different names and different ways- but You have not at

all been coming. I have been crying- weeping, while calling You

lovingly, as " Oh Lord, the One who has the ChakrAyudhA in His hand! Oh

Lord, the One who has the GarudA as His flag! " etc.. Whatever amount of

my crying- shouting- yelling or calling His names., Does He actually

know that I cry for Him? I don't know. KaNNan appeared in North MathurA

to remove the burden of the Earth. Such Maayavan- Mischievous Chief-

KaNNan- What is His plan now on me?

 

10. For saving and protecting the bhakthAs, You appeared in this world

like an ordinary being (and still unbounded by KarmAs) with Your Divya

mangaLa ThirumEni and performed wonders in Your various avataars! Oh

MaayavanE (Lord of Great wonders!) You saw through the Great

kurukshEthra battle so effortlessly! Even though You such Sowlabhyan-

and appeared as cowherd boy in KrishNAvataar- appeared as an ordinary

man in Ramavataar- but You ARE the same One who fills in YOUR ENTIRETY

everywhere be it Pancha bhUthAs- be it beings- be it non-beings-

chit-achit- what not- whatever- You exist in everything as antharyaami-

YOU ARE SARVESHWARAN. You are existing like the Ghee in Milk (Dearest

Sisters and Brothers, Ghee in Milk- We can NOT see. But it is there; It

requires first fermentation / transformation process (with a little bit

of Curd- AchArya upadEsam), then it requires to be churned repeatedly -

uttering Thirumanthram- dvayam- following nitya karmAnushtaanangaL to

the fullest level with interest, similar to the persistent- constant

efforts of churning at a correct climatic condition/ temperature (else

butter will melt) - at a correct involvement and conducive mental

condition- then boiling and melting the butter for a long time to get

Ghee- similar to the continuous melting ourselves on Emperumaan's

GuNAdhisayams (wonderful GuNAs)- to get the Ghee - to get to Emperumaan

-the antharyaami). Where will I see that SarvEshwaran? When? (To see You

at Paramapadham I need to get rid of sarIra sambhandham; It is NOT

avataar time also; archaavataar- when I think- it is NOT possible for me

to be blessed- I need to Go there; antharyaamithvam- Not visible- Ghee

in Milk! Then- How will I ever see Him? Will I perish without seeing Him

at all?

 

11. Sri SadagOpar of Thirukkurugoor involved himself in Emperumaan,

asking "when will I see Emperumaan, the One who wears Thulasi maalai

(Garland)", composed 1000 pAsurams on Him. Those who read these ten out

of 1000, will be blessed with Greatest Bliss of enjoying the GuNAs of

Emperumaan at all times (during days- when they read, recite, hear about

Him and nights- even in their dreams!)

 

NammAzhwAr ThiruvadigaLE saraNam

 

 

Ram Ram

 

With Best Regards

 

NarayaNa dAsan madhavakkannan

 

 

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