Experiencing Swami Desika - 10

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SrI:

Shrimate Shri Lakshmi Nrusimha Parabrahmane Namaha:

Shrimate Shri Seetha Ramachandra Parabrahmane Namaha:

Shrimate Shri Ramanujaya Namaha:

Shrimate Nigamantha Maha Desikaya Namaha:

Shrimate Shrivan Satagopa Shri Narayana Yateendra Mahadesikaya Namaha:

 

When I was a child, I had so many wishes.

Starting from buying a beautiful dress

to learning to ride a bicycle. I was a little

reluctant to approach my father, but with my

mother I felt absolutely comfortable. Amma

is the most ideal mother we can ever imagine!

 

Amma was so patient and used to sanction what ever

I asked for. Some times I used to ask her for things

which I was afraid to ask Appa. In fact knowing my

mind Amma used to come separately and listen patiently

to all my wants. My mother is absolutely understanding!

 

Amma and Appa do all possible things to take care

of me. They don't expect anything for all what they

do! Appa and Amma always stand next to each other

in order to protect me. I'm the Luckiest!

 

I continuously keep committing mistakes. If Appa

and Amma ask me to do something, I would invariably

end up doing it the wrong way. One day, Amma was

talking about me to Appa. I had troubled Amma

a lot, and I thought she was going to complain

about me to Appa. But when I listened to it, tears

rolled down my eyes. To my surprise, even the wrong

things/ a few of my acts that could provoke appa

were so nicely presented to him by Amma.

 

After realising this, I try my level best to do

what Appa and Amma want me to do. I realised that

it is my greatest blessing to have them as my parents!

 

It is true that it is Adiyal's story, but the

parents mentioned are OUR PARENTS.

 

Our Mata is worshipped in three forms as Kaamya-arcaa,

Bogya-arcaa and Laya-arcaa.

 

In the form of Kaamya-arcaa She is in a separate sannidhi

in the temple where people worship her and get all their

desires fulfilled.

 

This is my mother sanctioning me all material requirements,

I had asked for!

 

In the Bhoga-arcaa form she is by the side of Bhagavan in the

main shrine for protecting the world.

 

This is Amma and Appa jointly protecting me.

 

In the form of Laya-arcaa, Lakshmi adorns the right side

of the broad chest of Perumal's Thirumeni itself as compassion

- incarnate and prevails upon Him to have tolerance and

forgiveness towards the erring Jivas.

 

This is my mother presenting even my wrong actions in the

right perspective.

 

Amma, please ensure that your daughter does not pray

for any materialistic desires to be fulfilled. I don't want to

see you standing alone for my sake. You've done enough

and more for me. It is my folly not to have realised

it so far. Please mould me in such a way to serve you

both now and ever.

 

Swami Desika, pours out his emotions thus:

 

Matha devi tvamasi Bhagavaan Vasudeva: pitha me

jata: soham janani yuvayorekhalakshyam dayaaya:

dhatto yushmad parijanataya desikairrapyatastvam

kimte bhuya: priyamidi kila smeravaktra vibhasi

 

-- SrI sthuti

 

Swami Desika says, Oh! divine Mother, ignoring

all my sins, with the only notion to protect me,

thou have blessed me. Lord wants to correct me

from my wrong doings by punishing me. He,

therefore becomes my father. It is by your divine

grace that I have reached great acharyas. They

offered me to you to perform Nithya Kaimkaryam.

Even now, the subtle smile on your face, seem to

reflect the question, 'what else can I do for you?'.

 

....To be continued!

 

dEsikan tiruvaDigaLE SaraNam

 

Praveena nAmni Ramanuja dasi

15th Jun 1999