Guest guest Posted December 4, 1999 Report Share Posted December 4, 1999 It started happening again while I am in the ashram. I started waking up from my bed during the deep sleep, usually shouting on something. My roommate Ramakrishna felt quite uncomfortable because of this behavior. He complained to the elders in the ashram, they gave me a separate kutia to stay. That was in Kotappakonda. In the year 1999, I don't really remembered when exactly it started happening but I started getting immense pain in my head. The headache was so severe some times I thought my head will breakdown. One time the headache was there for almost 2 days. I was lying on the hard rock and I couldn't eat or take care of myself. I was alone in the entire ashram, because the ashram was completely destroyed due to a severe cyclone. Nothing except the board of Chinmayaranyam remained. I was staying alone in the entire ashram planing to help rebuilding. It was a horrible time of my life. Gradually the headache came down. Later days the headache used to stay only for a few minutes. When ever I go to bed after a headache, I used to wakeup shouting. Often I wake up and find myself in the middle of the room, unable to grasp why I am standing in the middle of the room. I realized that I started waking up from the sleep again. This time it was a different situation, I could wake up in the middle of the event, finding myself at strange places. Fortunately, for some reason, I never went out of my kutia during that time. At least, no one complained of any such. I moved to Hyderabad. I was staying with my friend Prakash. He observed that I wakeup some times shouting or talking. He was sympathetic. He asked me to find out why I am behaving like that. I remembered Sri Raghavanarayana Sastrygaru, the advise he gave me "dreams take you near to your reality".... I started witnessing strange things in dreams. Some horrible events which I could not explain. Lot of events that are supposed to happen, were witnessed by me in my dreams. I got confused. It is horrifying to know that a nightmare could turn to reality. Though I often meet saintly people, I never discuss about my personal things with them except to my teacher. For, I believed that they know what is happening and they will let me know if anything is required. I always felt that there is no need to tell when they know everything! Then I was told I have mistaken. Thanks again to Sri Mahaganapati, he advised me to go and talk to my teacher. I moved to Bombay. I started believing that I could see some events that are going to happen in my dreams, only in Bombay. While I was in Hyderabad I never got a chance to validate my dreams. One day, I saw that I was sitting in the back of a Silver color TataEstate car. In the front seat Sri Murari Bapu was sitting and we were going to some place. I heard of Murari Bapu as a saint, who gives talks on Ramayan. I also heard that millions of people attend to listen his talks. Hence, I know that it is an impossible thing to imagine, that too traveling in the same car, with such a highly adored saint! But then it happened. One day, Dr. Shah has called me and told me that he bought a brand new TataEstate Car. I congratulated him. Then he said that he is going to visit Murari Bapu and seek his blessings by asking him to travel in the car. He told me that he would be more than happy if I could join them. I am always ready to visit any saint. I felt more than happy and readily accepted the invitation. I went to their home and Nainaamma has shown me the brand new car. For my surprise it was in Silver Color. Now, I know what is going to happen next. We went to Newbombay where Sri MurariBapu was giving talks on Ramayan. It was the first time that I met him. Sri Shah has introduced me to Bapu. Babu gave a pleasant smile, he doesn't talk before giving the lecture. We approached him just before he was going to give lecture. Mr Shah asked him to travel in his new car. Murari Bapu accepted. I sat in the rear seat and Murari Bapu sat in the front seat.... That was a pleasant dream turned reality. Life has got good aspects and bad aspects. It is after all life, we have to live through it. There are good things which happen and there are bad things also do happen. One night I saw a horrible dream. I saw that a white color Ambassador car approaching our Kotappakonda Ashram. Two people descending the car and entering the ashram in the middle of the night, with knifes and baseball bats in their hands. I saw that they were beating the people living in the ashram and looting everybody. I also saw that one of the brahmacharis being beaten blue. After a gap I saw that the robbers being caught by police... I woke up horrified. In the morning I received a call from Narasaraopet, because kotappakonda ashram was not having a phone. It was Swamini Nirmalananda on phone. She told me that robbers have attacked the ashram. I kept quite, but I realized how horrible it is to know the events going to happen in future. But of course I told her that police are going to catch the robbers in a few days. She asked me on how do I know. I told her I that know. She kept quite. I determined to get rid of these dream experiences only after the Bangalore incident. I was working for a company which is having a branch office in Bangalore. Since I am working as a Head Analysis, I need to be constantly in touch with our Bangalore processing team which consists of total seven people. They were all quite friendly. I can still recollect their names Vina, Sonia, Chakradhar. One night I saw them going on a road in a van and all of a sudden a big oil tanker came in front of the van and smashed the van. The van was crippled and all the people got killed. I woke up again with a very severe headache. After having a glass of water, I determined that this is going to happen. And I wanted to stop that. I did not realize that witnessing events need not necessarily give you the power of stopping them. I called up our office to find out that our Director left to Bangalore, early in the morning flight. I called our secretary Hemalatha. She asked me "Madhav! kAy jhalO!". I told her that some thing is really bad. By afternoon we all came to know the news. That there was a horrible accident. It was a weekend and all the Bangalore office was going for a picnic. A drunk driver drove his oil tanker recklessly and caused the accident. All the people in the van died. I could not digest this fact and I applied for immediate leave and rushed to find solace in the presence of my guru. I told my guru what is happening. She reminded me the sloka of BhagawadGita 15th chapter, where Bahagawan says "mattaH smritirjnAnaM apOhanaMca" it conveys the meaning that Bhagawan makes people to forget. She advised me to pray the almighty to take me off from these horrible dreams. By her grace I got out of the problem. Dreams no more caused me pain. A true guru alone can understand the pain that you are undergoing through sadhana. I lucky I am to have such a guru in my life! By writing all the above, I just wanted to convey that there is a reality to the dreams that we witness. Though it doesn't stand for rational thinking, there is something higher that we need to comprehend. Perhaps we can call it as a missing link. Hari Om, tat sat! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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