my prapatti

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Dear friends,

 

It's difficult wading through your posts because I have to look for so many

words in the Dictionary of Indian Philosophy. I feel like a blind man in the

market place -- I can hear everyone talking but only have my hunger to

guide me

-- but don't feel sorry for me, because God has given me this hunger and I

will

sniff Him out like a dog would find his Master!!! Even this would be a proud

and foolish boast if I thought anyone can find God on their own. Ahh...

but I

have a clever plan!

 

Every bad kid knows that Mom is the best way to Dad. Sri Laksmi is

everywhere

about Her house and knows all about these things. She knows all the misdeeds

and the disciplines but She can't help loving us no matter how bad we are or

how undeserving. She can't help entreating Her Husband on our behalf -- I

know this is the "weak spot" so I'm asking Sri Laksmi to make my prapatti for

me. If mere acaryas can make prapatti for me, why not Laksmi?

 

Dear Laksmi,

They say only Visnu can grant moksha at the end of life to those who surrender

to Him but You are Maha Lakshmi and I ask You to accept my prapatti (on your

husband's behalf) -- even though I have nothing to surrender which isn't

already Yours. How can I even surrender myself when I am re-created every

moment? I am nothing at all apart from the continuous stream of Your Grace

which sustains all things -- still, let me pretend to exist so I can surrender

to You.

 

Please play along with Your child's game and tell him directly that You accept

his prapatti and will grant him moksha at the end of this life. We both

know I

don't deserve it -- so please forgive my mountain of sins and grant me moksha

anyway! Because I am selfish and greedy and have such little faith, I even

want

You to reply.

 

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that's it -- my clever plan, my prapatti.