Guest guest Posted May 19, 2000 Report Share Posted May 19, 2000 Thank you Suprabha. A poet is one who can understand others emotions and transform them in to words of wisdom. This poem of yours really touched me. Madhava - suprabha u <saarada > > > Tears > ------- > > Caught in the web of human emotions > tears rolling down the cheeks > I sat there staring at the picture > not knowing what to do.. > > I thought ... > I understood the life > I was above and beyond > all these human emotions. > I was in control of my senses. > > How mistaken I have been? > How little I have Known? > All the austereties I have practised > All the philosophy I have studied > All the knowledge I have gained > can't seem to help me at this moment > May be they will later.. > after the intensity is gone > after all the tears are shed.. > > But right now heart is filled with pain > sorrow and grief have > over taken me and my senses. > Where is that equanimity ? > Where is that Self ? > > I just can't bring myself to move.. > seated in a lotus posture > instead of meditating > I keep staring at the picture > I keep remembering the days gone by.. > > With her > many a year I have spent > many a thing I have learnt > > In that cottage > neatly tucked away in the forest > I sat there at her feet > attentively listening > to each and every word > that came out of her lips > catching every one of them > as if they were the droplets of nectar > > Many a time I have questioned > Many a time I was admonished > yet, always eager to please > always eagerly waiting for more.. > > with all the love and compassion > with all the knowledge and wisdom > She was the Goddess > personified in human form.. > > when I felt troubled > she was the mother I needed > when I was plagued with doubts > she was the teacher I could go to > Always willing to help > always pointing out the way.. > > Now where would I go? > whom shall I talk to ? > such a void in the heart ! > I feel helpless, lost and betrayed > and as though > a part of my life has gone for ever. > > How could she do that ? > why she couldn't hang on > for a few more years atleast? > All my tears and pleading .. > Every thing in vain.. > She wouldn't budge an inch !! > What was she thinking ? > Why she has left me and others > when we need her so much ? > would I ever be able to understand > the decision she took? > would I ever be able to > come to terms with this reality? > > BUT, in the world > that is supposed to be not real > how can this thing be a reality? > If it is not, why is it affecting me like this? > Knowing every thing in the world > to be of transient nature > why do I still feel this sadness ? > Just because > I can't see her physical body any more? > > So what ? > some one questioned from inside. > Her body made up of the five elements > returned back to where it came from . > But you still have what she taught you, > the treasure of knowledge she shared with you. > and all the memories.. > why can't you go on and start where she left off ? > > Me !! carrying on where she left off ? > > crazy thoughts..No end to these > I shook my head and > closed my eyes . > Quietly chanting the mantra > I concentrated on the image inside.. > As if by a powerful jolt > the whole body became energized.. > I could see in my vision.... > a small light emanating > from the picture in the front > comes down floating .. > merges with my heart..becomes one with me... > > No more feeling of loss .. > No more sad ness. > A peaceful feeling filled with joy .. > enveloped me .... > > I knew she was inside me ... > Tears of joy ..started rolling down... > > > SUPRABHA > 5-18-2000 > > > Send instant messages & get email alerts with Messenger. > http://im./ > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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