symbol of conch and personal stuff

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Hi there, it's Jen who thinks this website is 'awesome'...

 

I have another question if anyone has time to get back to me:

-what is the secret meaning of the conch? if it is different in

different instances, what are the most important ones to understand?

 

 

Also I wanted to say that I resonated with Frank's recent letter and

was interested to read Tim Gerchmez's letter of intro. from a year

ago. Both people I felt I could relate to.

 

I have personally just gone through what is called now a Spiritual

Emergency but what I understand to be 'getting to into the highest

leelas of Krishna with too little preparation/eligibility/fitness'...

 

I am fine now but for months I thought I was either going to die or

go crazy...

 

Anyhow, I feel the time is now for me to undergo a great revolution

of consciousness and I am scared. How will I be? What will be my

frame of reference? HOw will my family and friends react when I'm on

the verge of renouncing the world ALL the time? What will my world

view be? Will I be able to hold on to one at all? How will I earn

money to live on? Will I be able to meet the real, culturally

abnormal and very strenuous demands of alert watchfulness, self-

sacrifice, suffering and all the rest. What of my personal faults- do

I have what it takes to go so far? ...

 

 

Many, many questions but what choice do I have... I am frightened by

the flames of samsara and of living life without religion... I feel

that during my "spiritual emergency" experience I underwent an

initiation and to do anything but live the religious life now would

be a sin...

 

(I hope it is ok that I am saying all of this on this website...)

 

Anyhow, since I'm on the topic, does anyone else feel that a sudden

violent experience or Knowing of Atman can cause mental illness?

 

And does anyone have any advice for when your past karmas are being

fructified and you are in the realized state and acting these karmas

out like a madman (it can be very difficult to have all of this

occuring at once).

 

Like I said, I am fine now (consciousness is not going to explode,

etc.)but, as well, I am afraid of backsliding too much and that is

why I joined this group- To study scripture with others who are

serious about the spiritual life...

 

Blessings, jen

 

ps. I apologize if this entry (personal details) is entirely

inappropriate to this site but if anyone has any words of advice,

encouragement or wouldn't mind answering my conch question, please

email me at jetanoir Thanks...