Thy ownself [2]

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"tatpadaM darSitaM yEna tasmai Sree guravE namaH"

 

The jeevabhava the Royal "I" in every human is deeply involved in a

pastime. This is a pastime of life and death. Every birth is a new

game and every death is a goal. Game played again and again, leads

the life to the perfection --- the life which is perfectly divine!

Each life is an event between birth and death. The moment you open

your eyes it is birth, and the moment you close your eyes it is

death.

 

Life is a bridging gap between birth and death... Each life teaches a

great lesson. The "I" creates the life and he learns from it...

Strange... isn't it? The creator himself is learning from the

created. Man creates the events in his life, he learns from the

experience. Just like a spider creates all the ropes from it's own

belly, in order to design the web where it can live, the royal "I"

creates all events where it can perfectly dwell in. It creates an

event called friendship where it invites friends in to its fold. It

creates an event called marriage where it invites certain individual

to live next to it for the life. Each event in turn leads into

another event, which in turn makes the "I" busy... "I" becomes so

busy that it does not even realize that it is creating all this...

Instead, it starts playing along with the events, haplessly getting

dragged by them --- it cries for help.... Help which is nowhere to

be seen. Who can help a spider, if it gets caught in its own web!

He who has designed it only knows how to withdraw from it.

Unfortunately, we never understand that every "I" the king, is the

creator of all these events, he can very well unlock the mystery if

he wanted to...

 

Imagine you are looking in to the mirror, who can make your mirror

image real to you? The simple answer is you. As long as you stand

in front of the mirror, the mirror shows your image. The world that

you perceive is the mirror reality of the witnessing "I". As long

the "I" wishes to remain in front of the world, it witnesses all the

events... Now you may question, why can't "I" witness the "I" in the

world, if the world is nothing but the mirror image? the answer is

that "I" is again nothing but the events hence you see the events and

you can't see "I" which is hopelessly lost in it's own events...

 

When you stand in front of the mirror fully dressed, you can't expect

the mirror to show the naked "You". It can't because it is not

designed such a way. Here is the folly: The "I", having created a

life full of events and got hopelessly entangled in to it, thinks

that the world is looking plural! Get rid of those events, like

getting rid of clothes, you can see the real you... "I" can

witness "I" as the world, only when "I" is devoid of events. When

you listen to the great Seers who proclaim that "You are that", you

naturally tend to get excited, in that excitement you go home. Next

day morning you start meditating but you can not find anything... You

may question, is that real? Is the Nondual state real? How do I

know? Your question is genuine but the answer you can't expect,

because simply the question you are putting is also an event...

The "I" has to be intelligently dichotomized from the events it has

created.

 

I learned from my teacher that the "I" the king rules his kingdom

establishing 4 circles.

You can view the chart at the following link:

advaitin/ichart.jpg

 

Carefully view the chart. The "I" which is in the center is having

his family in the first circle. In circle 2 he got friends. And in

circle 3 he got his enemies. Circle 4 is very big, it encompasses

the whole world! Let me give you an analogy... Please keep looking

at the chart and imagine...

 

[story begins:]

 

Imagine that "I" have a Son. He is very dear to me, "I" am too

possessive that "I" would never allow anybody to touch him. "I" am

feeling very happy that he is growing up very good. "I" felt happy

that he is the sports champion in the college. "I" felt very happy

the day his photo appeared in the paper saying that he is the best

Athlete in the county... "I" am proud that "I" am his father... "I"

felt very happy He finished his graduation. Life is going on and "I"

am very much comfortable with the life. "I" am happy that "I" have

achieved a lot of wealth. "I" am happy about my family, about my

fame, about my job, about my surroundings. One day a disaster

struck... My son called up from his work place and said "Daddy! I

would like to speak to you, can I have some private time in the

evening". "I" was happy that he wanted to meet me and talk to

me. "I" agreed to meet him, unknowing what kind of terrible thing is

in store for me...

 

In the evening "I" was sitting in the lawn. My son came and sat. He

started telling that he loved a girl and he wanted to marry her. "I"

felt shocked. Because "I" wanted my son to marry my childhood

friend's daughter. "I" gave my word to my friend (he is in the 3rd

circle in the chart). Anyway, "I" wanted to know this girl's

whereabouts! I enquired. But "I" was horrified to know that she is

the daughter of that wretched fellow, whom I hate so much that "I"

never wanted to face him in my life. He was my classmate while I

was doing my graduation. We were friends then.. (he was in the 2nd

circle!), but he insulted me saying that I am born in a low-class

family. That time onwards "I" started hating him. Oh God! I hated

him so much but never expected that my son will fall in love with

that miserable dirt! "I" decided and told my son that "I" can't

allow him to marry her... (Obviously, you know that she is in the 3rd

circle along with her blessed father)

 

My son was very upset to know that "I" am against his decision. He

replied thus: "father, "I" don't care whether you like her father or

not, "I" am in love with her and "I" shall marry her. If you wish

you could come and bless us. Otherwise - GOODBYE".

 

That very moment, "I" started hating my son too... After all these

years, "I" spent my days and nights to bring him up. "I" spent my

own leisure time, in order to work extra hours, in order to cover his

medical expenses, his athlete gear... Finally is this what "I" get as

a result of my affection. I HATED MY SON and "I" vowed that "I"

shall never see him again. (He is instantly transferred from my 1st

circle, where my family stays, in to the 3rd circle where my enemies

are...)

 

That done. Days, weeks, years passed by.... Time has taken its toll

on me. "I" have become too old. One day my family doctor finally

gave the notice to me. He said that my days are numbered. "I" may

die any time... "I" felt quite sad... quite miserable. "I" started

remembering GOD... I started reading Bhagawad Gita... I started

thinking of all the good days I spent in my life... I wanted to see

all my children. OH GOD! "I" started missing my dear son, who left

me for that wretched... wait a minute... why should "I" hate her?

After all, she is not responsible for her father's mistake. "I"

realized what a fool "I" am. Actually, why did "I" hate even her

father? I started wondering...

 

I asked my wife to give a call to them. But even before the call is

initiated, I could see that my son has arrived knowing my situation.

He came to know that I am not going to live for long... I saw my

grand children, I saw my daughter-in-law, I saw her father --- who is

my enemy. And "I" embarrassed them all... I whole heartedly accepted

them all in to my inner circle. (Immediately, all the people so far

living in my 3rd circle have been transferred in to my 1st circle)

 

AND "I" DIED, ONE DAY FEELING VERY HAPPY THAT EVERYBODY IS SURROUNDED

ME.... End of story.

 

Look at the chart advaitin/ichart.jpg

again! There is an "I" attached to all characters in this story.

Imagine the "I" in everybody. You can clearly see the relationship

that the "I" maintains with the world.

 

[To be continued...]